my words.

shocking revelation

2012-01-28T02:09:00.001+08:00

Finally met up with bev and emily after a looong time to catch up with each other over dinner @ Ramen Champz @ Iluma. It was great to see+chat with both of them again. Shared our stories, mostly of bev's and my romance life.. yada yada.

It's really funny how we used to be that three young girls roaming the school together but have grown up to lead three very different lives. Emily having just started working at a childcare centre not long, soon to pursue a diploma in childhood education. While bev's furthering her studies @ SIM.. Happy to catchup with them again and do hope that we go out again more often. :)

So we were chatting and all and bev accidentally let slip of something which really caught me by surprise - or more like shock. It really made me feel so unjustified to be holding all the blame to me and my ex not working out. Yes, I was wrong to have ended the relationship that way but really, it honestly isn't fair to judge just like that.

"the relationship was a mistake right from the beginning." I honestly don't know what to say. I didn't feel anything when I first heard that from bev but I couldn't stop thinking about that phrase. It is so disgusting, humiliating and insulting at the same time. Apparently, I have been a rebound all those while. I seriously don't get it.

What makes it stupid is that I was the one being chased and I was the one who got asked to be in the relationship. I put in my all, at least for that long period (at least a year) before internally realising we aren't meant for each other. YET, IT WAS A MISTAKE FROM THE START. My dear boy, if you find me a chore, which you already knew my personality and expectations of a rltnship, you should have goddamn not made those moves in the first place. And not ending it while it's still early and forcing yourself to accept me as your girl, what nonsense.

The worse thing is, the person who knew the truth and whom I took as my best friend hid it from me all these while. I treasure you best friend, but time and again, I feel so insulted and heartbroken by your actions. you knew I always had a liking towards someone else, though I pushed those feelings away as I wanted to put in my all in the relationship (admittedly wrong). You knew I wasn't being loved, and I wasn't in love, BUT you kept quiet. I really don't know whether I should be angry at you or not, but for the sake of our friendship, I don't wanna start a probable quarrel, esp for smth which has passed. however I can't deny how disappointed I am.

On this note, I wanna end off by saying how afraid I am of people now. People are such scary things. But at least from this, I learnt how stupid we have all been and how we should have ALL made out intentions clear. Perhaps then, things would have straightened out fine.

Time to prepare; bless me!

2012-01-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

So the other day, I finally mustered the courage to email the dean of wkwsci to show my interest and for a short meeting/chat. Got a reply from the manager of UG studies inviting me to meet her and a Assoc Prof/Assist Chair next Wed afternoon. I was in the office and the moment I read the mail, I couldn't focus on my work man! So happy, but so damn nervous too.

Thankful to have this chance so I am going to prepare well though it's right after the CNY holidays. Gotta make this worthwhile! Really want this so let's go bling!

Bless me!

Can't wait for CNY. ANGBAO *-*

Bye 2011, hello 2012

2012-01-08T14:43:00.002+08:00

Here goes another attempt to revive my blog. Been wanting to blog for very long but procrastination always gets the best of me. BUT, I shall make an effort this time round. (I say this to myself every time)

Well anyway, 2011 has come and gone, so has my schooling life (until I get into university). Many things have changed, especially friends. It's really funny how you can put your all into a group of people, disregard time with family and other friends to spend time with them, place them as high priority and regard, and that group you call good friends turn their backs on you just because of one thing you did (morally) wrong, even though if it wasn't directed at them. It goes to show the superficiality of human beings. (but then again, I did something wrong, so who am I to judge? even if I conceded)

So there goes my only group of 'friends', I'm not shy to say I've lost all my friends now, it's better than being around with bogus 'friends'. But I do cherish the times we've had, it was really fun while it lasted. I wish, however, that I had spread out my time to bond with other people as well.

That aside, I've found a really great guy, a really wonderful boyfriend. Not that I'm boasting or trying to comfort myself for the turn of events or being cliche. I'm really thankful to have found someone who is so alike me, and with whom I can always be myself around without having to worry that he finds me sickening one day. and.. I love him to bits (:

It sucks that poly life is over. Sucks even more that I didn't get into the course/school that I wanted (and still want to go to). Really regretted not putting effort into scoring better during Year 1 and 2. I did my best in year 3 though: scored rather well but it was too late to pull up the very-average-DMC grade, which is not enough.

Therefore, I'm working now, and REALLY hopefully (please pray for me), my work experience helps me with this year's application. NTU applications starts in Feb, and I'm already feeling so nervous and stressed about it now. WKWSCI, I really wanna be part of you. I've put in my best to prove myself ever since Year 3 till now, and I pray that I will be rewarded with a place. Sure, I can go somewhere else, private uni or smth, but it still isn't as wholesome. And it's expensive too.

Work-wise, I've worked at MDA previously as an admin/event assistant for the ScreenSingapore 2011 project. Really great experience and met lots of wonderful people there that made my short 1 month+ stay memorable. Currently working at MCYS, Youth Division now, for Youth.SG, pursuing my writing interest. Worked for 3 months as an intern, miserly pay but it doesn't matter as I want experience, not money. It's great though, as I got a good boss and colleagues, and a place where my work is appreciated. :)
BUT STILL... work life is so tiring compared to school. I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOOOL. I miss studying.

That's all for now. Pretty much sums up 2011 for me.
After typing all these, I realise my first post into reviving my blog seems so emo. lol~ Ahhhh, whatever.

Don't let me go

2011-10-18T16:29:00.001+08:00

Because there is only one you, that is why I'm afraid.

We can work things out,

Please don't go away.

I love you, I really really do. <3

update of my life

2011-07-11T19:20:00.001+08:00

Hi world,

finally decided to blog after ages (of laziness).

am blogging now as I am now jobless and I have nothing to do.
Finally graduated from poly, but its really sad that both ntu n nus comms doesn't want me.
boohoo!

but its alright, imma work for a year, accumulate a good working experience and use it as my 'weapon' when i apply again next year. NTU/NUS. you watch out! *determined*

so for the time being, I should go look for a PROPER job that can help me in my resume/portfolio.
*dread* i hate looking for jobs, its so tedious... ahh well.

-

lifestyle's changed a lot since a while back.
many things have came and gone.
for the better, or for worse?
I really do not know but I sure hope I can get over some stuff and make this situation be for the better.
Besides, I'm supposed to be 'all grown up' now that i'm already 20.
ahh.. this sucks.

back to square one

2011-07-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

I said Im gonna leave you alone and just move on and forget everything.

But truth is, I really can't.

I miss you dear friend,
do you still 'like' me?

though it might sound v drama, but I really want you back.

\\ evermore so tired than before

self-destructive mood

2011-05-19T21:14:00.000+08:00

goodbye my 8-10 years best friend.
i have enjoyed the times with you & there will always be memories.
i know i have been a bitch & have done things i shouldn't have done.
people say best friends will stand by you through whatever happens,
people tell me you are not worth it & i'll meet better friends.
& yes i have said mean things about you, yes i don't like some things about you,
but still, you have been my best friend n i accept your flaws.

I know i'd be thoroughly heartbroken at your answer as to how you now see this friendship. & yes, i am devastated. It sounds really drama but its gonna take me awhile to move on. This is how much i value us.

Thank you & I wish you the best in your future.
Bye.

amazing

2011-05-04T23:32:00.002+08:00

you are an amazing guy.
like a dream come true.

Diddy - Dirty Money - Coming Home ft. Skylar Grey

I’m coming home
I’m coming home
tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
tell the World I’m coming

<3

get lost

2011-04-20T15:41:00.002+08:00

Fuck off people, it's none of your business.

Ya I'm the bitch, tell everyone that. happy now?
It's none of your FUCKING BUSINESS.

you got issues, settle it.
What has happened has happened, FACE IT.
The boat won't go straight if you don't steer it.

seriously man, I'm the one who is wanting to settle things, talk. Run away, avoid all you want. That hate will stay within you.

And to everyone else, yes yes hate me all you want, criticize me, yes. I did it once.. I might do it again.. Karma.. blablabla.
I agree. Who knows? No one will. I know im a disappointment, a disgust, a bitch.. whatever.

But I'll leave the post with this:
I have done wrong, I do feel guilt.
I have betrayed, I am sorry.
Everyone fucks up, this is my huge/great/wtfsrsly fuck up.
Every side has a story, even the bad guy, we're just not entitled to speak or be believed.
I am open to hate, criticisms, whatever, but I am human too, I feel pain too when trampled.
In time to come, things will become clearer.
& if anyone got issues with me, I am ready to talk, anytime.

crazy emotional rollercoaster

2011-04-15T16:02:00.000+08:00

Hello world.

Lots have happened. I shall not go into the details cause I'd prolly break down again.

All I've got to say is, this family i used to have..

I treasure all the times we have had. Once, we were so close and happy together, but things have changed. And now, because of my selfishness of betraying daniel, I have messed the fuck out of everything and everyone. I am a huge disappointment to everyone, even to myself. To think I would be the one doing such a thing, shocking huh.

And yeah, I agree with what everyone says, if i did this to Daniel, who says I won't do it with another guy? The only thing i can say is, I really haven't felt such a strong feeling before.. and I am just being real. Sure, I haven't handled things well. ..Perhaps I should have ended things properly before doing anything else.. but... it was crazy and things just happened. Though it seems meaningless now, all that I say, but all I can do know, is say I am sorry and pray that over time, things will turn out fine.

Thank you Daniel, for giving me your love. I have let you down. I know what I've done is gonna hurt you, a lot. But dear boy, I hope you move on quick. I ended this as soon as possible as I did not want you to be in a position i used to be in when i was with Tyler. You asked if there was no second chance, I couldn't say yes. I couldn't drag it anymore because its gonna hurt more. I'm gonna hurt you real bad this once, but just this once. No dragging. Let me be the asshole.

Goodbye Daniel.

school holidays

2010-06-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

Hello.
haven't been blogging for a long time, yet again.
been busy with school work + lazy

tday's the first day of school hols, until 26 june. spent the day at home. bah. did household chores as mom's as jakarta. the house is so quiet i feel so lonely. D:

im too lazy to blog about all the things previously but anyw, school has been hectic, lotsa work to do since we dont have exams. FYP isn't well. things are all screwed up. Internship is coming, nov 29. so worrying. i havent even filled up my Fact Sheet thingy, wanted to source for my own internship but i think id prolly leave it to the school in the end.

my birthday has passed. celebrated with CJs and family. really happy for what CJ got/did for me, really enjoyed the celebration with em. love the ice cream cake that i chose for meself. haha! love the kindersurprise+babycar+patrick from daniel, love the BIG WHITE heart ttm from bev and love the vest thingy. most of all, loved the company. we played monopoly. 8 persons. very draggy but i loved how fun it was. :D
i love my family (: mom was tired but still did all the preparations etc.

haven't been gg back to SDZ. i miss the moderners so bad. i haven't danced for very very long too. i miss dancing. esp with moderners and CJDs.

now that its the hols. i wanna catch up with sec sch friends. esp emily, n marlene. i miss them so much. D':

daniel's at cecelia's chalet now. bev's out with kk etc cus its kengboon's birthday. (happy birthday kb!) boohoo. im feel so lonely. D:

=[

2010-06-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

very much deifsitassid. wheres the effort? pwft.

games ; dance ; friends ; love

2010-04-11T17:34:00.001+08:00

Hi! been long since i blogged.
lazy again.

oh, i finally learnt how to play Dota! though there are many haters of it (& likers too) i actually find the game quite okay. its fun, but it gets boring quite easily(to me). and yes i finally understand why 'If a guy replies you during a game of dota, he really loves u.'

i've been going back to dance again, since its the hols, and plus sdz having some kinda a crisis now, and to tell the truth, i feel very bad/sad for aug that he's doing so much for the club, macham one man show. i cant jus stand by the line and not help him, thus id be a lil more active now. BUT im not very sure that i'd be active when school starts. I don't wanna & CANT put dance above my studies now. its year 3 already, time flies fast like crazeh. FYP currently, then when it ends, its itp and out to the world already. *afraid*

there's different different thoughts on my mind on who my friends are now. i wonder if i'd have any friends that will stay through with me at all. sometimes i think im antisocial. bah. whotever.

1st april, i got TOOTHIE!

