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Sa1 is ovr. yea ive bin sayin tt since last post. but anyway now tt ive gotten all my papers. PAPERS result:

Eng: 29/50 (im disappointed)
Chi: 39/70 (juz glad i passed cuz my chi is terrible)
eMaths: 40/100 [12/42 passed-30failures. 23 F9s. highest-69 Yinchow. lowest shud b 13 or 14..] (as i xpected)
Physics: 22.5/50 [not reviewed but frm looks, half cls failed? duno] (as i xpected)
Chem: 26/50 [not many passed] (abit disappointed but xpected anyway..)
elHist: 17/50 [i think oso abt half cls fail] (xpected but stil disappointed)
SS: 17/50 [14 passed-as xpected by Ms Ang] (xpected but disappointed)
Comp Studies: 69.5 [most scored high for dis] (my oni subj >60, but i xpected highr.. blah!)
DnT: 53/100 [4 out of whole sec3 xpress passed-as said in last post] (ok la..)

juz got back SS paper 2day.. ytd took CS paper.. blahs! ytd Hist watched an ANCIENT show in ITR. it was a vvv old movie Animal Farm-accordin to George Owell's book. it was abit boring la. luckily i read de book b4 if not it'd b much boringer. nearly fell aslp in de cool aircon rm. LOL~

HABBO- BAH! juz found out recently tt almost all de HS DJs r stayin in de East area in spore! eeyer.. not fair lo! n im de oni one stuck at de boring North! grr.. last Sunday nite ferdy told me:
Tampines: limhjf (ferdy), VK (Venessa), habbogalz (cheryl), maia (Jasmine)
Bedok: .brightmms. (Biyong)
Pasir Ris: alvinjh (alvin)
Marine Parade: orangesoda- (Roycelyn)
oso i juz found out today through her blog. Blackspark stays in PasirRis oso! U SEE LA! ALL IN EAST LO.. aiyaya. not fair man! ahhhgg. blahs. ferdy oso say vk n jasmine in East Spring Sec, which used to b his sec sch oso. wow lo-so coincident. n im farrrr farr awayyy hahaha!

DJ real life meeting? shud b cool. but juz abit awkard la. i'll definitely b shy-at least i believe so.

my birthday coming le.. but til now no plans. i duno.. but i juz stopped believin in birthdays since sec sch. i just dun feel it anymor. sec1-my parents lied to me. dey said dey wun b celebratin but nvm dey say dey wil at least take me out to eat. in de end i spent de whole of my birthday in sec1 wid Chongyi's pri sch frens. n i felt so alone cuz i duno dem at all. in de end i nearly cried de whole trip home. ALONE. sec2-had a celebration but it was considered terrible. not tt i dun appreciate la. de thing i rly rly canot repay for is Colin TJ n Rayner. dey came wid 2 BIG BIG stuffed toy. 1 Eeyore n 1 Tazzie(tasmanian devil). im like OMG. but de 'party' was v. COLD. too many unknown guys like alex desmond yewli etc. BLAHS i dun 1na rmb.
n so it resulted. phobia of my birthday. christmas n newyears r even mor enjoyable. c-r-a-p.

Im still lost out there. but i wonder if anyone noes at all... back to top?

RIGHTS. Sa1'06 is ovr. great man! exams over yay! results back dead. wonderful~ DUH! time flies man..

Tues (16.5): Last day of Sa1. had Comp studies paper.. it was rather okay-2hrs n i had abt 30mins to slp.. dere was 1 qn tt i REALLY totally duno wat to write at all though-What is SQL? wth is tt man!? i dun even rmb seein tt in day-to-day lessons.. REALLY! anyway, me,mar, glo went to pierce our 1st pair of earholes today! yt was wid us, mel n mx din come. we went to de Chin Cheong jewelry shop-de one beside nrthpt dere.. $10 n we all chose de same earring-gold star. GRR shud hav taken silvr. but we oni noticed afta tt woman took de gold ones. den 4geddit lo.. i was de 1st to pierce-HENG1 lo! i think i'd probably die if i be de last-i kept AHHing, but din shout la.. i was tryin to laugh my pain away.. NVM. 2nd-mar. 3rd-glo-abit act cool la.. not like purposely wan say her la.. but its abit. dots. she sat dere like cool cool nth lidat. den pierced le, 1 sec lata- oww~ COMICAL MAN! lol. ya but when pierce tt time no feeling. is like 1 sec lata den de pain comes. & den IM A REAL GOOD GURL TODAY! i went to CO (Chi Orc) 2day wor! wowingly shocking. shytters lo~(learnt dis word frm orangesoda xD) i actuli din wana go. REALLY. den news spread tt Mdm Teo say dose hu dun go will hav detention on Thurs, den cuz of dis many pp hu wanted 2 pon(skip) CO decided 2 go in de end. den i oso go lo since almoz evry1 is goin. so we(glo+mar+me) went co afta comin to my hse.

