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Sunday, October 25, 2009 @ 1:30 AM

So fucking pissed

This whole post is full of rants and Fucks. so don't read, or bear with it.

i dont understand why i am not allowed to go stay over at my friends' houses.
i felt bad for showing the lousy side of me infront of the CJs but TBH(to be honest) , the part of not being able to ton is 1 thing, but the main thing that im really BOOMZZSHINGZ about is that i really dont understand how my bro always get to ton and i dont.
i mean, yeah sure , about being protective esp when imma girl.
& yeah sure whatever, im JUST 18 to them. BUT 18 LEH. WALAU. ok fine dont talk about age.
thing is. ive always. ALWAYS been a v good girl, good as in the way that i always listen to them. i have never,
NEVER ran out before. and everytime i go out, i tell them what is it abt etc.. and the few times i was allowed to ton, IM STILL OK. IM STILL CLEAN.

i mean like. point is. yes sure, they will be worried.
BUT LOOK. THEY SHOULD HAVE MORE FAITH n TRUST IN ME WHAT.
its not like i go out or stay out late or dont come home every other day.
its not like my friends are indecent people.
its not like im an indecent / promiscuous girl.
im just asking for a night at my friends' house with a group of friends.
what's so fucking wrong with that la? nb.

& thing is. even if u dont allow me,
AT LEAST FUCKING GIMME A FUCKING REASON WHY LA.
"Why cannot?!?!"
"Cannot means cannot, you come home now."
WHAT THE F U C K ?
its like its like... punching me in my face. and then telling me, "oh, i just wanna punch you."

its like, at least gimme a reason why i am not allowed to go la can?!
i feel so fucked up.
i feel so disatisfied.
its like damn bu4 gan1 xing1 la can.
i cant go for no fucking reason at all. just becus they buay song dun lemme go.
and then when i come home they act like v good to me n stuff just becus they feel bad.
WHAT SHIT. THEN LEMME GO LA. ITS NOT LIKE IMMA COMMIT A CRIME LIKE THAT..

FUCKING PISSED LA.

Labels: Curry Jii, family, pissed, ton, trust, unfair

Tuesday, October 06, 2009 @ 10:17 PM

depressed & unmotivated

urgh. currently having gastric pains. ate already but still hurting. feels like as if smth is eating up my stomach. arggghhh

i wanna chg blogskin soon. the images link all screwed up and the dividers also all off. cannot stand it!

--

locking @ 3 - 5pm just now. i forgot n thought it was cherie's choreo, lucky i checked.
Curry Jii session @ rp tday full-gear wear n taking vid. ahh! wanted to go but didnt. but anyway i was and still am feeling quite down n unmotivated becus of some issues.

its because of those little things
and those few selfish stubborn SELECTIVE & immature people
that will make us upset
and disappointed.
at this rate,
the disappointing 'tradition' of sticking with cliques
and disregarding the rest..
it will pass down and down and down.
& xxx will never be as one.

at least thats how i feel.
and now i know why some people choose to leave.
because the feeling is horribly dreadful.
and the environment doesn't welcome us at all.

the popular will stay popular
and the disregarded will stay disregarded.
Period.

-no personal offence intended-

Labels: dance

@ 12:54 AM

SDZ Waves 14 Intensive Dance Camp ; Curry Jii

hello again, after 100 years.

im too lazy to update most stuff but anyway, SDZ Waves 14 Intensive Dance Camp was over the weekend. Last fri to sun. It was quite slack for me, was really boring at some times. i think those free times supposed to be for us to practice on our own but i was too lazy (so were many others). but either way it was fun.

Spent the whole camp with moderners. First night was awesome. played candles n sparklers n carried lanterns with them. thanks to pearl nadiah bev n some of the jrs for buying n brging the stuff. awesome shitballz. Pics on FB n shasha's blog. love it. (:

Spent many monies $$$ on unhealthy food sia. zzom.

Anyway, Waves 14 "Circus" is gonna be the dopest of the dope. :D
hohoho.
Die die must watch if not regret ah!

---

On other news...

CURRY JII! hohoho.
i should really focus on locking. been learning locking for quite some time now but my improvement is so little.
grateful to daniel for encouraging me to session with the curry jii lockers last tues (29 sept) n bringing me into curry jii. learnt quite a lot from just that 1 session. my strengths n weaknesses, what to improve on, confidence, etc. it was scary at first but really fun.
love it.

locking with them was really a.. hmm. enriching experience luh. somehow, i dont know how to explain the feeling but it was really different from dancing with people in sdz.
somehow it feels more comfortable.
all i have to say is, i really wanna session with them more often.
& more importantly, i need & WANT to build up my confidence,

Curry Jii yay!