=D SO CUTE RIGHT! thanks dear for the trouble u went to just to get it for me. (: & i only got you a packet of M&Ms. =x

we went to Cathay to get tix for how to train your dragon. warao the queue was so F long, so we went up to the other counters in hope that it'd be faster. AND THEY WERE ALL CLOSED. wtf? in the end we still went back to the loong queue @ the entrance of the building.
then we went to Pomo to eat Mad Jack! =D dope BPCC there.

he called cream sauce chicken chop. wasnt much special. the black pepper one is still the best =P

slacked in Mad Jack's for a bit then went back to Cathay for the movie which he treated me. YAY! thanks dear (: then i bought popcorn for us. super long since i had popcorn in a movie. i like salty, he likes sweet. but thats good cus he wont snatch from me. (Y)
HTTYD was a nice movie. Toothless the Night Fury dragon is so cute! hah! and the graphics is really nice too, even though i didnt watch it in 3D.

afterthat, we went to meet his secondary school classmates for dinner, then slacked.

really late post but,
Happy 5th month dear :D

yesterday, met daniel at bishan, waited for him(cus he had stomachache) though id be late for FYP meeting if i do, then we trained to city hall tgt, said hi to the CJs n kai, then bye. haha, cus they met early for R16 registration, & i had to go for FYP meeting @ raffles city BK. it was damn cold in the morning.

the meeting was alright, kinda lil awkward though, cus we've never worked tgt before but i guess its alright, not too bad. good that the rest is still quite tolerant of us (o4s) gg off-topic sometimes. haha! be meeting again nxt thurs n sat morn. hmm..

went to marina square foodcourt to find CJs after my meeting. wa the rest of the usuals(ks diane fong etc) were there too. hi! hah. afterwhich, went to padang for the R16 event.

R16 was great, GRATS TO JANNSON FOR WINNING THE BEATBOX COMPT!
treat us noodle house ken ah. haha!

i didnt see much of the bboy cus it was F HOT and the padang was F muddy. damn heartpain for my shoes. walao. then no mood to see. grats to chunky for winning Locking & KS for popping! popping was really fierce competition. from 65 competitors! wao poor judge. i think he headache sia. LOCKING KHAN shuai sia! & his showcase is SO NICE.

dope!

but the event dragged n dragged cus it was coinciding with the Urbanfreestyle + soccer thingy at the other half of the padang. then keep having intervals with other perf n stuff. bleh. had a quickie mac dinner n rushed home. i got sunburnt from standing under the sun all day, and my whole body ache. and i took 50mins to wash my shoes. X.X

see. walao eh. somemore i cleaned it halfway (during the Top 16 > top 8 interval) at Funan's toilet. cus i couldnt take it, even though it'd be dirty again when i go back to watch the rest.

today's What the Funk. CJs watching tgt but i decided to skip it, cus im tired of gg out all day. gonna stay at home for tday + needa pack stuff for chalet. :D

aight, tmr's class chalet, cant wait. and tues bev kk jl n daniel gg taiwan.
damn. D: i wish i can go too.

Flair Production ; results

2010-03-25T14:02:00.000+08:00

Helloo im back.

haven't been bloggin cus life has been mundane.
i've been at home 4 days straight last wed - sat so there's nothing to blog about actually.

Flair Production last sunday!
met bev earlier to walk around at Tamp One cus i didnt wanna stay at home. & saw this super adorbs soft toy! a tooth! love it ttm luh! but its $16.90. =X

then met dabunnie n yw n weixiang & ate at the foodcourt near the interchange. me n bev left first for the tamp CC cus daniel(flair) needed help. so we helped out as doorpersons. thank heavens dabunnie yw n wx came to help also becus the situation became super chaotic when the crowd came. i think if only me n bev tended the door for tix n door gifts(nasi lemak, mineral water & Mr. Potato) , we'd prolly die. hah! but it was fun nonetheless.

sad that we missed the MV n the intro dance. but on the whole, it was a very entertaining concert/production. the MCs Gen & Ragu were awesome! haha! Good job Flair n CJDs! i think its really a good show considering such a small group for a production. (Y)

oh oh & i love the deco of the hall. they put up helium-filled balloons n let it float up to the ceiling! so nice!

okay SP finally released exam results.
i got 4 Bs and 3 B+s. cumulative gpa 3.2
its.. average but i thought id do better, a lil disappointed.
but either way.. i dont really care very much =x

dance

2010-03-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

hello. been occupied again, this time with dance. (:
yea im back to dance. after waves ive been so caught up/busy with projs n assignments and CAs that i was too lazy/busy/moodless to dance. but now that its hols, & im too lazy to look for a job, shall jus go back to dance.

went for mel's Soul/Groove training on wed. i actually considered not going partially becus i was tired (couldnt wake up) & partially becus i feel 'incompetent enough' for this genre. but i went anyway. & im glad i did. (:
it was fun. & i kinda like soul, though i cant do 'it' well yet but i like it much. + after it ended at 2.30 mel talked to us for rather long, her experiences, words of wisdom, etc. learnt more from what she said but i shant say it here, but it made me respect her muarrrr!

ooh btw there's pets in my house again! parrots and 3 terrapins.

din take pic of the terrapins becus i dont find it cute =x yea bias right haha. but they're not mine/myfamily's anyways. my uncle/cuz just put it here for a few days cus they're overseas for hols.

LOCKDOWN 2010!

went for Lockdown ytd. i didnt know whether to join or not until the very last minute. so we met early for lunch at Pomo. then slacked. til the last min then i decided to join. cus i figured i could save $3 bucks, plus i should really go try it out for once, plus i borrowed zoot pants from sha n belt from daniel already, plus yewwen n jl n amiel n edwin all joining & evryone encouraging me to join. thanks for the support all, if not id prolly had no guts at all. haha!

wow long 'speech' anyway i din get through the auditions, but its okay, cus i myself know i didnt do well, i was much too nervous, but i enjoyed the inpromptu 3 v 3 friendly battle. i was much less stressed during then.

this lockdown was quite an eyeopener. girls are starting to take over man! cool. (: grats Diane for getting champ! & good job to Su Lin and the other girl who went all the way to top 8! & also ws for

words of wisdom by Aga. (Y) Dance purely. let the music move your body. not your mind/moves. yeahhhhhhhhh!

the ring, the exams, the toys & the celebrations

2010-03-07T21:56:00.001+08:00

Hello. i haven't blogged for quite a while, had been busy with the last two papers previously, & then busy with going out to celebrate & stuff.

First. yay! the ring that daniel brought me to make during our belated vday is finally here. (: so nice. like it very much :d

thanks dear for the ring. teehee. :d (: =D

on 2th march was my 2nd last paper, PR paper. after that, went to bishan to meet daniel for lunch. we went to the arcade first cus werent v hungry yet. sadly no one was catching any toys from the toy catching machines. THEN. daniel saw this pair of halloween edition stitches in the Marksmen machine. then he decided to try and get it cus he had been looking for that specific toy & he liked it v much.

and he got it! after 4 tries.. which is 6bucks! not bad luh. (: YAY. i got 1 of em. say hi to cho & chi (: cho is the thinner one (MINE!) chi is the fatter one (like daniel)

so cute right!

muha. then slacked around. then went to his house for a while, left my (his) jacket in his house cus i dont wanna carry it around, heavy.
met CJ @ somerset then went to NOODLE HOUSE KEN! to celebrate JL's belated birthday. YAY man, finally get to eat NHK. first time! after so many failed attempts to go eat.

Happy Birthday! *faster find gf*

shared Stylo Milo with daniel(he paid, muha) @ enfrost cafe after L4D2ing. its nice :P

i only had 1 day to study for media law paper from scratch. cus i spent the day (of after PR paper) out with CJs. & on the 4th. the law paper was quite okay surprisingly. had FYP briefing afterthat, i shant talk about it here cus its strictly confidential. (yes its that serious). but thoughts about it-ohgawditsucks D:

after all the dilly dally & waiting for each other after all the different briefings. finally went to Mad Jack & Island Creamery with o4 again! this time round, to celebrate not only the end of our exams, but THE END OF EXAM PAPERS WE WILL EVER TAKE IN SP EVER AGAIN. yay! no more exams anymore.

i had my black pepper chicken chop as usual. hmm, the sauce actc taste better than those of Astons! the pepper smell is stronger. i like (:

then headed to Island Creamery, as usual like the previous time. & shared 3 tubs. this time round Strawberry Sorbet, Nutella & REVERSIO (my fav) . Best thing is... we din need to fork out a single cent. just nice our class fund had $27 & we decided to jus use it all to pay for the 3 tubs.

din get a chance to take a pic before the tubs of ice creams were devoured, so here is just a tiny representation of the icecream. =\

below marks our first celebration last year.
above marks our celebration this year.
awesome much?
definitely. (Y)

5th march, met bev in the (late) morning to take kk's cake + present then went over to daniel's house. cooked and had the korean kimchi noodles that i bought from ntuc before gg over. woo. super nice, love it! quite ex though, even on promotion its $4 for 5 packets. but i like it, so its worth it. :D

slacked in his house, then went to Dhoby to meet CJs, went to Astons. Kengboon runliang n boonguan gave a planned surprised attendance. meaning we knew they were coming but they kept it secret from bev n kk. v lazy to go into details so here goes...

taking out the candles by mouth/teeth, as usual requested by us.
Happy Birthday KK!

afterthat, L4D2-ed again. we(my team) lost like crazeh. D: but it was fun.

ytd, went for Chunky's Locking open class with daniel yy n jl. haha, we had to switch to a bigger studio cus there were too much ppl in the class for the small studio. klock jin n fong joined in also. it was fun, the class. learnt the Gerk & Hitchhike & Ski (Y) i like the Gerk.
afterthat went to daniel's house & had the korean noodles again!! woooooo! love it ttm. (:

hmm, im thinking of getting a super short-term part-time job, should i? =\

food! ; EXAMS

2010-02-24T22:59:00.002+08:00

Hi!

One day, i was craving for selegie Tau Huay. (actually i crave for it for many days)

& I FINALLY HAD MY TAU HUAY! ...

planned to eat Noodle House Ken on monday with dar as we got 'rejected' when we went on 18th & found it closed for CNY. AND IT WAS CLOSED ON MONDAY cus it only opens from 6pm onwards. fail much. wake up early to go there somemore. in the end we ate at some eatery called Tian Tang smth smth. at Cuppage Plaza opp the NHK place. it was not bad.

then went to walk around. when we wanted to walk to the Tau Huay place it started raining. so slacked at The Cathay for a while while i studied 2 lectures of Advertising Management. oh i saw Dorothy with her bf while walking there. haha! so cute luh, they were pushing each other. din call her cus i wasnt sure and when i cfmed her identity they went away liao. =\

TAU HUAY FTW! :D

eeww.. look so horrible can!

see.. unlike mine, so neat and nice and appetizing.

hmm oh anyway random much, i had Baked Alaska for the first time!
@ some wedding dinner at Swisshotel. it was the dessert.

looks damn good right!

it was deeelicious. (Y)

hmm, wells on the other hand. 2 papers down.
2 more to go. PR paper next tues n media law nxt thurs. =[
i cant wait for freeeeedomm!

oh, & congrats (late) to Y2K again for being champ for FTL 2010! & to Left2Lock for making it far too. (: keep working hard yo CJs! :D
wish kk matt n dabunnie the best for their I-Talents finals this sat. (Y)

first update of the year

2010-02-20T18:20:00.001+08:00

hellooo world.

i figured its time i should blog again (actually it hit me long ago that i should)
& since im bored now (i should be studying but i choose not to) ,
i shall do a post now, and then look for a new blogskin.
im DYING TO GET A NEW SKIN. gawd, seeing my blog in this state makes me wanna puke.

*pukes*

okay well happy 2010. brand new year, time flies. its my last teenage year now before i hit the big two. boohoo.

loads happened again, as usual;
i just completed year 2 in poly. wow.
my class, o4, is as awesome as ever. blessed to be with o4.
first met curry jiis, and am now part of em.
am now not close to SDZians. kinda sad. & havent been gg back. i just.. dont like the atmosphere anym, its weird D: but i do miss them much. esp the moderners. sigh.
am now happily attached to @lucariooo (: teehee.

its CNY. and V.day just passed too.
celebrated belated V.day with daniellll after my finance paper(18feb). we met early & bought tix for Percy Jackson @ The Cathay. right after that coincidentally bumped into anna mel n dennis. i was stunned luh! turns out they were gg up to watch Kisses with kel n shaun.