Wed (17.5): 1 day hol 4 us cchyians 2 makeup for de polling day thingy.. actuli planned to go out wid mar yt dey all but yt din call mar at nite n nth was planned lo. so insted went out wid my ah1 dang4 ahyi. yea. went to watch Mission Impossible III. Tom Cruise wid all de crazy stunts. basically 85% of de movie was stunts. quite wowing la. but deres sm parts tt i dun undrstan y its necessary to do it. BAH nvm. de nxt thing im gonna complain abt is not v nice to my aunt. not fair to her but i hav to dump it out here, cant stand it.
FROM TODAY ON, I LEARNT TO NEVER EVR EVER SHOP WID TT AUNT. it totally drove me insane lo. KAO. afta de movie we went walkin rnd causeway. she kept encouragin me to buy clothes.. bags..shoes. WADEVR. but i dun1 la ok? i juz cant spend ur $$. single aunt in late 30s(i think?) n stays alone, supportin her ownself. i feel bad but i cant take it. right. tts stil okay. de thing i TOTALLY cant stand is de way she shops. she can take 30mins to look at TV sets n ONE HOUR TO CHOOSE N BUY A HANGTAN BASIC POLO TEE. wat the hell~ i mean hellooo? hangtan basic polo tee is juz a PLAIN polo tee. available in 15 different colours. WOW-look i can even rmb how many colours cuz i stood dere in de shop WAITING for 1hr for her to choose de PERFECT COLOUR~ oh wow. DUh. wats is WRONG with you?! n finally afta i lonng loong time i get to go home.

Thurs (18.5): nth much today othr den de boring Assembly performance & watchin Robots in chi lesson. got bak DnT n Maths papers. no fair sia cchy no marking days. CRAP. DnT is a revolution man. of sec3 Xpress DnT 06 Sa1 paper, FOUR students passed. highest is 59(shud b) Joshua, 2nd-Danny 56(WOW tyco lo..), 3rd-me 53, 4th-Meichen 50. wat crap standard is dis? 4 pathetic borderline passers in de whole lvl. cool eh~ bah! disappointin lo. maths is as pathetic. 3F 42 students. 12 passed. 30 failed. 23 F9s. wow~ nice numbr. highest is yinchow-WOW-69. quite surprised but happy for him la haha. i got 40/100. Agnes is so funny lo. paper 1 get 28/50. paper2 get 2/50. n she was dere saying Ms Tan shen3 jing1 bing4(crazy), dis type of marks oso can giv her. crazy.. LOL. n MX is even WOWer- for de last Qn of pp2 is smth like.. prove why PQRS is a right-angled tri or smth lidat. den MX wrote: Becuz i clever. i was like LOL!

Fri (19.5): SS today we watched part of movie The Pianist. abt WWI de hitler reign. it was v cruel. i find de story quite interestin but candice said it was boring. hmm i think ya sm pp wud not find it nice. n it was abit horrifyin-de Jew asked de man whr dey were goin n *BANG* she's dead wid a bullet tru her forehead. but it isnt as scary as i tot leh? as in. its not de worst scene to watch yet..
Chem n chi paper reviewed 2day- Chem 26/50. wow i scraped pass. not satisfied though. OBVIOUSLY douh cuz i din study well. n i noe it. Chi-39/70. highest is Dor. bah. i zi bei lo. scoring so bad for evry subj.
CO 2day. boring. as usual i kept fallin aslp. duno y. evrytime deres CO combined pract i will fall aslp. cuz well, Zhao lao shi kp pickin on de poor Dizi grp. poor mar. LOL!

