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ok.. i dun reli hav da mood to write evrythin tt i was supposed 2 write[c last post].. i'd juz write wts m0r recent... kz.. 1stly.. OBvIouSly.. loadz had happened.. frenship.. etc.. hmm.. hav u tried audio conversation-ing wif sum1 for 8 straight daes? yea.. tts wt i did.. it tk place frm laz fridae-yesterdae.. wif a sec1 juni0r.. dtwb[sounds funny?] n u n0e wts de result? iz my mum scoldin me for usin de comp 4 so long[she doesnt n0e tt i was in audio, luckily] tt she scolded me juz yesterdae nite... n limited my time on com 2 oni 1 pathetic h0ur.. haiz.. n afta i brushed my teeth.. i went bak 2 my own rm[aircon was on n door closed].. lie on my bed.. n strted cryiN.. i cried 4 abt 11mins.. y?i dun reli n0e y 2.. bt i alredi wanted 2 cry since i gt my report bk baK.. although i improved.. bt considerinG my results of 2004.. iz stil a dung result.. i strived.. bt yt i gt tiz.. im juz so so disappointed of myself.. n den 3 of my grp of frenz cried... mel-she had a fever n yt came 2 sch caz she wanted 2 n0e her results.. bt in de end mdm yeo didnt even let her hav a lk at her results[she hd 2 go 4 teacherparents meeting].. i mean.. even so, juz a lk wun kill rite? she was sick n mdm yeo didnt even care.. she even scolded her.. while de other student did smth wrg she didnt say nethin.. bt while our grp did wrg.. she scolds lyk mad.. she iz so damn bious..
i particulary remembered once.. although i told no1.. i remembered... in fact, i noticed, once we[mingxuan,melissa,marlene,yeeting,me,gloria] went up 2 classes late abit, de other students were stil standin outside de class n mdm yeo juz came.. n den we gt dere juz on time, juz as mdm yeo came.. n yet she scolded us.. bt once, xiaoyi n jiahong came up late, vry vry obviously later den us as we were alredi inside the class n greeted mdm yeo alredi.. den dey came in.. n mdm yeo didnt say nethin!! she oni said: hao[ok].. hui qu zuo[go bak 2 ur seats].. WTH iz tiz man?! obvious biousness izen it? bt i guess no1 realised..
den glo cried.. i duno y.. bt shldve been n act.. den lata on.. yeeting cried caz of dennis.. haiz.. i oso dun0 wt 2 say or do.. i felt real sad 2.. bt i had i HAD 2 hold bak.. n den as i cried caz of tt.. i strt 2 recollect on de sad pasts.. n i felt so sd tt i continue 2 cry..i havent been cryin alone in my rm on my bed 4 so long other den when my hamsters died.. so obviously i was vry vry vry hurtt.. sumhow......

yesterdae.. went 2 marlene's hse as her mum wanted her 2 invite her frenz over 4 her sis[mandi] birthdae party.. so we went ova afta sch.. brought sum chips.. n balloons n we[marl,me,yt n mx-hu came vry late] had our own mini party in marl's rm.. n spent all de time tokin, on de com n takin pics wf marls cam??!! hahaz.. den went hm at abt 7...
think nth much 2 say le bahz..

What i wished.. was never to come true...
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aii.. long time no p0st le.. deres LOADS 2 update!! caz laz whole week evrydae gt events... so packed.. hahaz.. k.. ehhs.. tiz iz gonna b 1 lonGgGg post..
Wed, 18 may..
okaes.. 2dae had a river trail triP 2 Spore River!!! so we[oni sum of us] were let off at 12noon.. 2 eat la.. budden alot of us[includin 2H,2G,2D,2F] went 2 de mini mart nearby 2 buy snacks.. me n de gang oso gt[mx,marl,mel,yt,glo,me] go.. den in de end we didnt had time 2 eat.. n mel vomited 2.. hahaz.. so chum.. de vomit killed a butterfly/moth summor.. k.. den we went 2 spore river tru[through] bus provided by sch.. den i sat beside ms tay!!! whahaha.. saw her markin 2E's papers..*wink wink* den when we reach.. we went 2 a history museum bahz.. at least i think so.. den we settled at sum sort of dance studio.. gt mirror as a side of a wall.. so alot of pp was lyk.. lkin at their own reflections.. so funnY.. den we were separated into 2 grps.. 2H n mY cls 2G went 4 de river walk 1st.. den 2D n 2F had their drama 1st.. den we switched ova.. de river walk was quite fun.. we saw the bungy.. n mani diff things.. includin a dead bird wif its feathers n body tore apart.. stil can c red red.. so sd.. den the drama was even fun-er.. there was a shrt warm up.. which was fun.. den the drama tru letter.. explaination: we had 2 write a letter 2 say a life of a coolie in spore laz time.. well.. nt exactly write.. each 1 of us say out 1 sentence in de letter... den tru wt we said.. we had 2 act it out!! lols.. den de 1st letter we 'wrote' was a reli stpd+funny letter--> the 1st dae of work.. i fell into de water... u get the meanin? ya.. so we 'wrote' another letTer.. bt deres a lack of time.. so oni lawson's team[lawson,zhaoshao,lester, bingguang,chandrika] n my team[me,mx,marl,mel,yt,glo] acted.. den went bak..