ASTONS! while waiting for movie to start. the only thing i could eat was actc grilled fish with herbs, but i ate black pepper one instead. muahahah! BLACKPEPPER ftw! (:
Percy Jackson is cute!!! i love their eyes luh! beautiful. the girl's pretty too.

we wanted to eat Noodle House Ken for dinner but.. IT WAS CLOSED FOR CNY. sian lor. i think i got no fate to eat NHK. =[ in the end we went to 313's Food Republic. the food we had sucked. x.x blabla. before heading home, went to orchard central's rooftop garden. (: teehee.

some Piktuars:

full album @ FB, as usual.

o wells, much has happened. shall jus move on.

3 more papers and its hols! cant wait. finance paper was 2 days ago, next is Advertising Management on 24th; Public Relations Management & Practices on 2th March; Media Law and Ethics on 4th March.

nothing much to say now.. oh, tday's FTL, NOW actc. but im not there cus its too expensive. D: but o well, wish baby and CJs and all the best! heard that Left2Lock and Y2K made it thru auditions, hope they have fun battling later.

BYE am now gonna source for skinszzz.

So fucking pissed

2009-10-25T01:30:00.001+08:00

This whole post is full of rants and Fucks. so don't read, or bear with it.

i dont understand why i am not allowed to go stay over at my friends' houses.
i felt bad for showing the lousy side of me infront of the CJs but TBH(to be honest) , the part of not being able to ton is 1 thing, but the main thing that im really BOOMZZSHINGZ about is that i really dont understand how my bro always get to ton and i dont.
i mean, yeah sure , about being protective esp when imma girl.
& yeah sure whatever, im JUST 18 to them. BUT 18 LEH. WALAU. ok fine dont talk about age.
thing is. ive always. ALWAYS been a v good girl, good as in the way that i always listen to them. i have never,
NEVER ran out before. and everytime i go out, i tell them what is it abt etc.. and the few times i was allowed to ton, IM STILL OK. IM STILL CLEAN.

i mean like. point is. yes sure, they will be worried.
BUT LOOK. THEY SHOULD HAVE MORE FAITH n TRUST IN ME WHAT.
its not like i go out or stay out late or dont come home every other day.
its not like my friends are indecent people.
its not like im an indecent / promiscuous girl.
im just asking for a night at my friends' house with a group of friends.
what's so fucking wrong with that la? nb.

& thing is. even if u dont allow me,
AT LEAST FUCKING GIMME A FUCKING REASON WHY LA.
"Why cannot?!?!"
"Cannot means cannot, you come home now."
WHAT THE F U C K ?
its like its like... punching me in my face. and then telling me, "oh, i just wanna punch you."

its like, at least gimme a reason why i am not allowed to go la can?!
i feel so fucked up.
i feel so disatisfied.
its like damn bu4 gan1 xing1 la can.
i cant go for no fucking reason at all. just becus they buay song dun lemme go.
and then when i come home they act like v good to me n stuff just becus they feel bad.
WHAT SHIT. THEN LEMME GO LA. ITS NOT LIKE IMMA COMMIT A CRIME LIKE THAT..

FUCKING PISSED LA.

depressed & unmotivated

2009-10-06T22:17:00.002+08:00

urgh. currently having gastric pains. ate already but still hurting. feels like as if smth is eating up my stomach. arggghhh

i wanna chg blogskin soon. the images link all screwed up and the dividers also all off. cannot stand it!

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locking @ 3 - 5pm just now. i forgot n thought it was cherie's choreo, lucky i checked.
Curry Jii session @ rp tday full-gear wear n taking vid. ahh! wanted to go but didnt. but anyway i was and still am feeling quite down n unmotivated becus of some issues.

its because of those little things
and those few selfish stubborn SELECTIVE & immature people
that will make us upset
and disappointed.
at this rate,
the disappointing 'tradition' of sticking with cliques
and disregarding the rest..
it will pass down and down and down.
& xxx will never be as one.

at least thats how i feel.
and now i know why some people choose to leave.
because the feeling is horribly dreadful.
and the environment doesn't welcome us at all.

the popular will stay popular
and the disregarded will stay disregarded.
Period.

-no personal offence intended-

SDZ Waves 14 Intensive Dance Camp ; Curry Jii

2009-10-06T00:54:00.000+08:00

hello again, after 100 years.

im too lazy to update most stuff but anyway, SDZ Waves 14 Intensive Dance Camp was over the weekend. Last fri to sun. It was quite slack for me, was really boring at some times. i think those free times supposed to be for us to practice on our own but i was too lazy (so were many others). but either way it was fun.

Spent the whole camp with moderners. First night was awesome. played candles n sparklers n carried lanterns with them. thanks to pearl nadiah bev n some of the jrs for buying n brging the stuff. awesome shitballz. Pics on FB n shasha's blog. love it. (:

Spent many monies $$$ on unhealthy food sia. zzom.

Anyway, Waves 14 "Circus" is gonna be the dopest of the dope. :D
hohoho.
Die die must watch if not regret ah!

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On other news...

CURRY JII! hohoho.
i should really focus on locking. been learning locking for quite some time now but my improvement is so little.
grateful to daniel for encouraging me to session with the curry jii lockers last tues (29 sept) n bringing me into curry jii. learnt quite a lot from just that 1 session. my strengths n weaknesses, what to improve on, confidence, etc. it was scary at first but really fun.
love it.

locking with them was really a.. hmm. enriching experience luh. somehow, i dont know how to explain the feeling but it was really different from dancing with people in sdz.
somehow it feels more comfortable.
all i have to say is, i really wanna session with them more often.
& more importantly, i need & WANT to build up my confidence,

Curry Jii yay!

CJ gonna session n take vid tmr, i wanna goooo but then again i think i should spend some time on cherie's choreo first. 100% vetting on sat. *dieded*

long time no blog

2009-09-13T00:27:00.001+08:00

hello world.

its been 1274033985093483975837 years since i last blogged.

been too lazy to touch my blog, plus, blogger keep having bugs and its annoying whenever i wanna blog, so i decided to give up. hah.

anyways. lots have happened n passed. oh, i din get into o sch recital's locking. =[ rather disappointed but ah well, at least i tried. (:

WAVES 14 CONCERT'S NEXT. 6 Nov baby!
heheh! locking locking yo! n cherie's modern choreo. yessah! :D

wanted to do a more proper post , but blogger is screwed up again, links and buttons all over the place, see liao also sian. D: so. i shall do so next time (soon, hopefully)

oh oh and! im turning into a 'korean' haha! kpop ftw.
SUJU ; SUNGMIN OPPA! saranghae.

pissed and disgusted and disappointed

2009-07-30T21:47:00.003+08:00

i am super pissed and disgusted that it makes me don't wanna do any work.
What the fuck.

you call this a relationship between 'best friends'?!
bullshit.
i've been giving in and keeping quiet.
trying to put myself in your shoes
and support you in whatever you aim for.
and letting you have your way even if it means doubting me just for some guy,
who obviously doesnt reciprocate your efforts at all.
then whats the point of forsaking friendship for him.

super #@$@#%$## disappointed.
never been so pissed about the situation before,
always thought it was my fault and all,
so i always tried to do my best to make the situation to your favour.
and try again and again not to let this friendship die.

but what you fucking asked for just now...
wow.
broke my heart.
in an instant.
can you stop being so sensitive.
every SINGLE LITTLE THING also got problem.
fuck la

whatever ok. whatever. i dont have time to care about all this shit.
if even after me making it clear to you that i value u as a best friend,
you still doubt me about every little thing.
go ahead and think whatever crazy irrelevant thing you want,
since there is no fucking point in me salvaging anything anyway.

call me petty, call me immature,
i'm just tired.

and now i have to do my work.
bye.

tremendous workload

2009-07-28T01:10:00.001+08:00

Group projects

GEMs CA3 presentation in which i haven't done anything yet at all.
Due: 3 August

MMR CA2. report on Social Media and its impact on SG Youths. 20+ to 60 pages long.
Due: 14 August

DMA CA3. 2 minute Fujitsu viral marketing video/advertisement for CA3. Choreo+casting+props+costume+schedule+filming+editting
Due: 17 August

Individual assignments

LSC CA2. Using what we have learnt in Law to create a case and...
Due: 7 August

FW CA3. Interview someone above 50 and can not be parents or direct relatives. Must be able to recall difference before and after MRT came about. 600 - 700 words Feature essay.
Due: 14 August

Dance

Hip Hop battle cum exam on 12 August
Recital auditions on 23 August
Waves preparations round the corner

urggh. 24 hours a day is totally not enough for me to handle all these.
i can not break down now.
do or do not, there is no try.
Just do it.
and do it well.

how i wish i have that special someone to share my burden with.
but then again.. time's a factor.

depression?

2009-07-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

yessah. MST's officially over for me.
awesome shitballz.

CB paper (consumer behaviour) tday = heart attack die already.
i'd be glad to just get a pass.
hate to say it but although Rajan's lessons were very relaxed and fun,
& the donuts+cheese+soup tulang+etcetc were awesome-ism
i realised i haven't really learnt much.
time to make up for it.

bah. din get to watch Dance Subaru in the end cus of time constraints + various reasons.
came to realize some stuff that clarified and made my assumption even more true,
which also made me feel even gloomier.

Now that MSTs are over, time to worry about stupid DMA and the Fujitsu ad.
I can't wait for dance to resume.

i suddenly have a yearn for old friends/classmates reunions.

is this what it mean by depression?

sadded

2009-06-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

i feel so sad for myself that i don't know whether i cry for myself or i cry because i'm down.

Law paper in 12 hrs time.
I don't know how the stuff's gonna get into my head like this.
Awesome ballz.

where is the love?

2009-06-27T02:32:00.001+08:00

at this age and time, things are moving so fast.
we are all so busy and caught up with things we believe are important,
we don't stop to think;
what is it i'm doing?
why is it like that?
where is the love?

sometimes i wished i could just stay a young kid. being mature is just a pain in the ass.
so many things is happening around and about, so much so that sometimes i don't know what is happening anymore. i don't know what i'm doing anymore. i lost my 'dreams'. i lost my 'aims'. i lost the love for things i use to yearn/aim for. it's like as if im just living each day aimlessly.

sometimes i wished i was like, snow white or something. happily ever after. & im not talking about prince charming. im trying to say the 7 dwarfs part. (i can't think of any other better examples)
if you could actually find 7 true blue real friends that stick with you throughout and be there for you for whatever and whenever, who will listen to whatever rants or chats, who will not doubt you at all, who will not forsake you for anything else, who will support you fully,
i respect and envy you.

sometimes,
one is like a baby sparrow stranded in the middle of a carpark
because it just broke its tiny legs.
wanting to call out,
but doesn't in the end,
as it doesn't know who will be willing to listen out for its tiny chirp,
and who will be willing to fly down to help.
and it doesn't want to be look down upon as weak,
or bothersome.
and it thinks to itself:
"such a small existance and in this big big world"
"who knows, perhaps no one will even notice if something happened"

hah.

sometimes it feels like the world is so unreal,
so. superficial.

and with this,
i cry , "where are you, dear sparrows?"

April - June MASS updates

2009-06-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

Tag Replies:
booon & jing - thanks. (:
kelly - finally update le. haha!
ERINA - heys! hahas, okay. thanks! (:
ethel and jeanne - linked!

Apparently, i've been dead lazy to do anything about my blog and its been dead for veryyyyy xxxxxx long.
Therefore im back to update. hah!

I am SUPER too lazy to type alot, plus i plan to finish studying OM by tday,
SO. i jus gona put pics.

5 June (friday) :
Last day of the term - o4's Soup Tulang(bone marrow) session with Rajan!
Felt bad that he payed for everything. =|

This. are my classmates.

4 June (thursday) :
Monsters VS. Aliens 3D movie with o4.

stylo milo 3D shades leh~
but so uncomfortable.