SAT (20.5): went out wid Mar 2day. actuli planned Bishan at 1st place but Cheryl (habbogalz) tell me go Tampines Mall cuz she oso goin. so ya we went TM in de end. met Cheryl n her fren Jovie outside Swensens. so gan1 ga4(awkward?).. WA de first look at cheryl i am like. Oh my tian she's rich. her tee. pants. shoe. hp. wa her whole look is so rich type wor! haha n her fren was v fashion. me n Mar was sayin WA last time we sec1 we oso nv wear til so nice de. like toot toot wid babyish clothes stil. 2 years n such a big gap. haha. n we were condemnin ourselves when afta Cheryl n Jovie brg us go c earring den we told dem we myte look v long den call dem go shop 1st lo..
actuli me n Mar's aim 2day is to shop for EARRINGS as we juz pierced ear n no earring. but tt was de oni thing we din buy. LOL we did look lo but not much nice ones tt rly rly caught our eyes. mar was lkin for dangling ones~ HIAO WOR. lol recently mar hiao cha bor leh~ stil put A CLIP on her hair-which doesnt make much diffrence. dere is smth which i rly wan her noe but i dun dare say. i scared she angry me.. but its juz tt. wid tt clip on, it makes her look bimbotic. not tt she is! but rly, its not v nice-lookin. anyway. we wanted to buy de 'finger pen' de pen tt is like.. de shape of de hand den got finger signs like Peace, thumbs up etc.. ya but din manage 2 find a pair of same design we liked in diffrnt liked colrs. so din buy. we bought baby bottles frm Toys'R'Us. so cute lo!! KAWAIINEH! n we took Neos oso. $6 de.. so lil time 2 design n had probs in puttin bckgrnd successfully. din look rly nice but nvm la.
lata me n mar went bak to NrthPt n i called mom n mom told me shop at nrthpt awhile den lata cm fetch me go eat dinner. me n mar walked arnd lo. den we went to Timezone to look awhile n guess wat? once up de escalator, i saw weixiang's back. den i was wonderin mx shud b arnd. n yea. mx was playin de drums thingy wid sm unknown guy. me n mar stood behind her for 1 n half songs n mx din noe. LOL. Norvin was dere oso n i was laughin. so funny man!

Sun (21.5): ate dinner at Amy ah gim hse 2day. de nasi lemak Kailing's grandma cook was nice! i had 2nd servings wor! ate til so full. blah. went hm n watched Spore Idol. i missed de 1st halfhr. but stil caught most funny scenes. LOL NONG NONG AGO NONG AGO! looool. hilarious man!

kay i think 2day de i dun post 1st im too tired to think! lol right. bye!

Im so disappointing! back to top?

right. i shall juz post abt how terrible im feeling right now..
i just cried just now frm 10.10pm-11.00pm. 50mins. wow. de last i cried long was last year when my hamsters died.

why? cuz of sm habbo stuffs. i feel so naive. freakingly dumb. i cant believe it man. mayb im juz ovrreacting. but it is de VERY VERY 1st time i felt like tt.. i noe in tt situation, i hav no1 or nth to blame at all. but to blame my own naiveness. I CANT BELIEVE ALL DE FAKE SHYTING N CRAPPING. i feel so bad now. like im.. ovr emotional.. draggin my sadness to othr pp in habbo.. esp orangesoda- DJin.. she's rly nice, comfortin me.. but de more she does, de mor i cry.. its not her fault.=X

feel like writing de whole thing out right here. but i cant. its too... private. when tt happend. i rly rly broke down. n i told James evrything. n i realised de dream, de lala-land i was in all along.. LIM BEI LING. U FREAKING IDIOT. WAKE UP! GRR..

nvm. im feeling rly lost now. my heart is dead. im not motivated anymore. im not caring abt much alrdy. i lost it all. de 1st time evr i felt tt.. sick. pain. hurt. BLEURGH. im so naive tts de oni thing to say. haii.. duno whrthr i shld tell mar abt it.. she'll look me different. well.. i duno.

now i feel de best song to xplain how i feel is Na Ying's - Yi Xiao Er Guo... de lyrics. chorus.. my psnl msg.. blah. wadevr.

