Cold Nostalgia

Monday, March 26, 2007 @ 12:52 PM

march hols.

okay. im gona promise myself to blog regularly. if not. NAG AT ME PLEASE.

9 mar(fri): last day of sch, yay! rushed outa sch. actuli wana go hm 1st. in de end went to meet tyl during his lunch break(supposedly) den awhile. den went to city hall to find ferdy n his nu er. tyl went bak to work. den ferdy me n nuer went marina wait for biyong. den omg BY is shuai lah can. but anyw. went to arcade. i cudnt spend much. lols. den ferdy ate. den we played pool. hmm. although i wasnt taught by any1 of dem, but tru how dey play n teach nuer, i improved! =D

anyw. march hols smth interestin happen. or rather on 10th MARCH. smth happen lols.

10 march 07 (sat): a day id never forget. bev emily nigel me n tyl. took a hell long trip to East Coast Park. n den rent rollerblades lo. tyl got a bike. n he payed for me wor. den 1st 10-20mins ok de. guide bev on skating.. den skate arnd bits. den despite emily's warnings n tyl's tellin me to get guards, i mischeivously continue. held on to tyl's bike. speeded, wind tru hair so shuang w/o needing to skate at all den.. WHAM. lost control n den... i fell. v dramatic de okay. -let go of the bike, fall, SLIDE A DISTANCE ON THE ROUGH GROUND- zz dam pain luh can. den is like, tyl stop immediately n came to console me. kissed me softly but i wasnt in de mood. pain all ovr. i touched my chin n den my legs n den in de end evrything i touch will hav blood. my chin bled, right shoudler blade bled, near right elbow bled, back of my left hand bled, left n right knew bled. it hurt-ed like hell. den as we werent near the areas of the more populated plc, more to the end le, i had to b helped by tyl to a 'hut' to rest 1st den i alone den he chiong bak to tell de othrs n get water tissue etc. den.. its was like. hurtin like hell, i felt so terrible for myself n for ruining the fun for evry1. i cried all the while when waiting. lols. den blabla.

horrible uh

in de end i managed to walk back. den settled at mac. so many pp look at me. den cleaned up my wounds.. omg the iodine hurt like hell. i had to bite on tissue. zzz. so grateful to bev n emily n nigel. n tyl. love tyl so much, so touched luh.

look at me BEFORE the fall:

AFTA the fall(at sakae):

den in de end i stil managed to walk but like a lame girl. u noe, crippled. yeahs. den we went to Parkway Parade for dinner. Sakae! long time nv eat le. i had terreyaki. thanks tyl for peiing me but insted made ur mom not v happy. thanks for brging me all the way home.

when reach home, my parents n bro was at uncle hse mahjong, so i was alone.. dey knew i had a bad fall though. den when i went to bathe, I HAD TO SIT ON A CHAIR, BITE ON TISSUE, and bathe slowwllyyy. i screamed tru the whle time in de toilet.

oh and, my parents got me a new phn today! yay! K800i yayyayyay.
sadly, he go cruise right afta dat day. frm sunday-wed. zzz so i was having a terrible holiday. AND RIGHT ON wed when he come bak HE PLAYED A SUCKY PRANK on me luh can. "i did smth really evil. im sorry.... making out lor...... muackmuack" n when i got dose msgs. i jus had my braces checked n wid parents at thomsan plaza. i went to the toilet to cry. zzz. wat an asshole right? awt a prank to play luhs. hate him uh.

[THE FOLLOWING DONT NEED TO BE READ IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED]-its my blog, my right to blabber.
ytd-24 mar 07(sat): 2 weeks since the fall n since i last saw him. the night b4 dis day or infact the early mornin infact 12+ - 2am. quarreled on de phn again. cry cry cry- tyl, how cud u hav evr said dat two sentences? hurts like hell.(though i noe youd never read my blog but still.) i love you so much. why dyu hav to be such a fucker? suck luh. dam hurt. so in de end the nxt day my eyes were swollen, although no1 knew. den i was sorta like.. -cool dwn gurl coool dwn... he told me hes free todayyy, promised me to go outt...- and den txted him. he din rply. james say go maple. den i went. AND HE IS ALRDY MAPLING. n i was feeling like wtf, WATS WRONG WID YOU TYL. so i jus said: hello all. n wat i got frm him was HELLO DAR. n dats it for the whle time i was in maple. wats dis shit? so i prompted him-dar, today stil got go out? he said duno, mayb, later sms/call u. den i was like. okay cool. n i edi told my mom i mayb gg out wid him. so... i continue doin my own stuff.. eat, play, do abit hmwrk. den its alrdy 1.30++ den i go bathe.. den i stil purposely wash clean clean etc.. hoping to impress if go out. den abt 2pm+ i sms him while i was CUTTING MY NAILS NICE NICE. "dar, r we still gg out?" replies "Dun think so dar. Sorry. >.<" and i cried immediately. he called me, his mom wants to eat sakae wid him n his bro. ahh well. he knew i was sad n tried to cheer me up.. sorries wad shit etc. but i was so so heartbroken. de main problem is he always ALWAYS seem to promise me an outing but at the v last min, he NEVER tells me de decision. I AM THE ONE hu has to prompt. n be hurt, disappointed, n a tad angry at dis habit of his. i was so fucking hurt n heartbroken luh on dis day. YTD. zz. lucky no1 was at home. i screamed. zz. n den i cudnt stand it i asked bev to go yishun park meet me. den we sat on de swing.. i told her evrything. reasons why im feeling so fucking hurt: why does he always not value promises? why does he always hav to let me ask for decision and ALWAYS at the last minute? why so? even afta i told him it hurts me when he does dis. why does he not realise dat DAT is de main reason why im feelin so disappointed and dat not meeting him for 2weeks afta a terrible fall is NOT the main reason. WHY? fuck. so, thanks to bev, i released. emily even though u cudnt b here i noe ur here for me =). anyw, we chatted lo. den until abt 5+ went home. in de end i think i lost many buckets of tears man. lols.
den dat night itself dad came bak frm msia for golf, den he drove me to Kailing's hse at semb as mom was there mahjongging. den chilled. played wid kailing. n even though i hated tyl so much for wat he did to me. i stil made dis:
(gona upload the pic nxt time, smth wrg)

den at 10.30 i watched Final Destination 2 on chnl 5. nice show, freaky though. poor peeps. poor kimberly. ahh, if life is rly like dat, id freak out. hahas.

watching Ugly Betty later at 10.30. do watch it peeps. its a nice show. meaningful .

I wished you'd treat this relationship with more respect and not take it so lightly.