1 June (Monday) :
My 18th birthday. im legal, yay!
Thanks...
o4 for the celebration! & esp to ven for choosing the awesome RoadDawgs cap (i will upload pic..soon)!
and paiseh i din go for lecture and spoil yall's awesome plan to show the slides with the SUPER UNGLAM pics of me and then get the whole lecture to sing for me. :D

& to my mom and dad who organise evrything for me so that i get to celebrate my 18th birthday with all my relatives & cousins straight after i rush home from camp. (:

& to evryone who wished me. (:

29 - 31 May (Friday - Sunday) :
SDZ orientation camp.
Lots of ups and downs luh basically.
Felt that it wasnt as good as our year's.
But good job nonetheless. (:

Why are we/am i so Cock?
We/I also don't know.
:D

Pyjama Party! :D

23 May (Saturday) :
HS Anniversary outing @ Sentosa.
was afraid that i would be extra but it was okay. haha.
but kinda disappointing at the turn up rate.
no choice bah.

and in the end i din go KO Night to watch.
ah. =\

15 May (Friday) :
Cheese tasting session during lesson with Rajan.
Eye-opening lesson into cheese. haha!

12 May (Tuesday) :
OM's epic Egg Experiment

Sean, Az, Sha, Faris

Mel, Xin, Sher, Christel

my awesome group's. (:

HEH. the egg din break!
hoohoo!

6 May (Wednesday) :
When Hiphop and Modern session clashes.
Good job kk, lulu, shermain & aug. got potential got potential.

2 May (Saturday) :
K.O. Night Auditions.

25 - 26 April (Saturday & Sunday) :
SDZ prep camp for orientation.

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AND after all those mass updates,
time for me to go and study.
it took me 1 hr+ on this post.
holy shitz.

OM paper next Monday
LSC next Wed
ConB next Thurs

Oh and WELCOME ALL SDZ JRs! (:

Personality Test

2009-06-23T19:24:00.001+08:00

My Personality


Neuroticism	36
Extraversion	22
Openness to Experience	24
Agreeableness	58
Conscientiousness	40

You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge, however you are not generally self conscious about yourself. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others, however you are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.

poll maker

jewelry

sigh.

2009-05-15T00:24:00.001+08:00

sigh.
why am i so affected?!

I need motivation.

Emo Period

2009-05-09T02:42:00.000+08:00

sch has started & is also partially the reason why i havent been blogging. (again)

MMR, DMA.
im worried for my DMA Tiramisu trailer thingy. *headache*

speaking of which...
there seems to be an 'emo wave' going around.
i think the wave reached me ytd.
was rather upset n irritated by some stuff.
n then, i jus learnt abt some other stuff an hr ago, that made me feel rather sadded also.

sigh,
shitballz.

new shoes; knock you down

2009-04-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

changed blog song!
super nice song !
a new single by Keri Hilson in collaboration with Kanye West n Ne-yo. Knock You Down.

SUPER NICE RIGHT?
:D

i packed my room before school reopen! =D

so proud of myself can. x)

OH OH OH.
MY SHOE COME LIAO!

it came ytd evening!
heh heh heh. so happy :DDD

Dance Prep Camp ; Prince Charming

2009-04-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

back from dance prep camp a few hours ago.
am gonna retire early tnight (once in a blue moon thing)
wanted to watch Harper's Island cus i already missed the 2nd episode but i cant tahan anymore.

Dance prep camp on sat n sun was... okay lor.
before it start was modern training n ryan was here. missed him man. he's still as comical as ever.
but anyw prep camp. i wouldn't say that it was very very fun. but that does not mean that it's not fun. it's just that i think the prep camp clash wid too many other stuff, & then a lot of probs etc.

but nonetheless. i enjoyed it luh.
oh oh and, BAHAHA. me n brian cheated in the 'night walk'. we skipped 3 scary places.
1) SB staff room, we walked outside
2) Lover's Tunnel leading to lecture theatre @ t4. we walked a big round to the exit of the LT
3) the long long BE enclosed tunnel. we walked by the road to the other end of the tunnel.
i like camps. (:

MY BUTT HURTS, so bad i can't walk properly.
think its cus of ryan's training + all the running in the night game on sat night , Angels & Devils (ACTUALLY IS ALL DEVILS LO. the 2 angels also devil one lor.)

AHHH. wasted! i wanted to go to the natasha studios locking event held jus now, but i couldn't cus of camp. AHH. ws+aug n sha+bin joined. wonder how it went. oh and good job daniel owleye+spiderpig for making to all de way to de finals. :D

Prince Charming, oh Prince Charming.
How i wish i could tell you that..
I can't get my eyes off you.
Oh no!

first week of sch ; new crush

2009-04-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

First week of sch has been alright. rather slack. no work so far.
but its gona be super scary in weeks to come.

Hi Ms Kwa!(if your reading that is) :D
point aside.

anyway. i think this sem's gona be fun though.
got some very interesting lecturers teaching us.
i like our DMA cher samuel nai quite alot. hes super funny.

oh we watched half of the film Apocalypto during DMA.

its a very disturbing and gore-y show. you'd see people almost naked running around n killing one another. people's heart behind cut out and heads being chopped off etc. no censoring at all.

it sure is quite disturbing n yucks. but i really wanna finish the show leh! :D

"I am Jaguar Paw. I am a Hunter. My father hunted this forest before me. I will hunt this forest with my son. My sons will hunt this forest with their sons when i am gone."
I can outrun a Jaguar and swim quicker than quicksand even after being wounded by a spear and running for ages and having not eaten/drank anything for more than 24 hours.

heard this from ethel's blog!
remix vers of Insomnia. super nice! (:

Insomnia (Up All Night Mix).mp3 - Craig David

I just can't go to sleep,
'cus it feels like i've fallen for you.

Genre showcase; sch's reopening!

2009-04-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

my butt cheek bones are hurting,
and im sunburnt.
and my throat still hurt everytime i swallow my saliva.

AND SCHOOL IS STARTING TMR.
omg.

last min decided not to go for the sdz movie outing cus i was super tired n id have to rush there once i got home from the family picnic @ ECP. hmm, mayb shud organise an sdz outing to ECP to rollerblade/bike. rather than always gg to sentosa sentosa sentosa.

ANYW. an an's our new dance instructor, 2 lessons so far, frm her. tmr's 3rd one already.
she's awesome. but her style a bit hard to catch. unlike daniel, hers is a LOT of control. but, ya well. good! =D

Genre showcase is over!

Locking:

felt that it wasnt our best perf too. =x but otherwise, good job to everyone from all genres! i believe all of us improved a great deal. (:

the battle following the showcase gave me heart attack but otherwise, it was super fun. but i am still very embarassed by the fact that i didnt know i auto-attacked the 2nd time even though the round is over. i thought ws went twice. =x

Locking battle Part 1:

Part 2:

and, oh my shits. i nearly had heart attacks when i watch myself in the battle in the vid. I LOOK SO SHITTY. all the basics n techniques all cui. cracked under pressure. horrible.

full album on Facebook.

i still do hope there will be genre trainings. at least for locking that is. :D

oh, SDZ chalet over-ed also. shall elaborate more next post. i wanna finish watching Liar Game! :D

oh. i bought a pair of baggy jeans on Fri. @ queensway wid aug n mahesh. uncle organise de sdz shopping outing to encourage us to start to 'dress up'. aug really.. looked so different after the makeover. looked super dope.
my family say i siao when they saw the jeans i bought. they say its super ugly and its not baggy, its oversized. zzz. wtf.

*
GEMS FIRST THING @ 8AM TMR.
SIAN.

Big Bang & 2NE1 - Lollipop

2009-04-14T00:10:00.001+08:00

dope!

Sandara Park
Lolli Lolli Oh Lollipop
Lolli Lolli Oh Lolli Lollipop

GD
Nah, that’s not how we do it

CL
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh neon naui Lollipop
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh Lolli-Pop-Pop

Lolli Lolli Lollipop Boy neon naui Lollipop
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh Lolli-Pop-Pop

TOP
Makdaesatangboda deo dalkoomhan
Nae maeumeun teojildeuthan
Nan kkalkkeumhan namja T.O.P.
Naesarang Bling Bling like L E D

CL
Keudaen ddak nae STYLEya
Banjjakbanjjak STARya
Saekdareungeol wonhae?
Let me show you if that’s okay

GD
Now come on
Saek-kkaleun Rainbow
Nal neukkin soongan neon bbajyeoringeol ara
You just can’t control

MinJi
Nal saro jabeun geon
Neowa namani aneun oori doolui Secret light

TOP
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Dalkoomhage dagawa
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Naege soksakyeojwo
Park Boom
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Sangkeumhage dagawa
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Neoreul wonhajanha

GD
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Girl Neon naui Lollipop
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh Lolli-Pop-Pop

Taeyang
Nal seollege haneun neoui Body Neoui Move
Imi ne shinseoneul gadwibeorin naui Groove
Shiksanghamdeuleun maeil nal jichige hae
Let’s just keep You and I F.R.E.S.H

GD
Now come on
Saek-kkaleun Rainbow
Nal neukkin soongan neon bbajyeoringeol ara
You just can’t control

MinJi
Nal saro jabeun geon
Neowa namani aneun oori dooriui Secret Light

TOP
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Dalkoomhage dagawa
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Naege soksakyeojwo
Park Boom
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Sangkeumhage dagawa
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Neoreul wonhajanha

CL
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh Boy Neon naui Lollipop
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh Lolli-Pop-Pop

Seungri
Han sooganui neukkimi anya
Jigeum doo nooneul gamado neon nae ape seoitneungeol
Daesung
Naega baradeon keuge neoya
Keunyang idaero neowa na jeo boolbitarae

TOP
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Dalkoomhage dagawa
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Naege soksakyeojwo
Park Boom
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Sangkeumhage dagawa
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop Neoreul wonhajanha

GD + CL
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh neon naui Lollipop
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh Lolli-Pop-Pop
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh neon naui Lollipop
Lolli Lolli Lollipop Oh Lolli-Pop-Pop

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Lollipop

Sandara Park
Lolli Lolli Oh Lollipop
Lolli Lolli Oh Lolli Lollipop

GD
Nah, that’s not how we do it

CL
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, you’re my lollipop
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, lolli pop pop
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, you’re my lollipop
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, lolli pop pop

TOP
Sweeter than a lollipop
My heart’s about to burst like dynamite
I’m the sleek man T.O.P.
My love is bling bling like L.E.D.

CL
You’re exactly my style
Sparkling star
Do you want a different colored one?
Let me show you if that’s okay

GD
Now come on.
Colorful rainbow.
I know you’re gonna fall for me when you feel me.
You just can’t control.

MinJi
You got me interested
The secret light that you and I just know

TOP
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, come to me sweetly
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, whisper to me
Park Bom
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop come to me freshly
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop I want you

GD
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Girl, you’re my lollipop
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, lolli pop pop

Taeyang
Your body, your move makes my heart flutter
My gaze already locked with your groove
I’m fed up and had enough
Let’s just keep YOU and I F.R.E.S.H.

GD
Now come on
Colorful rainbow
I know you’re gonna fall for me when you feel me
You just can’t control it

MinJi
You got me interested
The secret light that you and I just know

TOP
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, come to me sweetly
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, whisper to me
Park Bom
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, come to me freshly
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, I want you

CL
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, you’re my lollipop
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, lolli pop pop

Seungri
It’s not something you feel for just a moment
Even if i close both of my eyes, you’d still be standing in front of me
Daesung
You’re the one that I wished for
Now you and me under the ray of lights

TOP
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, come to me sweetly
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, whisper to me
Park Bom
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, come to me freshly
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop, I want you

CL+GD
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, you’re my lollipop
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, lolli pop pop
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, you’re my lollipop
Lolli-Lolli-Lollipop! Oh, lolli pop pop

Credits: Daum || geemix || cindy–rox || *lyrynne* @YG Ladies + chamie@LI

shoes!

2009-04-13T01:09:00.001+08:00

BEEN SUPER UBER LAZY.

omg. hiphop cypher this evening.
*dieded*

I AM SO GONNA BUY THIS:

camp and dance

2009-04-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

hi hi hello hi hello.

IM BACK FROM CASS FOC!
woohoo.

bom cheka bom~
no body loves me everybody hates me im gonna eat some worms EAT WORMS!
gagu gagu geku piong piong
everybody dance now!
shake shake, shake shake shake it!
UH UH SIOL!

i SUPER lazy to blog now. just some quick updates.

camp 31 mar - 3april. was FUN! although the planning was bit off, but still, its fun man!
plus plus, i got to be a GHOST.
cool right? hawhaw. . . . . .

...
but the makeup sucks .

oh oh, and there was this freshie from riona+sharizan's grp (purple) called Carinne, i duno how to spell but anyw, there was disco night and i found out she learnt dance from gin sia! Raggae sia!
woots, and she's joining SDZ! huat ah!

aye, shall post just 1 pic for now (:

last day, before break camp
Graduation - Friends for~~ever~~ 3 months.