I feel like dying. Right now. just like this. back to top?

kay. its like de middle of de exam period. blah n im stil here usin de computer. sweeet~ okay crapping AGAin.

anyway. Paper ones hav bin done, so has SS paper n Chi pp2. yay!

paper one for eng i had no inspiration-think i din do well. =X for chi pp1 i felt quite inspirated.. haha duno y, think is cuz de topic is easy to write.

for SS paper i was quite relieved-i studied chap 2,3,5 n chap1(for fun). but i oni can memorize properly for chap2. luckily came out oni SBQ n SEQ whr 3 Q u choose 1 Q to ans.. 2 is on chap3-one on Sri Lanka one on Northen Ireland. n de one tt i did was de chap 2 Merger n Seperation. i did tt cuz tt Qn we did b4 in SS lessons.

Chi pp2. i rly duno to b sorry for myself or to b happy. happy cuz de paper now is new way of examination. insted of de old style whr MCQs n tian2 xie3 han4 zi4 r tested, now is 6 passages to read n ans. happy-no longer nid to study b4 de exam. sad-my chi is terrible, so, readin+undrstanin n ansrin Q to SIX passages in 1.5hrs is a tough feat for me. but, bleh. i manage to do all de Qns, although de last few Q was done in a matter of seconds-it was a few words ans=X HORROR!

anyway, de matter abt my frenz... well.. now im okay. but now im havin xing1 fan2 for my fren. hai.. mel arh.. mel's matter is so confusin. seriously i wana help. but she isnt helpin herself any furthr by not sharin it wid us. now Mel thinks tt mar, n mayb me too, is probing into her life. into de matter wid her,zw, n... dannylim(surprising). If she doesnt tell us anythin while we try to help, we duno if wat we're helpin is useful. i mean okay fine-she might b tellin us to wash our hands of her matter cuz de way we're helpin aint right, BUT HEY! we duno wats rly goin on. so please. we want to help. not bug. thank you.

HABBO! lol. im sooo happy n blessed to noe my fellow dj frens=D HS is so blessed to hav such a nice grp of djs =) haha! orytes. now i shall juz write all de DJs of HS here.. S-Senior,N-Normal,J-Junior. F-female, M-male
[S-f] Molecule/Molecules: de dj hu can dj for LONGLONG periods of time. bestest voice evr? XD
[S-m] Pickboys: he's a nice dj. quite funny sometimes. one of de Souper Clan. heard he's YuHuai. blah..
[S-m] Limhjf: aka Ferdy? Chi dj, vvv gd chi dj *thumbs up*
[S-m] Weweda: chi dj. hmm.. ok la..
[N-f] fallenx: ME!!! lol.. aka HANTU. used to b Hantu Elvis-LOL but Sunshine1000 tot im guy in elvis, so i chged.
[J-f] orangesoda-: aka KANGKONG xiaomei!! Roycelyn=D Aishiteru!!! lol. my jappo cher!
[J-m] .brightmms.: my dearest kor=P chuuu! lol=DD he sound like Pickboys. luv u oso!!!
[J-f] Habbogalz: Cheryl! hoho. she's a v cute xiaomeii[wid 2 'i's] haha!
[J-f] blackspark: black mama? LOL. she frm Philippines =) nice curls of words
[J-m] alvinjh: xiao3'er4!(waiter) XD quite fun to 'bully' him hoho.
[J-m] crank: NCC guy, evrytime sound like sore throat=X poor guy. De Jingle-Maker!
[J-f] =coconutgirl=: duno much leh..
[J-f] raiindrops: oso duno much leh...
[J-f] Mitch: havnt heard her dj yet, cnt w8. hear she bought an Apple com n tryin to install shoutcast.

tts de djs i can rmb 4 now.. im so happy to b able to noe dis grp of DJs=) brighten up my world.

anyway 1st May, Chromide Club 2nd lvl is memorable=X kinda. well.. i duno whrthr its serious or its juz a game but anyway yea.. kinda gd to juz write it dwn.. =D chuu!! chuu=kiss[in jap]

right.. anyway.. ytd night at 10pm to today 3am was v memorable. 1st time we did triple djing in HS radio. through Skype. so fun! haha, me, orangesoda- n limhjf. i felt so gan1 ga4(embarassed).. i find myself speaking like a kid. n i sound screechy =( ahh well nvm. it was fun anyway.=D

Should i lose my faith? back to top?