CJ gonna session n take vid tmr, i wanna goooo but then again i think i should spend some time on cherie's choreo first. 100% vetting on sat. *dieded*

Labels: camp, Curry Jii, locking, SDZ, Waves 14

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Sunday, October 25, 2009 @ 1:30 AM So fucking pissed This whole post is full of rants and Fucks. so don't read, or bear with it. i dont understand why i am not allowed to go stay over at my friends' houses. i felt bad for showing the lousy side of me infront of the CJs but TBH(to be honest) , the part of not being able to ton is 1 thing, but the main thing that im really BOOMZZSHINGZ about is that i really dont understand how my bro always get to ton and i dont. i mean, yeah sure , about being protective esp when imma girl. & yeah sure whatever, im JUST 18 to them. BUT 18 LEH. WALAU. ok fine dont talk about age. thing is. ive always. ALWAYS been a v good girl, good as in the way that i always listen to them. i have never, NEVER ran out before. and everytime i go out, i tell them what is it abt etc.. and the few times i was allowed to ton, IM STILL OK. IM STILL CLEAN. i mean like. point is. yes sure, they will be worried. BUT LOOK. THEY SHOULD HAVE MORE FAITH n TRUST IN ME WHAT. its not like i go out or stay out late or dont come home every other day. its not like my friends are indecent people. its not like im an indecent / promiscuous girl. im just asking for a night at my friends' house with a group of friends. what's so fucking wrong with that la? nb. & thing is. even if u dont allow me, AT LEAST FUCKING GIMME A FUCKING REASON WHY LA. "Why cannot?!?!" "Cannot means cannot, you come home now." WHAT THE F U C K ? its like its like... punching me in my face. and then telling me, "oh, i just wanna punch you." its like, at least gimme a reason why i am not allowed to go la can?! i feel so fucked up. i feel so disatisfied. its like damn bu4 gan1 xing1 la can. i cant go for no fucking reason at all. just becus they buay song dun lemme go. and then when i come home they act like v good to me n stuff just becus they feel bad. WHAT SHIT. THEN LEMME GO LA. ITS NOT LIKE IMMA COMMIT A CRIME LIKE THAT.. FUCKING PISSED LA. Labels: Curry Jii, family, pissed, ton, trust, unfair back to top?
Tuesday, October 06, 2009 @ 10:17 PM depressed & unmotivated urgh. currently having gastric pains. ate already but still hurting. feels like as if smth is eating up my stomach. arggghhh i wanna chg blogskin soon. the images link all screwed up and the dividers also all off. cannot stand it! -- locking @ 3 - 5pm just now. i forgot n thought it was cherie's choreo, lucky i checked. Curry Jii session @ rp tday full-gear wear n taking vid. ahh! wanted to go but didnt. but anyway i was and still am feeling quite down n unmotivated becus of some issues. its because of those little things and those few selfish stubborn SELECTIVE & immature people that will make us upset and disappointed. at this rate, the disappointing 'tradition' of sticking with cliques and disregarding the rest.. it will pass down and down and down. & xxx will never be as one. at least thats how i feel. and now i know why some people choose to leave. because the feeling is horribly dreadful. and the environment doesn't welcome us at all. the popular will stay popular and the disregarded will stay disregarded. Period. -no personal offence intended- Labels: dance back to top?
@ 12:54 AM SDZ Waves 14 Intensive Dance Camp ; Curry Jii hello again, after 100 years. im too lazy to update most stuff but anyway, SDZ Waves 14 Intensive Dance Camp was over the weekend. Last fri to sun. It was quite slack for me, was really boring at some times. i think those free times supposed to be for us to practice on our own but i was too lazy (so were many others). but either way it was fun. Spent the whole camp with moderners. First night was awesome. played candles n sparklers n carried lanterns with them. thanks to pearl nadiah bev n some of the jrs for buying n brging the stuff. awesome shitballz. Pics on FB n shasha's blog. love it. (: Spent many monies $$$ on unhealthy food sia. zzom. Anyway, Waves 14 "Circus" is gonna be the dopest of the dope. :D hohoho. Die die must watch if not regret ah! --- On other news... CURRY JII! hohoho. i should really focus on locking. been learning locking for quite some time now but my improvement is so little. grateful to daniel for encouraging me to session with the curry jii lockers last tues (29 sept) n bringing me into curry jii. learnt quite a lot from just that 1 session. my strengths n weaknesses, what to improve on, confidence, etc. it was scary at first but really fun. love it. locking with them was really a.. hmm. enriching experience luh. somehow, i dont know how to explain the feeling but it was really different from dancing with people in sdz. somehow it feels more comfortable. all i have to say is, i really wanna session with them more often. & more importantly, i need & WANT to build up my confidence, Curry Jii yay! CJ gonna session n take vid tmr, i wanna goooo but then again i think i should spend some time on cherie's choreo first. 100% vetting on sat. dieded Labels: camp, Curry Jii, locking, SDZ, Waves 14 back to top?