Locking - omg x 3. song's finally finalised. i like the last song man! ahh. i cant wait to see our end product. hoh. but im dying. i havent practiced for a whole week liaos. siao.

Soulja Boy - Kiss Me Thru The Phone

2009-03-22T14:25:00.001+08:00

cant go for the movie thingy later. pft.
have to go visit granny at hospital again.
hope her eyes get okay soon.

changed blog song yet again.
SUPER ADDICTED TO THIS SONG CAN.
its the shit yo.
:D got to know of it thru bff's gf's blog.

Soulja Boy - Kiss Me Through The Phone

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't now
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

Baby I kno that u like me
U my future wifey
Souljaboytellem
Yeah u can be my boonie
I can be ya clyde
U can be my wife
Text me, call me
I need u in my life
Yea all day
Everyday I need ya
And eveytime I see ya
My feelings gets deeper
I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss ya
But I can't
678 triple 9 8212

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't now
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

Baby I've been thinkin
Lately so much about u
Everything about u
I like it, I love it
Kissing u in public
Thinking nothing of it
Roses by the dozen
Talkin on da phone
Baby u so sexy
Ya voice is so lovely
I love ya complexion
I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss ya
But I can't
678 triple 9 8212
Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't
Now baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

She call my phone like da(20x)
We on da phone like da(20x)
We takin pics like da(20x)
She dial my numba like da(10x)
678 triple 9 8212

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

Danceflick

2009-03-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

overheard uncle and von talking about this:

http://www.thedanceflick.com/ for a much better resolution.

I WANT TO WATCH. die die also must watch.

photos photos and more photos; randomity

2009-03-19T00:13:00.001+08:00

The Sins test that i got off jannson's blog, who got off his friend's blog:

LOL im SO DAMN SLOTHY. it means lazy.

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/seven_deadly_sins.html

i figured since i havent blogged for so long, i cant be bothered to do the 'so i went out n did this n that' kind of post. THEREFORE, i shall post pictures of randomity (that ive been wanting to post for quite a while)!

Baby Cars!! i want!

That's my mailbox.

and that's all from facebook.

2nd pic, open it to see the conv.
yes, we were really boliao.

im 6 months old really. :D

what a coincidence.

what a coincidence too. haha!

9 mar (monday) :
MD session.

full album @ http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=591221031&ref=profile#/photo.php?pid=1642603&id=591221031

YTD:

Notice the "why?" lol!

i came back home tday wanting to eat these stuff.

if you haven't realised, that's a lizard in there.

was in sch since 11am for CASS FOC camp bonding session. starting off rly boring n awkward for me cus the only ppl i know are sean n sher(who was shopping at tanjong pagar n was v late). n they both are committee. later on better as i hung out wid the other GLs.
left halfway thru the preview of the Night Walk route as i was already late for dance.

dance training. bin killing us wid his killer warm up excercises as usual. han wid groove basics. uncle wid his choreo which i like pretty much. :D
training ended late tday... which led to something damn suay which happened arnd 7.20pm? ya.
4 words: SIA LA. SUAY LOR.

Exam results are out! thanks to sher again for telling me abt it. n loges who smsed.
im quite satisfied. but not very very happy abt it luh.

hoho! not bad k. my gpa improved from last sem's 3 to 3.4

Dharni

2009-03-18T01:45:00.001+08:00

Recently in like/love with:

that's my boyfriend! :D
SELF PROCLAIM.
HOHOHO.
i wish sia.

Locking

2009-03-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

lazy to blog!

Chunky came ytd! =D
he is.. DOPE.
inspired me hell lots.

anyw wanted to post this in my blog for quite awhile now so..

7 Feb Locking group cipher vid:

and.. YESTERDAY Solo cipher with Chunky aka Ian! :D

omgomgomg right.

k-lock's coming tmr! gonna forsake modern for locking. D:
*GUILT*

9 Mar'o9 Modern Dance session;philosophy

2009-03-02T23:47:00.003+08:00

Hi hello hi hi hello good morning. :D

oh, chged blog song, thanks to sha for intro-ing this song to me :D

today was a tiring tiring day!
but fun! (:

went to orchard late to meet li ern, jieling, gladys n jiahui. i overslept. settled at yoshi n ate de student meal. poor meimei had smth to do n came even later. then we chatted while meimei ate. :D

afterwhich we went to far east cus jling wanted. window shopped. haha! i got fascinated by some of the necklaces. so pretty! i actually wanted to shop for some clothes or smth, but too lazy to try. li ern got herself a new bag for her coming attachment. ooh! and and there was this bag that caught my eye but i din check it out, REGRET SIA. meh. haha. n poor mei mei keep wanting to sit down (we were all tired from walking already) .

meimei bought icecream, which supposedly was me who wanna eat but i din buy in the end cus the chocolate-related flavours didnt look appealing. i bought the HK milk tea! :D

we then mrt-ed to dover. was early. saw siuyun painting at SAC foyer wid CSCC. HH was using mph alrdy, the few of them practicing for upcoming perf for SMA thingy. so we took second partition n hav our own MD session. HAHA.

stretched n worked on basics. ohmygawd. my techniques SUCK. imma die.

yus n nadia came later. n charlotte even later.

This is how dirty the floor of mph is:

Li Ern's sexy feet

my sexy feet

full album @ http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=1609613&op=1&view=user&subj=591221031&id=591221031&ref=mf#/album.php?aid=69366&id=591221031

mrt-ed home wid meimei yus n nadia. HAHA at nadia.

not-so-exciting stuff here.
just felt like randomly blogging smth philosophical.

We can lie to every single person in the world,
but ultimately,
the person we are doing disgrace to is ourselves.
cus when the sun goes down,
and days go by,
the person we are really lying to is ourselves.
Therefore,
are you really who you are?
do you really mean all the things you do?
is this what u really want?
are you really happy?
No one will ever know.
but deep down,
you yourself know.

And.
one should never ask for too much,
cus it is either we treasure and be happy wid what we have,
or make a ruckus out of what we want but not have.
so,
what do you what?

and with this,
i wash my hands.

CNY pics; Han River; Dance

2009-03-01T00:17:00.001+08:00

oooh! my bro finally uploaded CNY pics. pft. but im not gonna tell you where to see it. MEH.
becus of 51 pics, only one of it hav me inside, and its not nice. so i shall only paste 1 pic here:

THATS ME. :D
no, actually its my fav lil cousin.
SO CUTE RIGHT. (:
see le melt! :D

yes, havent updated for awhile again.
exams over, here comes the hols.

26 Feb (Thurs) : day after our last paper. was supposedly having a CLASS LUNCH at Simei's Han River (smth like Seoul Garden). was late for half an hr cus i cudnt wake up. was a awed when i walked into the restaurant n see only Az Sha Mel n Sean there. so pathetic! Sher was like super late cus she only woke up when sean called her, when we were all there alredy.

food was okay. not say very wonderful or what, or perhaps it was my mood luh. i cudnt eat a lot though i was actually v hungry the previous night cus i hadnt eaten anything. D: AND IT WAS RAINING AGAIN. ate, then talked a lot. many stuff. relationships, marraige, philosophy, religion, GHOST STORIES, malaysia. N how coincident. it got very cold cus of the rain, when they started talking abt ghost stories. PFT.

Sher was so sweet to make that lil book to cheer me up. Thanks girl! (: its really nice. :D and also to the rest for making me feel lil better. :D

NO PICS. sorry!

was suppose to head home after the lunch, but din feel like gg home n face the comp alone wid nth to do. so, kachiao-ed bev to come out, see her eat dinner, den slacked at a void deck to talk. oh AND AND. there this this rat. so cute n fast. HAHA. keep coming out of the gutter and stealing pieces of food den run away. n there was this cat dat nearly caught it. HAH. okay, anyw, ya then went to mac to eat ICE CREAM! :D my love! haha. enjoyment to the max man! oh we met shaun ! :D chatted.

met pauline at the intrchg n got on de same bus to go hm. (:

no pics! shall compensate wid this really good Jap Comedian that i got to know of thru SDZ forum, li ern posted:

MORE:

there's actually more of him, but this is the two i like most. :D go search him up on utube. Jinnai Tomonori.

27 Feb (Fri) : ytd! :D woke up at like. 1+pm. refused to get up early cus i had nothing to do. but anyw, went to the park at arnd 4pm. listened to songs as i ran. din run much though, den sat on the swing for like, 1hr+, nearly 2 hrs. my butt hurt after that. got the swing de sides de marks on my butt. LOL.

i like swings. (:

then was supposed to head home cus it was like 6+ alrdy, but i din feel like it, so i walked to northpoint slowly. was starving by the time i reach cus i din eat. went to buy some junk food, went home, had dinner, no one was home cus my granny jus got warded at hospital, hope shes alright soon. then bev called n called me out to the park. so i went to the park-AGAIN. talked and feeded mosquitoes wid our blood.

28 Feb (Sat) : Dance trainings ! after soo dam long of hiatus.

MD: lucky ryan din come, if not i think he'd be super pissed. we were slack as hell, all forget already. gawd. MD exam next sat. *dieded*

Locking: WOOHOO. HIGH! for me luh. i enjoyed the whole training. loads! missed learnin Skeeter Rabbit properly, but still aight. video time was quite alright, i wasnt as shy as previously, i guess also cus the group was bigger. FUN SIA. i cant wait for shasha to upload the vid. HAHA! :D

oh oh oh. recently addicted to this song that sha sent me after me hearing it on her mp3!

Insomnia - Craig David

SO NICE CAN! :D

hungry

2009-02-27T03:49:00.001+08:00

morning.

im hungry.
& its been raining these few days.
cold.

when it all falls apart.

2009-02-25T21:29:00.001+08:00

Hi.

When
1+1 = 2
&
2 - 1 = 0

then
0 = Nothing.

0 = 1's devastation.
0 = 1's emptyness
0 = 1's pain
0 = 1's regret
0 = 1's reminsce
0 = 1's tears
0 = 1's yearn

and then 1 retreats to the cold cold dump and locks herself up from being plus-ed.

18 crazy crazy days.
sweet as ever.
greatest days in so long.
so many firsts.
so much happiness.
memorable as ever.
~~don't wanna~~ hard to let go.
time heals?
i do hope so.

Thank you.
and one time,
just one last time,
i love you.

Exams all over! Year one ends.

2009-02-25T15:54:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER FOR ME! :D
*celebrates*

Last paper just now at 9 - 11.10. IPRA. it was okay, rather easy. eh, easier than i thought will be luh. :D

DVPA CA3 debrief + last 3 short films. all were awesome.

BORING. ive got nothing to do! rawr.
actually planned to go to the park when i come home n have lunch n all.
i actually wore my suitable to go out n sweat,
tied my hair,
AND THEN IT RAINS.
zomgwtfbbqzxz right.

SO now im stuck at home, nothing to doooooo.
I WANNA SIT SWING.
meh.

Get Back Up

2009-02-24T12:24:00.001+08:00

took this off SDZ forum, found it really meaningful:

Because what matters is not how you fall,
and not how many times you fail to get up.
But how you get up,
and whether you finish it strong.

update: DVPA end; V.day; Slumdog Millionaire

2009-02-20T02:01:00.001+08:00

Helloooo peoples. im finally updating as i promised myself to.
yes, i promised myself.

