Cold Nostalgia

Wednesday, September 12, 2012 @ 12:26 AM

Growing up

Right. So here I am back again, trying to do it consistently again. trying.

But anyway, I'm back to blogging because the boyfriend has gone in to serve his NS and I feel so terribly lost right now. It's only the first night and it already feels so odd, so empty, so boring. I'm so used to my baby's presence and being able to disturb him and all but now that he's stuck in camp with limited communication with me... it's just so.. different =[

So here I am, hoping to document and release my thoughts since I can't rant to him every single day now. Also hoping that this will lead me back to blogging. I actually kinda miss it, but I am just so lazy. god.

Where do I start...

SO.
Lots has changed since I last blogged *checking the previous post right now..* which was like, at the beginning of the year. Of course things have changed. Friends have come and gone, time have flown by which I wished I could unwind but these have all been part of growing up. It sucks but o well.

Gosh I really don't know where to start, I'm all over the place!

Life has been alright. Good because I've grown to realise who really matters and I've got those who really love me and whom I love as well. Bad as I've realise how the world is a sad, mean, place and people are superficial. Friendships forged and cultivated through so much fun times can just be torn just from one hard decision. I wouldn't blame any. Just admitting that once in a while, I miss those people and sometimes, I really can't help but wonder how they are doing, and whether they miss those times as well. I mean, we had so many great times tgt, how can things just be wiped off completely right? right?

Great, Idk why I'm tearing up again. for no reason, but just from typing that. I should really stop talking about that.

Coming back to topic, this morn, or rather, yesterday morn, I sent my baby off tgt with his mom. Lucky him, got Police instead of Army. Happy for him. :) but anyway, woke up at like, 6.15am to prepare n stuff n reached his hse at 7.45am. baby's dad sent us there - Home Team Academy. I skipped class to send him but to hell with class, not like I'd learn anything from class, classmates said nothing was taught in the end, why am I not surprised! Right so sending baby off. The programme sucked, the food sucked. Comparing to when I sent my bro off at Tekong, things were disorganised here and there was so much waiting. We reached at 8.15ish and the programme officially started at 10. such as waste of time.

And then when we (me and his mom) finally got to see him a last time, we had a rushed lunch before sending him off into the hall where he had to report. Took a couple of pics. Sigh, wished he didn't have to go. His mom held back her tears as he went off. BABY I WANNA BE IN YOUR ARMS RIGHT NOW =[ but so happy that baby called a couple of times just now, 3 in fact. haha! he's probably sleeping as I type this..

That aside. I'm currently studying in a private university - sadly. After being rejected two years in a row by our very widely sought-after NTU & NUS, I'm now stuck at Curtin SG doing my bachelor's in arts (mass comm). noticed I used 'stuck'. I had high hopes for my uni life but after about 2 months, future looks bleak. It has been such a disappointing course. Lousy organisation, admin. Lecturers aren't very good. Everything is so messy! But at least I have good people as classmates, albeit the lack of students in our course - we are the only class in the whole course in SG. There's only 10 of us, including me. It used to be 11, and then a girl dropped out within the first month, haha! Smart girl. Everyone of us feel like dropping out but it's too late to waste our efforts and money away.

Oh well. I guess that's all... for now. The post is getting way wordy. so..

Bye!