Thurs, 19 may..
had badminton competition 2dae.. cried caz of results.. etc etc.. update at nxt post..

friday had huayue.. saturdae.. plaed whole dae..sundae plae whole dae.. 2dae whole dae.. etc erc.. update at nxt post.. back to top?

1stly.. YAY!!! EXAMS OVA!!! Wo0h0o~ been reli reli tired n stressed 0ut.. who wouldnt b when dey wake up evrymorn at 5am 2 study evry single dae f0r 5 straight daes? tts wat i did.. i plae in de aftanoon[on moz daes alot.. bt on others 0ni a lil while] den slept early/late dependin on whther i think i could finish revisin de nxt m0rn.. den as for history tt dae.. the dae b4 history exam.. i slept at 10.50pm.. caz i spent practically de whole aftan0on playin GunBound.. den the nxt morn[de dae of history exam+homeEcon] i woke at 3am TO STUDY!! de worst thing iz.. i studied history.. oni history.. until when i reached sch in cls.. abt 2 leave 4 de parade square.. den Glo told me tt HE exams 1st.. y i study history?? den i n0e tt HE test 1st.. so i was lyk.. damn f**ked up by my own self.. i alredi felt drained out frm lack of sleep n yet another blow.. so i bia3[rush] lyk crazy lo.. keep flippin de pages of the HE bk lyk mad.. oni read a lil tiinie biT.. so pathetic.. den lk at main things n try 2 rmb.. den test.. haiz heck manz.. nxt year oso nt takin HE.. hu cares.. hahaz..
2nd wo0ho0! [plus boohoo]k.. gt t0 n0e 3 of 0ur paper's result.. ART,i expected 2 fail tiz bt 'unfortunately' i passed wif a mere 56/100.. so iz quite a boohoo.., LITerature, tiz iz de oni subj other den the HE[which i gt confused on which pp tested 1st] tt i didnt study.. lit.. i oni read 2 stories.. n idiotingly.. both didnt come 0ut on pp.. haiz.. bt luckily.. de things tt tested are things tt i stil can rmb tru daily less0ns.. *luckily i didnt slack in less0ns* lolz.. den 2dae ms Ang so disappointed.. 2F 19 failures, our cls, 2G 15 failures!! den she told us abt a story of 2 frenz of hers.. abt nt bein 2 proud if u scored well ONCE.. 2 enlighten us.. den i heng heng passed..25/45.. bt quite disappointed la.. pull ma marks down.. esp art.., SCIence.. tiz iz a SURE 100% wo0ho0.. yay!! [wadeva..] thinG.. hahaz.. i quite satisfied la.. 82/100.. 1st time in ma sec sch life gt so much.. so delighted.. i laz year whole year slack.. until.. sad sad endin.. cried at the laz day of sch caz of ma results.. summ0r damn bd lo.. whole cls watchin School of Rock.. den i was dere cryin.. sadistic lorz.. k.. bt i nw stil worried for maths, chi geo n history.. haiz.. h0pe can do well.. if nt i die..
the other thing woohoo.. nt much la.. juz finally.. FINALLY learnt hw 2 plae de FF8 triple traid card game.. nv knew it was TT simple.. lolzz..

dun read below... u'll b bored 2 death.. im juz lashin my anger n disappointment herre..
lazly.. k.. frenship iz killing me.. i tel u i can tok abt the current situation for on and on.. while cryin.. even when i write tiz nw.. im sobbin-->cryin bt nt reli cryin as in.. few tears flowin dwn on n off lyk tt.. reli! life juz suX nowadaes loRs.. esp wif de prob of frenship.. or rather acquantenceship? i mean iz lyk.. loads iz happenin nowadaes.. n iz vry vry vry difficult 2 put in w0rds.. u hav 2 experience it urself 2 understan de pain.. loads of pp gt heartbroken n disappointed caz of BGR n exam results[lesser].. bt nw.. i truely truely understan hw it feels 2 b hurt b FRIENDS over n over again.. i tot i cld trust tt pers0n.. n yt tt pers0n went off when sum other pp once dey either.. number1)tired of u or number 2)get want information dey wanted n iz satisfied or 3)i dun0... happened twice in 1 month.. 2 different pp.. hw sad can it gt.. iz reli reli vry hurtin l0rz.. im lkin 4 true hard WILLING fren.. doesnt hav 2 b close 2 me.. juz hav 2 b true.. n can keep secrets.. izit tt hard 2 b lyk one? izit tt hard?? some pp juz dun understan de meanin of frenz... i reli reli had enough of SHIT.. mayb sumtimes i admit i did wrg.. im quite sentimental n i do overreate at times.. bt i reli had ENOUGH of surpressin.. im angry.. angry til desappointed at evry1 of dem..i wished for GODS SAKE[amen] tt i dey wil lemme break off frm dem.. i reli regreted bein part of their social circle.. IT SUX.. if i had a choice.. id rather b alone w/o ne frenz den havin frenz.. or shld i say 'fake' frenz.. at elast i dun hav 2 cry n feel so hurTt evrytime i think of us.. it always seem so fine at 1 p0int.. bt dere owaes wil b smth tt crops up tt makes at least 1 of us unhapi..ALWAYS.. think bout tt.. when had we evER been totally fully hapi when all of us r 2gether.. nt yet! nt tt i n0e of.. im juz so sickk of tiz life.. i dun care if any1 hu n0es wat im tokin abt reads tiz.. i DUN CARE nem0r.. i dun value tiz kind of shit frenship.. aint frenz at all.. in fact i wil feel damn delighted if i can break off frm those pp.. i dun care if dey hate me.. caz i dun value dem anym0r.fullstop

I realsied at the end of the day, i haven't got any friends. back to top?

as my title said it.. i've changed my blogskin... I present to you my 3rd blogskin... FINAL FANTASY!!! yea man.. duno y.. strtin 2 get obsessed wif final fantasy stuff.. iz juz so nice lo.. evrythin bout it.. the game iz nice 2 plae.. storyline iz gr8.. animations r vry reallife n nice.. n the most liked thing to me iz da music.. so nice.. so touchin[for sum].. changed tiz skin on 9may.. 2 daes ag0.. den g0in 2 change da music afta i post.. found loads of nice pics of FF n da soundtracks on a site introduced by pri sch fren-boonjie...->fantasysquare.com..(juz 4 me 2 rmb).. budden sad thing iz.. can oni save de tracks on media player bt nt hard disk.. so can oni play de tracks when connected 2 internet.. caz de tracks r saved under URL.. sad thinG eh.. haiz.. lolz.. ok i'll stp crappin..

YAY!!!!!!!!!! left 1 major pp 2 go,2molo!!... ScIeNcE~~ n de laz pp iz art.. woohoo... 2 mor daes.. n den... ZI4 YOU2 FENG1[free 2 b crazy]!!!! wakaka.. so hapi siaz.. buden i surely do VRY badly iN maths pp-didnt study at al.. oni abit.. n wat i study didnt cum out.. so suckY rite.. sadcase.. den in de end 2dae maths n literature... maths lost 17mrks-pp1 n 15mrks-pp2.... den literature i didnt study!! oni study on mummies in de morn n charlottes wanderers.. n den both didnt come out.. bt luckily can rmb de abit tt was tested on mouth-organ boys n aiman's sixpence.. heng.. buden de unseen poem dey ask 4 literary devices.. den i was lyk dere...blanked out: HAR?!! wat iz tiz dung thinG??... lolz.. den 6 mrks on 2 Q.. GONE.. sadded...

frenship... geTtin m0r n mor complicatin.. mayb iz juz me............. bt i juz dun seemed 2 get along wif pp w/o gettin hurt.... i n0e im quite sensitive.. im tryin... hard.. vry vry hard... n hve succeded halfway.. frm preventin myself frm gettin fed up n vent my anger.. bt i failed once 2dae.... haiz.. shouted at mx.. when she disturbed me at the staircase when i was readin lit.. haiz.. nvm dun tok bout it le.. den afta a few daes afta glo asked me hu i tot changed de moz.... postive or negative change oso can.. den i strt 2 realise us.. i saw.. n strted 2 realise n c... de truth......... mayb i was juz so naive laz time.. bt n0w... i get it... i saw de colours.... of truth... orh well.. nvm.. tiz suX.. urGh!!!!!

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hmm.. been unable 2 post these few daes caz exams... muz study.. bt as 2dae iz fri.. tot i'd relax 4 abit.. de other reason iz.. I SAW SLYVESTER SIM 2dae~~ lolz.. k.. lame.. woohoo... it was about 10.30am when i saw him.. iz actually lyk tiz.. we 9.50am lyk tt end sch.. den cum out.. budden dun0 y we didnt c sly walkin at de opposite of our sch..(i didnt n0e until.. juz nw on msn.. mx told me.. den desmond[sec1].. den yewli.. ok..) den we[mel,marl,glo,me] tk bus 2 sunplaza.. den we go KFC eat.. den we juz bought de food strt 2 eat lia0z.. den beverley,justina,kiuhui n 1 mor girl walked in.. bev saw me.. showed me smth on a foolscap pp.. i frowned at it n asked wts tt.. den she say iz slyvester's autograph... den she say he at the taxi stand..w8in 4 taXi.. so me marl n glo go c.. den when we go n c.. another 962 reach busstop.. den alot of the cchy students oso stare at sly.. den we 3 run bak 2 kfc.. take mel's foolscap.. marl's silver pen.. glo tk her sly CD n a marker.. den run bak.. den i dun dare ask.. so marl went dwn de steps den at de taxi stand dere ask 4 sly's autograph.. 4 autographs[4 pieces of foolscap].. den i went down n stood at the side.. so i saw sly's side view up close.. bt i oni saw his front view a distance away.. ok.. den glo asked him 2 sign her disc... hahaz.. k den we went bak.. feelin quite satisfied.. den the 4 autographs marl gt.. the 1st 1 iz de nicest caz gt an xtra :" Keep ROCKIN" at the top writtin vry nicely n cool.. den i actually want.. den marl say she wan.. den ok lo.. giv her.. den went bak 2 kfc.. mel saw den she say she wan de 1st 1.. den marl say she wan.. den dun0 y she angry.. k.. dun1 elaborate wat happen.. k den spoke 2 bev abit.. den we went 2 woodlands lib 2 study..... saw ka kin n sum sec 2 normal[acad] students-germaineyuaianne etc.. k den went bak lo.. nt much la.. bt i quite hapi lo.. gt 2 c sly.. n gt his autograph!!! wahahahaz.... woohoo~

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whoa man.. haven been postin 4 soo lonG.. been reLi lazy.. reli reli reli lazy.. until i didnt care abt my pets.. haiz... tts y both my pets die.. well.. my hamsters.. i didnt n0e exactly y...[c last post].. bt 2dae... found out my turtle die... i feel so... GUILTY... n.. self-reproached.. i feel lyk beatin myself up... bt i dun feel de pain.. i juz feel s0 bad... al d0se innocent lifez... wasted away.. juz caz of my LAZINESS... i dun understan myself.. y am i so lazy.. y y y??? i juz care abt play play play.. abt myself... Y DUN I THINK ABT OTHERS??? fk me man... a turtle! turtles r meant 2 live a vry vry long life.. bt tiz turtle.. i w0n in laz year at our class BBQ when we[mx,me,glo/marl] went fishin... iz around dec/nov.. oni 4-5 mths... even shorter den my hamsters..... haiz... 1st my hamsters die.. deN de pr0b 0f frenship c0mes straight bak attckin at me.. n0w my turtles death... n exams r c0min.. hw 2 consentrate?? hw much m0r grieve do i hav 2 carry.....?

k.. laz fri[29.4.05].. at nite i went 2 my hse nearby de market dere buy sum things... den at NTUC saw a CCHY sec3 guy oso... dun0 wt name he iz.. budden checked frm yearbk iz.. Ng Koon How... hmm.. weird name.. hahaz.. k la.. den nth much happen lo.. den Laz Sat... [30.4.05] wahaha.. vry vry interestin dae... k i leave parag.. caz alot of thing 2 write.. ok.. hahaz

k.. Saturdae 30 April 2005.. [lolz.. vry formal ya..] k.. went 4 big walk wif sch.. den.. i didnt gt de T-shirt ma.. so i wear hse t-shirt.. den i didnt brg any hm shirt caz i asked marl[she didnt get de shirt 2] den she say she wear pe shirt den nv say she brgin xtra clothes.. budden sad case.. laz min glo tel her brg den she brought.. so i was de oni 1 hu didnt brg xtra clothes.. k den nvm.. we walked.. abt 8.00+am.. den abt 9.30am we reached endin lia0z.. so shrt rite??? abt 40mins oni.. iz considered SMALL walk lia0z lo... so stpd.. i tot it'd end at abt 12no0n.. d0tz.. so sptd lo.. waste my time.. den actually muz wear de shirt den can get goodie bag de.. budden i cheat.. lolz.. Glo take 1 goodie bag.. i take it frm her.. den she take another 1.. lolS! so bd ritez?? hahaz.. k den we walked 0ut 2 main road.. so pathetic.. no busstop no nth.. n evry1 was crammed dere... so mani pp.. n the oni way was 2 either walk a vry vry long way[nearest was suntec.. n it was kinda cutoff frm us by sum biG constructi0n..] or.. take a taxi.. ok.. so mani pp choose taXi.. n it was lyk.. wat the he*l... main road.. actually can0t stop dere.. vry dangerous.. bt iz a despo measure.. n evry1 was lyk.. hey man... stpd taxi.. take ME! [lolz]
k.. den me mx nic n glo took a taxi n we were de 1st 2 reach suntec tower 1.. followed by XiaoYi n JiaHong[although dey were kinda los 4 awhile] n den lastly colin danny pauline dey all... n den.. we went 2 burger kinG 2 eat.. actually wanted 2 eatin chiken whopper.. budden realised iz stil m0rn.. n oni breakfast sold..s0 sadistic(iz dere sucha w0rd??).. den afta tt me n glo went 2 toilet.. takin our bags al0ng.. i carried her Roxy red bag n she took my pink OP pouch caz i wasnt xi2 guan4 carryin a pouch.. n she was accustomed alredi.. k.. den we went 2 2nd fl00r into de Tower Of Records.. den browsed around de disc... den Jiahong n XiaoYi called.. say y nv wait 4 dem.. den dey came up n find us.. den we went 2 Star Factory[afta misreadin the Mall Directory n den bein guided correctly by Rayner].. hahaz.. den once we reach dere alredi saw moz o the 2F pp lia0z.. vry easy 2 recognise wif deir black nice cls shirt.. woa man.. CCHY 2F has rAiDeD de arCade~.. lolz... den we saw mx mel marl dey all.. den plae lo... hung out at de arcade 4 awhile.. buden i no $$ n oni gt 2 plae the Dance machine wif XiaoYi..[xiaoyi treat me..=].. so tired..

den.. we went 2 K-box... lolz.. actually mx say 5 person oni.. budden 1 whole gang of us trooped in... 'illegally'.. so iz lyk.. dere was lyk.. melissa marlene MingXuan Gloria me nicholas danny colin xiaoyi n jiahong...[dun0 whre pauline g0].. 10 person.. n bill was oni for 5 person.. den sum lady sorta warned us.. den colin n danny went.. xiaoyi n jiahong was added onto de bill... n nic stayed 4 awhile n was later on chased out.. k.. so we sang.. n glo lay on her bag whicH was on my lap 4 quite awhile.. den aftatt xiaoyi oso lay on me.. [i was seatin at a corner...] so i was lyk a mother lookin afta 2 kids.. lolz.. hahaz.. den a glass was broken.. dun0 y.. den dere was diz worker.. at 1st sight HE looked a lil bit lyk a female[face].. buden i dun0 y.. as if i knew him frm sumwhre sumhw lyk tt.. buden confirm i nv c him b4.. iz reli weird.. oh well nvm.. so we sang til 2.00pm.. den went bak lo... sat de train... vry longg dae man..

den reached my doorstep at 3.34pm.. u n0e y i can rmb tiz STUPID exacT time ma? caz i was LOCKED OUT OF MY OWN HSE.. lolz.. i didnt brg my key wimme.. 1stly caz i tot at least sum1 wil b hm.. den 2nd.. was afraid 2 lose de key.. oh well.. so 'LUCKY' me... bing0*** ding ding ding.. gt stucked at the doorstep... den called my mum.. mum tel me 2 call my dad.. which i did.. n den my dad rushed hm immediately frm Ang Mo Kio afta quickly completin sm wrk... i was stuck outside my hse 4 exactly half hr... 3.34-4.04pm... 2 coincident rite? haiz.. den when i finally step into my hse.. was dead tired.. lolz.. k... think nt much lia0z..

k.. SunDaY..[which was yesterdae...] sum thinGs happened 2.. bt i think tiz p0st iz l0nG enouf lia0z.. s-t-o-p... continue 2molo.. provided im nt infected by my own laziness again... n i stop oso caz iz 11+ nw.. gotta slp.. vry tired 2molo stil gt sch.. sianz manz.......

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