Longggg owed pics since 1Feb (4F CNY outing/reunion) :

9 Feb (monday) :DVPA short film screening! :D we were hell behind time that 3 short films did not make it to play as we had to leave at 1.45pm as de LT was gona be used for an exam/test. MY GRP WAS SUPER LUCKY. Our film "Dance With Me" was the last film of the day man! woots! so proud of our work!
oh, the works of the other grps frm other classes were awesome too, de cannibalism one n de Reality Check was really disturbing, which also meant dat their film was awesome. :D
inside joke: Woah~ woah~ :D

oh, and fyi, this was how our grp did the 'artificial dolly' :
yes, faris dragged the curtain n i followed along to pan the cam. :D

14 Feb (Valentine's Day) :

took a longg bus ride wid HIM to vivo. cus he likes long bus rides :D oh, and zongshou n jonteo took de same bus as us as they were heading for queensway. how coincident can it get?
ate at Carl's Jr! haaaa! my VIRGIN experience. yes. dont laugh. =X he treated me to.. iforgotwhatburgeritisOMG! but anyway, it was huge. but i finished it! all by myself! :D
thennnn. he brought me somewhere, n i realised he's buying tix for cable car to Mt. Faber. wows. CABLE CAR. i cant rmb when was the last time i was in a cable car.

after which, slacked at vivo roooooof! sunset. den we headed for mt. faber. MET LI ERN MOM n her guy on de way to de cable car area! haha! so qiao.
Mt. Faber was. .. .. nice? but wasted! din had enough time to go to the henderson waves dat bridge. aww. but well, we exercised alot. climbing up n down the crazy flight of stairs. =D

i felt bad that i cudnt stay out too late. on de way back, while on 855, called taitai n realised she's at mt. faber wid mz! wow wow. so qiao. aight. yishuned, we had mcflurry at mac as i wanted to eat icecream! :P woot i love! :P n jerry jamie n anthr cchy iforgothernameOMG were dere. :D

ohoh &! thanks sweet for the lovely bag! :D i LOVE it! =D AND! now i cant wait for every saturday. (:

Went out wid o4 today![was at darling's before meeting them!] or actually is ytd (20feb) since its past 12 now. went to watch Slumdog Millionaire!

@ The Cathay. Attendance: sean sha az bl shaun faris sher. movie was alright, unique; shared nachos wid sher.

mel n christel joined in during our so-called dinner at 5.30 @ PS pastamania. my Chicken Sausage Chicken pasta was super spicy. way too spicy to be enjoyable. sher christel mel shot me wid qns abt darling. haha! was super paiseh. =X

my own pastamania 'tradition'! :D

went walking at top level of PS. theres this new line of shops selling figurines and cosplay n comic stuff. N SOME ARE SO CUTE. OMG. i wanna get those baby cars!! so cute luh! oh, n kelvin came halfway. afterwhich, de guys went to lan n the girls walked abt. i got myself sweets from Daiso. woohoo!

went home wid sha n talked abt darling and i forgot she was in de same Gems class as him. LOL. so embarassing. :D

Random:

This totally ROCKS. to the core!

ooh and and. check out this song! :

ITS BEAUTIFUL. to me that is.

Gomenasai, bff.

2009-02-16T17:29:00.000+08:00

Tatu- Gomenasai.mp3 -

Love Note #1

2009-02-15T13:05:00.000+08:00

"
For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it.
For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it.
For every love, there is a somewhere to receive it,
< yours! 3
"

I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
We gotta re-reverse the chemistry
I don't want us to be the end of me.

happy valentines.

2009-02-15T02:49:00.000+08:00

Firstly,
a belated happy valentines to all! (:

darling i had a memorable day. (:

I wrapped myself with my blanket,
huddled in a ball, hugging myself.
I closed my eyes as i put the songs u sent me,
on repeat.
I scratched my head irritably,
forcing myself to think.
I suck.
I hate this feeling.
I'm so messed up.
So very messed up.
and i don't like it,
its awful .
very awful.
D':

Youtube vid-little kid got his tooth fixed

2009-02-08T01:43:00.002+08:00

Enjoy! :D

School's out!

2009-02-06T22:41:00.001+08:00

Helloooooooooo ! (:

im back. yes. i said 'Later!' in my post on monday. but ive been really really superbly horribly busy this whole week.
This last two weeks of school was hell. The HECTIC-EST weeks EVER. esp this whole week. totally INSANE. been staying back in sch every single day for the whole week til late to do projects. n when i come home, still have to do my own assignment. TIRING, but.. YAY, cus....
SCHOOL'S OUT!

wooooooooots.

but. still got exams. urgh.

Pictures update:

29 Jan (thurs) :
DMc'o4 mini YuSheng celebration after staying back for WP revision!

BEFORE
DURING

AFTER

LOL.

1 Feb (Sun) :
4F'o7 CNY visit to Mrs Yeo's hse

miss this bunch of crazy ppl so much!

got more pics for de 4F thingy as we went off to changi airport for dinner. Popeye's! haha. but lazy upload. next time (:

oh oh oh, smth random. im addicted to Electropop and Dirty Dancing! :D

im happy happy happy happy happy!
drugged and happy!
:D

good morning

2009-02-02T09:41:00.000+08:00

Gooooood MORNING everybody.

Its 9.37 in the morning and i am currently typing this in Singapore Polytechnic's Foodcourt 4, aka, Koufu, and i am very very extremely terribly superbly awfully bored. Because i had to come early to hand in the CA3 assignment for gems, and now am rotting in koufu oh and, OH SHA'S HERE. oh. LUITING and HER BOYFRIEND is here also. so i shall post smth more constructive later.

LATER. (:

past updates; CNY

2009-01-27T02:17:00.002+08:00

Happy chinese niu year all!

chu yi (first day of CNY) have passed now, which means school's starting soon, again.
which means i have to worry about the ginormous amount of work again.
with all the stuff weighing me down inside,
i think imma suffocate and die.
sigh.

well anyway, CNY visiting was... okay.
i wouldnt say it was lifee-changing or exciting or what not.
mornin, was the last to wakeup, went to juanning's hse, then ah gong's hse, then ah ma's, then 4 jek gong's. same routine each CNY.
wore my new brown jeans, yellow tee xiaoyi gave for xmas, everlast shoe, n the dolphin necklace+ring aunt connie gave for xmas & used the bag my eryi gave for xmas.

no pics! D: have to wait for my bro to edit n upload onto his photoblog first, so in the mean time just the tinie few i took.

gee. $.$
love mom & dad for that SOLE 50bucks note

chu xi ye(CNY eve night) at gran's hse:

pretty pretty view

long-ago pics, which ive always wanted to upload but was too lazy:

17 Dec'o8 (wed) :

the stupid stupid long n neverending flight of stairs to the top when we were gg to Sinema@Old School to watch "18 grams of love"

& to the rest of the class who pangseh-ed me,mel,shaun n faris;
we got full particpation marks immdly. SUCKERS! hah!
no offence intended

the film "18 grams of love" was not bad. very entertaining.
rushed over to bugis to meet tyl aftr de film n Q&A session wid the director.
looked arnd for his long-owed birthday present. he cudnt find the jacket that caught his eye previously. D:
went cityhall after n his friend Alex joined us arnd peninsular plaza.
then to far east n tyl finally found wat he wanted. yay.

alex tyl bl
(:

23 Dec'o8 (tues) :
had lunch at cine's LJ n then watched Twilight(finally) wid von, ethel, sis, moosh, lulu, nelson, n jugg.

von gave us xmas gifts! :D
ethel gave us goodie bags! :D

Von's range of gift! i got a mickey. :D

neos we took before the show

oh and i met chad, wanghao, tianjie, llewelyn, huiloon at the neoprint shop. & coincidentally we were all going to watch the same show. hah! :D

10 Jan'o9 (sat):

pastamania wid AIZAI

23 Jan'o9 (fri) :

sean, sha, loges, az and me at T3 basement,
after a fulfilling dinner @ Popeye's!
full pics @ facebook!

ooh, i was watching a little of this movie on channel U n some of the lines the actor/actress said made me ponder.
as it was a chinese show, gonna put it in english and according to what i remember;

"By pursuit of returns, love is short lived;
only by loving without expecting any returns,
can it be an everlasting love."

&

"The greatest distance between us,
is not that you are oblivious to my love for you,
when we stand next to each other;
but is that we continue loving each other,
knowing fate will forever keep us apart."

its been 3 weeks now,
i know we made things clear.
i just don't know why its so hard.
so hard to forget.
so hard to move on.

everytime i thought i could move on,
and forget things happened betw us,
i get pulled back by the thoughts of you,
everyday.
its like your a leech that's sucking the life out of me,
slowly but surely.

it was a big, big, mistake,
that is making everybody tired.
& i know its not just me whos feeling it.
& though i hoped we could go back to how close we used to be,
before that happened,
we both know its gonna be hard.
at least i think so.
and im sorry.
becus i dont even know what i want anymore.
as i reminisce the past, each day,
i realize its killing me inside.

perhaps i really should go away for a while,
shut my heart off.
to forget you.
perhaps i could,
then it wouldnt hurt so much after.
perhaps.
perhaps.

If only it is possible to show you how much you mean to me.
Can we still be BFFs?

Solitude.

blogskin chged

2009-01-25T15:41:00.000+08:00

changed blogskin (:

shall edit the links next time, going for reunion dinner.

later! (:

of deadlines and dead minds

2009-01-21T22:12:00.001+08:00

havent been blogging, again.

lotsa stuff. lotsa work to do. lotsa stuff on my mind.

Econs test tml (WISH ME LUCK! ty (: )
PR CA2 report by 23 Jan, which is 2days from now
gems by 2 feb
IDEAs CA3 presentation by 5 feb
DVPA short film by 6 feb, which im super worried about
IVP stuff on last week of school.

zzomg. i think im gonna shit my brains out soon.

oh, & exam timetable is out alrdy.
2 papers for me.
18 Feb - Econs
25 Feb - IPRA

not too bad.

moosh! where are the NY celebration photos? :D

just glad its fine now. (:

yr like a drug for my mind.

neyo - mad

2009-01-17T20:41:00.002+08:00

thanks yiting mei for introing me this song. (:

oh, embedding is disabled, so click it to see from utube!

oh &, i finished Hana Kimi (jap version) already! :D

perhaps i should go

2009-01-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

perhaps.
perhaps its just me.
perhaps it wouldn't have come down to this,
if i hadn't blew it up.

if things are better off when im gone,
then im sorry i ever appeared at all.
if it makes you happier,
i'll go.

おやすみ

fate or fate plays?

2009-01-12T22:51:00.001+08:00

fate or fate plays?
i don't know.
i don't know.
i don't know.i don't know.i don't know.
i don't know.i don't know.i don't know.i don't know.

"Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel"

who is this i see smiling back at me through the mirror?
i don't know.

SDZ NY celebrations

2009-01-10T13:56:00.002+08:00

hello!
i didnt go for modern dance today and i feel bad about it. D:

anyway. SDZ NY celebrations ytd was fun. haha!
played some games. food was not bad.
talent showcase was DOPE AH. hahah!
although it wasnt perfectly organized but it was enjoyable luh. =D

Donovan sang,
sabri n gang sang,
lulu n weisheng was DOPEST LMAO,
weeter on the piano 'First Love' and idk wats the second song he played,
khai on de piano n singing Secondhand Serenade's Fall For You (its secretly for Zul),
von n anne singing 2 songs, 2nd one 하루하루 (HARU HARU)! WOOOTS!
last was lum n mel wid a combi of 4 songs. i cant rmb all but got jennifer hudson's Spotlight n last disturbia.

glad i went for the celebrations. took my mind of stuff for a bit. x)
the song Sabri sang/rapped somehow spoke to me.
haha, sounds like some inspiration thingy.
but yeah, Linkin Park's In The End. old old song.
but i think the lyrics' really meaningful.

In The End - Linkin Park

It starts with one
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
to lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
to lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
to lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

and lumlum n mel's showcase made me like Jennifer Hudson's Spotlight:

Spotlight (Main Version) - Jennifer Hudson

the lyrics are nice too (: but i shant bother putting it here cus itd make my post too wordy.

pics for de celebrations next time! (:

im done wid emoing.

2009-01-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

alright! hello everybody.
sorry for the past two super emo post.
thanks everyone, for consoling me yesterday during dance ytd when i broke down.
and thanks to evryone else who listened to my rantings too
really appreciate it. (:

well im done wid tears.
now I'M gone.
im not dying anymore.
im dead.
HAH. meaning im over! away! off! GONE!

after listening to all the advices.
i thought through hard and long.
and i think i screwed up my news writing paper i had in the evening just now.
but ANYWAY, the point is.
no matter what everyone say.
i still believe in one thing.
that he is a nice guy, just not good for love/relationships.
and that he was my soulmate, and always will be.
- a person with whom one has a strong affinity.
- One of two persons compatible with each other in disposition, point of view, or sensitivity.
(from dictionary.com)
but by that i mean how well he knew me.
stupid it sounds, but im not running away or hiding.
besides, things happen for a reason.
if it wasn't meant to be, it wasn't meant to be.

i've never been the sort of girl who could muster the strength
to do things against what my heart feels.
but this time round,
i think its time to grow up.
and i am doing so.
so.. yay!
i rock!

smile because when things reach the trough,
it will go back up one day. (:

the painful truth really hurts

2009-01-07T14:43:00.001+08:00

i dont even know where to start.
perhaps... i'll tell you this.
im hiding in the toilet right now typing this post.
becus i cudnt take it anymore and i ran out frm the clubhse to de toilet,
to hide my feelings.
the cleaner is outside cleaning the toilet as i hide inside,
and im hiding in here,
crying in pain,
alone.

i thought i was done wid crying.
it was numb in the morning.
as i woke up wid swollen eyes,
heavy heart,
soul-less.
i cudnt even squeeze a single tear out of me anymore.

its the afternoon now.
ive been thinking a lot.
a lot.
i was fighting my own feelings.
you know what kind of girl i am.
stupid.
stupid for always holding on and believing
even when im being lied to forever.

i want to believe what you said to me last night.. so much.
so much.
that you are doing this for my own good,
that i mean so much to you,
that you are afraid history would repeat itself,
so you wanted to let our feelings die off slowly,
that i am too good for an asshole like you,
that i have been the girl you thought of when you see loveydovey romantic movies
that you have dreamt of us a number of times already,
that you actually do cherish me.

but its not all true,
is it?
i was afraid too.
i was afraid that history would repeat too.
but you can't jus 'love' a girl one moment, kiss her n stuff,
and the next moment you are afraid to bring it furthur.
its just not how it works!
why could'nt we just talk it over?
like how we used to talk on the phone whenever we had probs.
why can't you just tell me the truth?
why?
why are you always running away?
why?
why can't you just sit me down nicely and tell me the truth?
it would hurt.
but it hurts more that you always have to lie,
to satisfy me momentarily
and it hurts even more when i find the truth out from elsewhere.

I JUST WANT ANSWERS TYLER.
answers.
i dont wanna hear lies.
even if they are white lies.
i dont want to hear them.
i was afraid to like you again.
but i gave you a try,
becus i trusted.
but why couldn't you try too.
why are you so... weak.
why cant you fight for what you want.
WHY?
why....

but then again.
maybe you never loved me at all.
no.
you never even liked me before.
the scariest thing is.
i dont even know which of you is real anymore.
who are you?
do i know you.. anymore?

i just want the truth.
tell me about us.
tell me about her.
tell me about her friend.
tell me what you are really feeling.
please.
tell me so that i can really decide once and for all.
becus im dying from the pain.

history repeats? or not.

2009-01-06T21:14:00.002+08:00

modern dance exam is done. din go as bad as i thought it would be.

not really gonna blog much during this period of time.
lotsa things happening.
lotsa work and emotions weighing me down recently.

[is this true or is this all a game? cus i really dont have the strength for games
im just a simple girl who asks for simple things.
i dont like complicated games. D':]
-i typed all those green words in the afternoon.
but it doesnt mean anything anymore.
becus i have been so fucking blinded by 'love'
its all a FACADE.
LIES.
i thought you were a nice guy deep inside
i trusted you.
i really did.
i thought i knew you.
i really did thought so.
but now i really really see who you are.
i never thought you would become such a bastard.
i never thought you would do such things.
i thought it only happened in stories.
heartbroken.
disappointed.
disgusted.
but all these, aint becus i fell for you again.
but becus i believed in you.
i had faith in you.
i really did.
but its not my problem is it?
why do i even have to fucking care?
why do i have to care so much so deep about you?
when you already showed me pain when we walked our seperate ways long ago.
have you even ever EVER wondered how it feels to be played?
EVER?
i thought you were my best friend.
i really took you as my soul mate.
becus you were the only one who knew me inside out.
the only person who cud read my mind jus from de little things i do.
but you used all these against me.
and going around for more girls to toy.
im heartbroken.
not becus u broke my heart.
but becus you disappointed me.
im disappointed.
not becus you didnt live up the de good guy i thought u were.
but im disappointed wid myself for having faith in you.

"Baby, been trying to getting this out of my heart forever.
Thought the remedy to a broken heart was you.
But I realized that it was just nothing, and I never should've loved you.
I was so stupid, stupid for trusting you. So stupid, stupid for loving you. Oh I'm so stupid, I'm so foolish. I'm stupid for loving you girl.
Should've known you weren't the one."
JC - Stupid

wonderbang

2009-01-01T16:26:00.001+08:00

OMG. thanks sean!

Wonder Girls & Big Bang - Special Cross Stage @ MBC Gayo Daejun 081231

haru haru was SO NICE.

DOPE AH.

merry christmas and happy new year

2008-12-31T22:42:00.001+08:00

Its 31 December 2008. the last day of 2008. and im stuck at home.
mom n dad's out. bro's in his room.
mehh. im lonely and bored.

bla. havent been blogging again. anyway,
Merry Christmas peepo. hah. its the..
7th day of Christmas tday, so, yr true love shud be sending you..
seven swans a swimming.
and you prolly wudave alrdy got 6 geese a laying, 5 golden rings, 4 calling birds, three french hens, two turtle doves and a partridge in a pear tree.
that makes a hell lota birds. =O

well anyway,
lots hav past. NRA Danzation, SDZ sentosa xmas celebration. blabla

Danzation'o8 (20 Dec) was AWESOME. i was lucky to hav gone wid de moderners cus we were like de line starters and the doors opened super early. well anyw de concert was SUPERB. how good? it made me cry. of all the concerts i watch, de first dance concert dat made me cry. lotsa ppl cried too. their theme was abt love and they showed BGR love, father-daughter love n friends love. they shoot vid, den dance.. blabla.
i cried for the first love showcase. de BGR, guy betray girl, breakup one. wa. really really can feel the pain. but others cried for the father-daughter one. i guess de BGR one cus it related to me.. bah.

well anyw, DOPE AH. i respect NRA up up man!

24 Dec'o8 [Xmas eve] : SDZ at sentosa. was okay okay. din expect so lil ppl to come. n the weather was horrible. but okay lo. mmh. i got de gift for the gift xchg in de morning like super last min becus mom only allowed me to go de night b4. n i got a cap frm de gift exchg! frm lulu. =D after that left wid bev at arnd 6+ cus i had to go wid mom n dad to mom's fren's place.

some pics frm sentosa:
Full album at - http://s91.photobucket.com/albums/k292/fallenxhantu/24%20dec%20o8%20SDZ%20sentosa/?start=all

29 Dec'o8 [Sch reopen] : yes. first day of sch. poo. stupid tyler. ask me to go early to hav breakfast in sch mac. his fren kelvin/kevin was dere also. DEN CHERIE WAS SITTING AT THE TABLE BEHIND. so paiseh. after breakfast walk to T17 lecture theatre dere, K went off, tyl went back to mac area for his lessons.

and KNS SIA. i learnt dat de afternoon IPRA lesson cancelled cus Pei celebrating her wedding anniversary. so in de end instead of 5 end, i ended at 1. waited til 3 for tyl n i tagged along wid him to Miracore's jamming session at waterloo street dere. hohoho. bomberman!

Inez brought two frens too, so i din feel very extra. =)) she rmbed me too! happy. haha.
and and, yeah, Miracore's a great deal of a difference frm the 'band' 2years?3years ago? much much better.

Do check out the band HERE!<--CLICK.

oh yes, lastly. ive been wanting to post this. haha. over the hols ive been dling games frm gamehouse.com and playing them. all of which are time management games. you know like Diner Dash those kind? yep.
AND ANDAND. i managed to find a website wid majority of gamehouse games crack! i wont post it here but if u wud wana know jus ask me thru msn. hah! andand, i completed a number of games.

SO.. if you guys are bored one day.. or a short period of a few days.. n feel like playing but dun wana play online games......
do try some of these out (if u like games dat requires lots of multi-tasking) :

Sally's Spa (completed quite a long time ago)

- run a spa
- mini game of choosing spa treatments for customers
- completed!
- pretty graphics.
- fun! (:

Burger Shop (Venessa intro me one!)

- make burgers
- i din bother to complete de game cus de customers keep getting angry n run away n i canot win. D:

Eye for Design
- act as a interior designer n design houses according to styles
- fun at first but it gets boring
- played once n i din go back in de game again.
- uncompleted

Beach Party Craze

- run a sort of store on the beach

- fun at first but not much changes betw levels n i lost interest
- uncompleted

Burger Rush
- jus think viwawa's Sushido.
- it gets abit boring
- completed

Cooking Dash

- another sequel to Diner Dash
- completed!
- very fun (:

Delicious - Emily's Tea Garden
- same 'producer' n idea as Diner Dash n Cooking Dash
- another sequel is Delicious 2 Deluxe
- one of de most enjoyable time management games
- funny/entertaining sub characters
- completed!
- very fun! (:

First Class Flurry
- u act as a flight stewardess n serve passengers in a plane ride
- i like the fact dat u can personalise the upgrades of yr plane, like de color of de wall, floor, etc.
- completed within a day.
- fun!

Jojo's Fashion Show 2
- dress your models and send them out to the runway,
- go to de streets and shoot models of certain dress style.
- i find it v fun cus u actually hav to match clothings to a certain dress style like Hipster, Boho Chic.. etc.
- completed in 1 go.
- very fun! (:

temperamental

2008-12-17T23:00:00.000+08:00

urgh. ive been feeling very temperamental recently. dont know why i seem to be pissed so easily nowadays.
sigh.

fuck it.

helplessness

2008-12-15T22:25:00.001+08:00

went to sch early tday. but was late for 30mins. supposed to meet my DVPA grp at 11am to collect the cam n stuff for filming. blabla. den went to fc4 to eat n discuss de script n stuff. in de end we came up wid a totally new script. lmaos. our film's gonna be really funny. bahaha. from romance to dramedy (drama+comedy).

den supposedly 3pm meet modern dance exam de grp at T11a. no one was dere. den janice (sr) came along, den i learnt dat tday got HH session. xiang came.. den after awhile janice n von n jug n ethel n lulu n blablabla came. den mliang came den mliang n me went to mph to find allen n kl. den we went thru songs, min came wid jamie peggie n meimei. blablablA. listen thru all de songs, den decided on Beu Sister's Once Upon A Broken Heart.

modern session tday was quite okay, fun actually. but i had a bad day when it ended n i learnt dat my female lead for de film cant make it on 22. urgh. asked arnd moderners if anyone cud be my female lead. bah. no one seem to really care... n i was desperate. like, really dead desperate.

emo. you know the feeling.. like..
you have reached a dead end
and you desperately need help
and you call out for help
but no one seem to budge
and you wonder if they are really unable to help
or whrthr they jus dun bother
or mayb you are not worthy to be helped
or isit just becus ppl dont like you.
and then you realise
really.
no one's gonna help you.
you're by yrself.
but then again, you don't know what to do.

horrible it feels.

O sch Recital; Fbodz.

2008-12-14T19:32:00.002+08:00

aight. havent been updating. LAZY AH.

8 Dec'o8 (monday) : O sch recital! went to sch early to look for von, moosh n ppl. den slacked til ~6.. blabla. Q.. etc. well, my fav piece is freddie's one, followed by Ben's popping.
pics-

more pictures at: http://s91.photobucket.com/albums/k292/fallenxhantu/O%20Sch%20Recital%20o8/?start=all

12 Dec'o8 (Fri) : FB concert. dope man! i see their concert, i feel so... awed. haha. my fav item is couple dance. SO NICE. sadly, no pics! =[
after concert we walked to AMK frm nyp. settled at the kopitiam dere. YQ like our papa liddat. haha! den he arranged the tables in 1 whole row. DAM COOL. haha! i had icekachang n i dug out all de green green thingy. i got a pic of dem, but i lazy upload. oh and, halfway thru saw lotsa other dancers also went dere to eat. including rachel n like a whoel bunch of fbodz.

ARGH. im rly worried abt things i hav to do:

DVPA Filming
IVP preparation
GEMs photos
WP website
modern dance exam

you call this a holiday?

Akon new songs

2008-12-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

i chged my blog song again! =D
kieran sent me some Akon's newest songs. from his new album Freedom.
ITS DOPE yo! n now im addicted to dis song.

Beautiful (Ft. Colby O'Donis And Kardinal Offishall)
[Akon]
When I see you
I run out of words to say (oh oh)
I wouldn't leave you
'Cause you're that type of girl to make me stay (oh oh)

I see the guys tryna' holla
Girl I don't wanna bother you
'Cause you're independent and you got my attention
Can I be your baby father
Girl I just wanna show you
That I love what you are doin' hun

I see you in the club
You gettin' down good
I wanna get with you, yeah
I see you in the club
You showin' thugs love
I wanna get with you

You're so beautiful
So damn beautiful
Said you're so beautiful
So damn beautiful

[Akon & Colby O'Donis]
You're so beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
You're so beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
You're so beautiful

[Colby O'Donis]
Like the clouds you
Drift me away, far away (yeah)
And like the sun you
Brighten my day, you brighten my day (yeah)
I never wanna see you cry cry cry
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie
Said I never wanna see you cry cry cry
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie

[Akon]
I see you in the club
You gettin' down good
I wanna get with you, yeah
I see you in the club
You showin' thugs love
I wanna get with you

You're so beautiful
So damn beautiful
Said you're so beautiful
So damn beautiful

[Akon & Colby O'Donis]
You're so beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
You're so beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful

[Kardinal Offishall]
Kardinal told you
Whether the sky blue or yellow
This fella ain't that mellow
If it ain't about you (you)
Hourglass shape make the place go (ooohhh)
Waistline makes my soldier salute
I'mma brute (brute)
High from your high heel game
High heels push up ya ass last name
And you livin' in the fast lane
Eyes like an angel (goddess)
Watch my yellin' as she undress
Spotless (otless) bad to the bone
Make me wanna go put me in the triple X zone (zone)
Lames don't know how to talk to you
So let me walk with you, hold my hand
I'mma spend them grands, but after you undress
Not like a hooker, but more like a princess
Queen, empress, president
Pull any way ya got my love
'Cause your beautiful (okay??)

[Akon]
I see you in the club
You gettin' down good
I wanna get with you (ohh yeah)
I see you in the club
You showin' thugs love
I wanna get with you

You're so beautiful
So damn beautiful
Said you're so beautiful (so beautiful)
So damn beautiful (so beautiful)

[Akon & Colby O'Donis]
You're so beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
You're so beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
You're so beautiful

[Akon]
Where'd you come from you're outta this world
To me (ohh ohh)
You're a symbol of what every beautiful woman should be (oooh wee)(ohh ohh)

[Colby O'Donis]
I never wanna see you cry cry cry (don't cry)
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie (oh yeah)
Said I never wanna see you cry cry cry (ohhhh)
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie (lieee)

[Akon]
I see you in the club
You gettin' down good
I wanna get with you (ooh yeah)
I see you in the club
You showin' thugs love
I wanna get with you

You're so beautiful
So damn beautiful
Said you're so beautiful
So damn beautiful
You're so beautiful

oh, i forgot to say. i got 86/100 for econs! WOOHOO. yes. very good okay! *proud of myself*
but i think i screwed up for my IDEAs n IVP. blehs.

Modern training in de morning tday. Ryan wasnt here. some new comers- Donovan, Nicolette and this girl from NYP, Shi Wei (idk de spelling). weird she join us n not join fbodz. o.O but she's quite nice. and she's SUPER FLEX. her split is totaly 180 one! *dieded*

oh and i wanna create my own blogskin this hols. i wanna put wat ive learnt in DB (photoshop) and WP (dreamweaver) into good use. =D see! i so hardworking rightttttttt.

oooh, i went back to HS to dj for awhile just now. x) fun.

Thanks Sean's dad! :

lipdub vids from tp mass comm

2008-12-05T00:54:00.001+08:00

okay, i forgot i wanted to post this vid. ytd sha was introducing it to us. dam funny luh!

these vids are lip dubs of songs made by TP's Communication and Media Management(mass comm) students.

The BEST vid:
Umbrella - Rihanna (lip dub by CMM Class of P01 2007)

AHAHA. i like the ju-on guy. SO FUNNY. n he looks kinda cute. HAHA. notice later when everyone get tgt n groove to de music, he's like standing behind stoning. HAHAHAHA.

The 2nd best vid (to me) :
Are You Gonna Be My Girl (lip dub by CMM class P04 2008)

i find it funny cus of the 4 guys dancing. HAHA.

tag replies; random update

2008-12-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

Tag replies:
anonymous - ooh. zheng rong. hoho. i will ask arnd again.
Venessa - ahh~ heart attack die already.
ting mei - ooh! haha. its FATE! =D
von - of course, i very good girl one (: yeah. Recital then pass to me bah.
ADELIA - HI! i miss you. =x haha. yeah, everyone look different wid makeup! it does wonders. x) yea, we shud go out some time!

aight. finally, time to rest for a bit. Today has been a rather happy day. I seemed to enjoy the lessons today, idk why. maybe its becus i readed Econs ytd night and understooded it and was able to do de qn in Econs lesson this morn. haha! it does feel good to be finally able to understand Econs lesson.

=[ rachel had to do de make-up test for econs. do hope she can do well.

tml's the last day of sch, and only hav Web Publishin lesson at 3 - 6.
*alrdy in holiday mood*
on the other hand, what's a holiday wid Filming, IVP and GEMs graded assignment to do. what kinda holiday is that? S I A N.

I WANNA GO OUT. i wanna watch movies. Madagascar!!! i still haven watch. pft.

Christmas is coming, Free hugs at orchard - anyone?

MST Over; Overdued pics; Holidays

2008-12-02T22:32:00.002+08:00

OKAY. here are the LONGGGGGGGGGGG overdued pics:

im not gg post all here. SO PLEASE VIEW FULL ALBUM AT:
http://s91.photobucket.com/albums/k292/fallenxhantu/Waves%2013/?start=all
[6 pics from dere isnt from my cam, its from someone elses but i uploaded it anyw becus got me. haha!]

all the wonderful gifts and notes i got from all the sweet people:

from janice mummy! :D

from yuping mummy! =D

NEXT.
long overdued Punklockers pics at DMC Faceoff event on 22 Nov'o8:
(credits to sha for being the photographer=)

AGAIN.. full album at:
http://s91.photobucket.com/albums/k292/fallenxhantu/punklockers%20at%20dmc%20faceoff/?start=all

Random pics:

12 Nov'o8 (potluck celebration) :

11 Nov'o8 (lockers camwhoring at clubhse) :

still got many many more, but wont upload all. (:

okay. my MST are all over. pft. mine was early by a week n while everyone is enjoying MST week. i still have lessons =(

bla. i miss dance trainings. i miss SDZ. i miss everyone =[
yay. sch's ending SOON. *CELEBRATE*
anyway, de reason why i havent been blogging is becus of Facebook. IM ADDICTED TO PLAYFISH GAMES.
started off wid Who has the biggest brain, den went on to Word challenge. IM NOW ADDICTED TO PET SOCIETY BECUS....

of this! its my pet, kiki. =D its so adorable!!!!!!! im obsessed wid it luh. even my hp wallpaper and msn dp is this pic. *dieded*

well anyway, Christmas is coming very soon, which means 2009 will be coming soon.
i was chatting wid tyler on de phone... a few days ago(or isit weeks? idk), and he suddenly ask me this:
"What are 6 things you really really want to do/acheive?"

and as i thought of the answer, i realised ive been really really lazy (am i am still). and i got a lot of things that i start but don't end it well. and i promised myself to blog about that 6 things i told tyler, so dat i wont forget my so called 'new year resolution'.

Be a better dancer
Wake up on time for lessons.
Don't wanna be so lazy. I dont want to keep leaving work to the last minute.
Be more task-focus. I have a bad habit of doing work halfway and gg off to play.
Blog more consistently.
WTFOMGBBQZXZ, i cant seem to rmb the last one. i think more $? IDK.

SO. i think i will make that my new year resolution after all. abit early uh.. but yeah.

oh oh oh, and i came across this when i was in IPRA tutorial looking for ads:

O SCH RECITAL NEXT MONDAY. WOOHOOO.

bimbo VS ahlian

2008-11-22T01:15:00.001+08:00

Bimbo vs. Ah Lian

Thelma Aoyama Feat. SoulJa - Soba Ni Iru Ne

2008-11-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

Addicted to this:

そばにいるね [Soba Ni Iru Ne] (I'LL BE BY YOUR SIDE) - Thelma Aoyama Feat. SoulJa ENG SUBBED

econs CA test tml. havent started studying. =(

stayhomesunday;study;Yiruma

2008-11-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

Tag replies:
anonymous - aye! i duno who u are!! =[
jing - (: thanks for your assurance. u rock yo!
shyan - i miss u too meimei! =[ hahas. u saying i immature ah!!
A.Z.N.I.T.A - okays thanks! =D
JAMIENG - aye! u make me shy. :$ hahaha.

aight. i havent been updating, cus im super lazy.. n since ive been at home the whole day tday! good girl right. x) [self-praise] ... i'll do a post now!

been stuck at home de whole day. spent de whole day on preparation for my IVP(issues n viewpoints) CA on coming tues. IVP in simple jus means smth like debates. so it kinda sucked. cus i havent been thinking critically for a longgggggg time. im so lazy to think can. =[ but actually i din spend de whole day doing work becus!!! i woke up at 12.45pm. HAH. n i started work at 3.30pm.

anyw! i jus fell in love wid a new artist! not as in love love but.. yeah, ive been playing his playlist on imeem nonstop.. since... a few hrs ago. its classical music, and im not a classical fan but i like it, so yeah. very nice to listen to when doing work:

Yiruma

AM LAZY TO TYPE AS USUAL SO JUST GONA POST PICS! :
8 Nov'o8 Waves 13:

-MORE PICS NEXT TIME- imma sleep.
-EDIT 17 nov'o8, 10.15pm-

accidental vid, but am posting this becus... look at ryan's expression when we were screaming.
PRICELESS.

11 Nov'o8 lockers lappy-camwhoring session at clubhouse:

update;post Waves;potluck;superficial world

2008-11-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

aight. its been AGES since i updated.
been wrapped up wid all the trainings and work and CAs. urgh

actually had time to do a proper post... but i was too lazy.
urgh. its like.. 12:39am on friday super early mornin as im typing. i cant wait to go to bed.. but am receiving this super big file from moosh. so am taking this opportunity to do a quick post.

FIRST.

WAVES 13 IS OVER. omg.
i wish it wouldn't end.
but then again, ITS NOT THE END. yeah.
its jus sad that nowadays there wouldnt be smth exciting to look forward to.. and like, spend lesser time tgt. =(

Potluck celebration for post-Waves is over too.

--
am very lazy to elaborate on any events right now, but suddenly felt like posting smth philosophical.. idk why, jus .. idk why i suddenly feel emoish n brood over this topic.. like. for the past 15mins.

Beauty lies in the eye of the beholder.
the world is superficial.
blehs. so cliche~ idk why i like the word cliche. haa..
yes, the world is superficial.

Synonyms of superficial
cursory, shallow, sketchy, skin-deep, uncritical, external, ostensible, outward, seeming,
apparent, casual, desultory
-from dictionary.com-

Lets face it.
If you're good-looking, you've already won by 95%.
You just need 4% of brains and 1% of luck to go by.
and you don't even need to have have a good character, ppl still like you.

If you're average-looking, you are only at 50%
You need 45% of brains and 5% of luck to make people like you.
you still need to have a good character.

but if you are born with a not-so-pleasant look, you have already lost.
You need like.. idk. more than brains to make people like you.
and u need to have hell of a awesome character, & lotsa patience.
and good for the above two categories.. will never been good enough for you; you have to be terrifically amazing, to be good.

uhm, yea. the point of me typing all that is mainly to express my feelings luh, cus its my blog anyw, i jus feel like ranting. oh and, all is jus my pointofview, so no offence intended.

THE POINT IS... in lay-man terms:
kanasai sia. life is so unfair. Zz people will never notice you if you dont look pretty enough to them.
evryone is superficial la can.
kns! its sad dat majority of guys still only find interest in girls wid pretty faces or good bodies, so much so dat they dont even bother making friends or talking much to others who are not good-looking enough to be their friends.
i admit, evryone has abit of this in them. its natural. but its disgusting that some people think like that very prominently, and its annoying & immature.

kanasai.

evryone deserves a chance can.
you look for inner beauty in anthr person..?
like real.
think again.

-its 1:08AM-

back frm dance camp

2008-11-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

aight, back frm dance camp. am super lazy to blog.
plus, i haven done my CA work still.

6 MORE DAYS TO WAVES 13.
-dieded-
everyone's so burned out.

am lazy to post any pics also, so, am gona share this vid... which i koped frm my friend's msn pm: