June 1st 1991 baby
ex - Singapore Polytechnic communications student
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this post. is not gonna have any hidden motives or whatsoever.
im just gonna say this.
'cus i really wanna say this one last time,
don't wanna have any regrets ; unspoken words,
on the very last day of 2007.

Goodbye.
Thank you.
I love you.

Labels: 明年会更好.

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new addiction. found this song on highstreet5. a new game i joined. its like eng-chi version of audition. www.highstreet5.com.sg



AWESOME. really nice. back to top?

sometimes i wonder.
am i being too strong that im actually putting on a mask w/o knowing?
or_
how many percent of girls can actually walk thru a relationship,
failed.
betrayed.
given up upon.
watching wid yearnful eyes her used-to-be-othr-half watch anthr girl yearnfully.
walking the oceans & braving the storms for her.
doing stuff for her he'd nv had done for herself.
& she witnesses it all.
Bearing the pain deep inside.
Lying to herself even, that she is strong and has moved on.
However, sometimes coming across some songs freaks her out as the songs start to dig out those unspoken pain etched deep inside her.
She wonders; she knows.
He probably wouldn't understand the pain.
He's just a changed person.
Beyond her reach.


Ai Otsuka - Planetarium

Yuuzukiyo kaodasu kieteku kodomo no koe
Tooku tooku kono sora no dokoka ni kimi wa irundarou
Natsu no owari ni futari de nuke dashita kono kouen de mitsuketa
Ano seiza nandaka oboeteru?

Aenakutemo kioku wo tadotte onaji shiawase wo mitainda
Ano kaori to tomoni hanabi ga patto hiraku

Ikitaiyo kimi no tokoro e imasugu kakedashite ikitai yo
Makkura de nanimo mienai kowakutemo daijoubu
Kazoe kirenai hoshizora ga imamo zutto kokoni arundayo
Nakanaiyo mukashi kimi to mita kireina sora datta kara

Ano michi made hibiku kutsu no oto ga mimi ni nokoru
Ookina jibun no kage wo mitsumete omounodeshou
Chittomo kawaranai hazu nanoni setsunai kimochi fukurande ku
Donnani omottatte kimi wa mou inai

Ikitai yo kimi no sobani chiisakutemo chiisakutemo
Ichiban ni kimi ga sukidayo tsuyoku irareru
Negai wo nagareboshi ni sotto tonaete mitakeredo
Nakanai yo todoku darou kirei na sorani

Aenakutemo kioku wo tadotte onaji shiawase wo misetainda
Ano kaori to tomoni hanabi ga patto hiraku

Ikitaiyo kimino tokoro e chiisana te wo nigiri shimete
Nakitaiyo sorewa sorewa kirei na sora datta
Negai wo nagare boshi ni sotto tonaete mitakeredo
Nakitai yo todokanai omoi wo kono sora ni


And maybe five;ten;twenty years down the road, you'd start to see how much you meant to me and how much i'd do/done for you.
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havent bin posting for ages.
v lazy to post now.
loadds happened.
shall summarize.

volunteer trip to girl's home on 18th wid kai n his church mates. it was enlightening.
for more info. refer to www.kaiisridiculous.blogspot.com
2am on 19th - Kai (=
sat on a super cute guy colleague's motorbike home on 19th. also my first time ever sitting on a motorbike. XD . & no, i din molest him.
xmas eve is awesome. free hugs at orchard! had fun. lots of fun. i got molested lah! kns~ but got to hug some cute guys. hoho.
tonned at chris' hse.
for more info. refer to www.reallystuckup.blogspot.com

watched Alvin & the Chipmunks at plaza sg ytd. right b4 work. watched wid someone XD. shall keep it quiet till im ready. (: crap! n i got late for work for 3 mins. back to top?

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aights. this two days of work, ytd & tday, have bin EYECANDY DAY.
my god lah! super lots of cuties+hotties.

the greatest looking one is dis customer dat came to apply for Best card. he's a hairstylist. i peeped in his Best card application form n saw his contact number, email, name.. etc. but of course i din go n rmb/copy it down luh! he's only eyecandy. he's edwin wong. n i can swear he's de hottest guy i saw 'on the street' . 2nd to him is de imm guy. HAHA-bev n emi will noe.

oh &. this 2 days a lot new faces in Best Denki. got new promoters come in n oso new tempo staff. ytd got this new guy who i still duno yet whrthr he's a promoter/tempo staff, work at the mp3-camera counter. he's hair is super nice, so make him look super cool. but his looks is average bahs.

AND TODAY. got this SUPER good-looking guy. a tempo staff, same as me n samuel n shahul, the green tags~. ANYWAY, he works at IT corner, WHICH MEANS HE'S AN EASILY 'accessable' eyecandy. HOHO. cus IT stuff is jus in front of CSA counter. =D

Eyecandies:
NUMBER 1 - Chris =x [dats becus i think i like him? LOL oh man, wats wrong wid me.]
2 - Jacky/new IT guy. [i cant decide yet]
3 - Benson.

oh, got many pretty ladies-staff too!

Pretty staffs:
NUMBER 1 - Qiaozhen
2 - idk her name! she work at KA, dun wear glasses de.
3 - new face, mp3 promoter.

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NOTE: all those stuff above are my own INTERESTS n OPINIONS only. so don't get so drama-ed if u hav different views or watsoever. OH AND. for those who hav been talkin to me on msn, SIAO AH. although i might like Chris. but PLEASE LA. its jus to keep me occupied so i can get over some stuff. (: besides, chris smokes. TSKTSK.
HAHA. chris chris chris. ohmygawdddddd.

met zixian along the stretch frm nrthpoint to bus intrchg. hellos (:

AHHH i cant wait for 7th Jan.
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aight. i REALLY REALLY want people to see this. so i'll embed here instead of only putting the link on the post below.



PLEASE WATCH IT. & on ur stereo loud.
there's 2 songs combined in dat song.

Trey Songz - Can't Help But Wait [awesome]


& i jus realised dat deres anthr original version by beyonce. slower one.



AWESOME SONGS.
ADDICTION BABY_ back to top?

havent been blogging. yawns.
2 off days straight. wohs~ rest for once.

10 Dec [Monday] : my mom's birthday tday. i still had work. she n my aunt came to find me during lunch. had lunch wid em. then after work went suntec for dinner. my uncle treat my mom to this Authetic Japanese Buffet. the place is called Kuishin-Bo. its really cool. met the i-forgot-wats-her-name-again at Kuishin-Bo! I LOVE THE SOBA THERE. deir food is awesome.
oh nooo. i think im seriously having a crush on Chris. thinking of him alone makes me smile. im glad theres smth in my life i can smile about. (:

11 Dec [Tues] : went to rebond my hair n my hse downstairs de market dere. at this Salon duno wat Yuan Yuan.. 70bucks. the guy din charge me for trim. so its rather cheap. =D bev came to find me halfway thru the 2hrs+ i sat there. the steaming of my hair part nearly killed me. super hot can.

after rebonding. walked bak home to put the emi's mp3 at home. den went wid bev to find O School. WE WANA LEARN DANCE. reached city hall n its like rainin. bought some stuff to eat. den anyhow walk. thanks bev for her hooded jacket to cover my hair. xd LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD. HEH HEH.

got lost. called for help. thanks for helping to check the location. den me n bev found out we were alrdy at the building jus dat its on top. went up n bev asked. talked to 1 instructor, he's Daniel. de Cash guy-according to the O School webby. haha. he looks kinda cute. HIS HAIR REMINDS ME OF MR STANLEY LIM. haha! cus its bouncy. bev is crazy over him now. [while im crazy over chris]

after O School, i dragged bev to PS Best Denki cus i wanted to show her who's Chris. hahas. den bev went to talk to Peiyi. her EX-supervisor. LOL. AHHH i managed to talk to Chris. hehs. i cudnt help pushing in the chairs at the CSA counter when i walked past. HAHA. too used to working dere.
im starting to look forward to work. becus got eyecandy. -drools- HAH XD
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY to see chris. -siao liao siao liao-

had dinner at BK. din eat my burger at all cus wasnt hungry. den pei bev at Action City buy presents. I WANA GET THE CROCODILE. SO CUTE LAHS. i hav a big one since young n now cant find le. den now got this mini one, keychain style. im so gona get one when i get my pay. xP

aftrthat bev went off to her maple fren's birthday chalet. i went up to best denki again for the hope of chatting wid yibei & june and/or seeing+chattin wid chris. but de shop so busy. in de end oni had a few words wid june, said hi to yibei, saw chris for a few seconds. den go off le. BAHS.

Today: woke up early tday cus had backbone checkup at HPB at 9.30. did xray as usual. only dat this time round dunnid see specialist, cus discharged. had a meal at this Chinatown duno wat complex. den walked arnd the complex. cus the complex is like, 1 part is hawker centre, 1 part is dry market, 1 part wet market. it was an.. eye-opener for me at the wet market. my goodness. they were like selling SUPER FAT TOADS. rly big turtles. catfishes, eels, eel-like fishes called Operation Fish. etc.. WOW man

aftr dat went to my not-so-close cousin's hse. she's getting married next saturday(22 december). den my mom wan go kaypoh help out in the preparation of the dowry n stuff. then homed. ahh! the cakes dey gave out were delicious! its brand is Cboz. makes me think of Cbox the tagboard. hah~

saw marcus lee at khatib traffic lights tday. he still looks the same. still as good-looking. only more mature looking. (:
gomen pawan- u came to find me tday but i wasnt workin. D: we'll hav lunch tgt next time. =))

SUPER FUNNY:


MUST SEE:
http://www.oschool.com.sg/videos.php?file=1
this is the vid that made me fall in love wid the two songs embedded in my blog right now. I WANT THE ONE IN DE VID WHERE ITS COMBINED. AHHHH. SUPER NICE CAN. I BLASTED MY SPEAKERS WHILE WATCHING THE VID CUS I LOST MY HEADPHNS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Happiness is actually something really simple after all.

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work. again.
nothing much to blog about.
'cept that i really think de IT staff Christopher.. IS REALLY CUTE. -drools-
haha! oh nooo~ i caught myself suddenly feeling very happy when i saw him. HAHA.
uh oh! XD

I NEED CASH DESPERATELY.
& my pay's not till TWENTY EIGHT OF DECEMBER.
-screams-

anyone care to loan me money?
terms & conditions apply.
it oni goes one way.
into my pocket.
n never back to you.
HEH HEH HEH.
[She seriously apologises for the randomness]

lunch tday, bought up to Best Denki de place for us to eat. den got othr staff eating oso. Qiaozhen n dis malay staff were talkin abt Qiaozhen's bgr problem+breakup. =[ i din talk at all. but i hear edi i feel quite sad. heard frm the conv Qiaozhen is a Gemini, same as me! =D oh and. Qiaozhen's pretty. =D
somehow i find dat this year is a crappy year for couples who had bin tgt for 1 year+. cus other than myself lah, i seem to noe many othrs who broke up this year. D:

the malay girl told Qiaozhen smth dat got into my head also. she said: "i tgt wid my boyfren 6 years. but i married a guy i noe for 2 yrs leh. people ask me why.. but there's no answer one this kinda thing. " i dont know why but wat she said inspired me. no link but it just.. inspired me to move on & stay happy.
Hope Qiaozhen will stay optimistic too. (:

Im past the grieving stage.
Im just. cant help reminiscing.
but its alright (:
Happiness is more important for everyone.
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STRONGLY RECOMMEND:
D: humongous zit. D: D :D: !!!
wore my new jacket tday. =D

my 2 cuz, juanning n liwen, came to find me during lunch tday. =D dey bought a packet of Cubyrop for me. =D YAYY. cus dat day dey came my hse n finish half de packet which i bought. HAHA!

ooh. my main eyecandy now has chged frm Jacky to dis guy in de IT section. Chris. HOHO. okay. i admit. i DO like baby-face guys. xd. Chris got dis lil boy look dats jus so appealing. LOL. but bahs. just EYECANDY. no othr meanings okay! haha_

met ting to pass her the fei lun hai photobook for her birthday & she treat me icecream. sat at mac. saw alvin & huifen. & alvin tan! haha. alvintan sat dwn to chat awhile. ALVIN TAN. GO ORGANISE A6 OUTING LEHS. RAWR.
chatted a lil, den went off to comics connection, den home.

im so flat BROKE. i need CASH!!!

Am i still able to see you smiling back at me at all?
Or is it just gonna fade off to just acquaintanceship?
Or even worse, strangers?

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ytd-today is a super tiring day. -yawns-
long time since i tonned + stay up thru de night.
fail to complete the 'mission' though. slept two hrs.
I WANT CHICKEN SOUP FOR TEEN'S SOUL!
I WANA GET MY HAIR DONE!

sent bro off to Pulau Tekong early in de morn, along wid mom dad eryi n ahgong.
wat wud u think of about National Service?
lousy, messy, scary island?
Lousy facilities?
small n ugly bunks?
sucky food?

well tell you wat. its quite an awesome place. it looks a little like a resort luh can! their bunks is big n they even hav mosquitoe nets lo!
& we got to eat their food there. DELICIOUS mans. fried chicken rice. they give u a whole drumlet! made me super full. =d

actuli not supposed to take pics but still:



came out of Tekong n back to Pasir Ris interchg at arnd 2pm. walked arnd White Sands looking for some stuff. den went find bev pei her for lunch. den she showed me some of her eyecandies. AHH why de fila guy not working dat day. DOUBLE ARGH. why nigel not working dat day. if not can visit n act as customer. LMAOS.
went to Kinokuniya to look for ting's frh first phtobook. found it finally! after looking thru 5comic connections & 2 populars, felt so happy to find it. yay! bought Luo Zi Xiang's phtobk for emi too. =) hope u do like it girl. (:

FREAK KINO. they paste the cost tag ON the book INSIDE the clear-plastic seals. %^$%@#$ SUPER KUKU LEH. zzz~!
in de end i rushed to White Sands n bought wrapping ppr+tape cus i hav to take out the seal/wrapper & take off the price tag. & den wrapped it while w8in for 354, while on 354 n i sat inside the place beside the downtown chalet entrance to finish wrapping.

din plan to ton in de first plc but rly rly wan ton, so in de end i did n mom took mrt all de way to dhoby dis mornin to pass me my working stuff. aww. thanks mom. i feel loved. =x

emi's birthday cake is delicious. Swensen's Cookies n Cream ice cream cake.
ANYW. super tired. after emi's mom+bro+cousin+aunt left. we-emi loon me min bev jeremy danny weilun n duno wats his name. idk is hilton/newton/wilton/milton. i only rmb got a "ton" behind. we went to play water bombs we filled ourselves.
CORRECTION:
me emi shimin & loon did de bombs.
players: emi min loon me jeremy
biggest victim: JEREMY.
biggest sabo-er: EMILY TEE YI LING.


min & me wasnt rly wet right after the bombs. BUT DAM EMI N LOON n jeremy for my case, dragged min den dragged me into the chalet toilet n pour the pail-to be exact, the dustbin, of water on us. CRAP.
lmaos! n me n emi fought over the shower head to spray each othr. HAHA.

WETWETWET.

arcade-d.
JEREMY NEARLY BROKE THE BBAL RECORD of 461. he oni left wid 20+pts more. WAHH~
his hand like cannon luh!


emi n i tried DDR twice. 1st time was utmost failure. LMAO. 2nd time was ok. failed at last song. my feet dam numb! ahh!

Cheers din allow us buy alcohol cus afetr 12. so we walked to white sands dere de 7-11. dey bought some. walked bak. bev retired to the bed. de rest of us did our stuff n weilun+shimin+jeremy+dunowatTONguy played duno how many hundreds of matches of Taitee. HAHA.
then we gathered to play heart attack. de cards seem to keep disappearing every Heart Attack. HAHA. played til ~5am. i buey ta han n retired to bed. n de othrs followed. so, slept for 2 hrs. n woke at 7 to prepare cus i stil had work. de guys went off at ~ 6/6.30 i think. huiloon n weilun were the two survivors which din sleep AT ALL.

work tday was SUPER sleepy+tiring. my eyelids super heavy.
had a super full lunch tday. KFC cheesy meltz+cheese fries. mmh. CHICKEN.
im starting to yearn for fried chicken often. i have NO idea why.
had a small fun wid a grp of the KA staff b4 i went off tday. dey let me try the thingy dat releases shock to ur body. my gosh! my hands like.. jump by itself. haha!

its the 7th.
or is it not?
haha, stop it tsuneko. back to top?

thanks bev for introing me. this ventriloquist is brilliant man! cant see his mouth moving at all.



Starting to like my job more. but oso starting to find it more n more boring as i am more used to the environment. i kinda 'like' anthr guy. frm IT section. Christopher. not like as in love-like but as in colleage/gorgor like. LLOL.~

thanks Dreamze. wat u said abt yrself. really really made me think. for once it really did.
i think im on the way to 'success'.
Starting to unlock the locks. back to top?

你好吗　
你的夜是不是跟我的一样漫长
是不是　
还把我给你的爱好好戴在手上
要坚强　
我常常对着镜子里的人大声讲
虽然说　
孤独的想一个人好像一种惩罚
MSN上太多的路人甲
偶尔你也该上来说说话
想着你的温柔　
想着你的模样　
我放不下
都说过了再见　
我们各自飞翔　
各自长大
抱紧爱会挣扎　
放开爱会心慌　
神也很忙
到底要实现哪个愿望
离开你那麽傻　
可以後侮吗

风很大　
怕你又穿得太少会让自己着凉
我很棒　
一个人换了灯泡房间变得很亮
每一天　
发生的事情我都好想要跟你讲
爱很怪　
什麽都介意最後又什麽都原谅
Ooh心里最深的牵挂
越想遗忘越不能忘

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我想念去年的冬天　
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔　
紧握的双手　
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有　
在你离开以后
带走了笑容　
只留下寂寞　
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜　特别的漆黑　
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜　谁在你身边　
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我　
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有　
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有　
曾属于我的 温柔

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她没有玻璃鞋 没有华丽衣裳 没有钟声的敲打
没有带花香 没有舞会妆 她的名叫 cinderella
不爱说话 不懂装傻 任别人叫她丑小鸭
春去秋来没变化 心中只有一套旧想法
cinderella的眼泪 难道现在就不珍贵吗
cinderella的伤悲 难道不需要安慰
没有高跟鞋 没有露背装 没有收过任何花
没有长头发 没有涂指甲 她的名叫cinderella
王子白马 现实神话 梦里梦外不属于她
这般年华无情啊 她期待奇迹般的潘朵拉
cinderella的眼泪 难道从前比较珍贵吗
cinderella的伤悲 其实更需要安慰
cinderella

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OH BEFORE I POST ABT TDAY. I FORGOT SMTH IMPORTANT WHICH HAPPENED YTD.
i was on the train on the way home frm work. n there was this gay 'couple'. they are both bigger-sized men. & they are wearing same rings & not totally same but VERY similar shoes. THEY WERE STANDING RIGHT INFRONT OF ME N FLIRTING WID EACH OTHR. omfg.
just imagine two bigger-sized men arnd 40s holding on to the pole n talking sweetly to each othr while they 'swing' arnd/flirtatious body language. MY GOD LA. n 1 of the guy hit the othr guy's crotch area. n the othr guy was like giving a gayish rply. urgh!

am starting to like my work a lil more. but still sians. nearly fell asleep a few times. YAWNS.
more staff talked to me tday. n dere's dis rather old guy, Wilfred. he was saying abt me wat see me stand at CSA counter like gentle gentle den smile den customer see me smile dun buy oso paiseh. lmaos~ but de way he talk to me a bit eerie. like like get to noe me to harm me de feeling. LOL. i think too much. XD
ahh. Jacky Chin is super EYECANDY cans! woos. & the duno KA/HA guy Benson Ho. de more i see Benson de more he reminds me of a poor lil cute puppy. *pinch?* HAH. glad there's still eyecandy to look at. to get my mind off stuff.

had lunch wid a colleague tday. duno how to spell her name but it pronounces as "Keen". yeah.
MY TOE HURTS. rawr!

Thanks bev again for coming to find me afta my work. =D
I WANA TAKE MORE OFF DAYS!!! =x
1 for emi
1 for bev
1 for cy-badminton
1 for dreamze-I WAN GO MIND'S CAFE!!
1 for yiting
1 for whatever's left.

but its gona be hard to take so many off. arggh!!!


Pen & Pencil.
Cupcake & Muffin.
Green Tea & Lemon Tea
Drama & Jack.
Tsuneko & Kitsuie.
Belle & Matthew.
Tomyam ban mian deal.
Roti Prata deal.
Ikea.
Hse warming.
Sayonara. back to top?

super tired tday. wanted to skip work tday. but bahs, parents dont like dat idea. dragged me up. had breakfast wid'em. din rly eat my portion of breakfast cus no appetite. den dey drove me to PS. thanks mom & dad. made me feel smth i rly need, love.

addicted to Rihanna's Rehab! wonderful tune n lyrics.

woo. dat Jacky guy is Jacky Chin. oh. theres dis guy frm duno KA/HA section oso kinda cute. he's got dis cute little puppy look-to me luhs. Name's Benson. xD OH & got dis guy he got this pooh-bear look but not attractive. LOLS. ahh n tday got to know anthr IT staff. Eugene Ang. talked a little. I YOUNG MEH. 16. bahs~!


passing evry hr. evry minute. evry second.
trying to smile.
telling myself that as long as yr happy,
i'd be happy.

So please be happy.
& yc, give him a chance (:
if not, regrets are horrible.

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its a new mnth. 1st december 2007.
sighs. future is bleak.
its really gone i guess.
i wish you well. =\

listening to all the songs you/we used to sing.
Nickelback - Far Away
Brian Macfadden & Delta Goodrem - Almost Here
Chris Daughtry - It's Not Over
etc..

can't stop thinking of the old times..
they are so vivid in my mind.
but they're so far away...

i thought n thought.
was it dat i ruined our one last chance?
did i rly stress you away?
if i cud, i wud do anything to undo wat i did wrong.
even if it isnt worth it anymore.
'cus i know your name has already deeply been etched in my heart.
& it's really gona take a miracle to erase it away.

Another chance to start over with you is gona be a wish hard to fulfill. back to top?

Jamie Jerry Vivian n i forgot wats her name.. came to Best Denki tday! hoho! hello! sad dey dun rly know me. oni say Hi. den no more. haha~.
PEOPLE PLS VISIT ME AT PLAZA SG BEST DENKI CUSTOMER SERVICE COUNTER THANK YOU. =DD

4th day of work. ooh found out dat the osim promoter looks even cuter than the AV guy Jacky. LOLlers! trying to keep myself occupied by oogling at guys so as not to think/reminisce of stuff.
bahs. cudnt stop my tears frm rolling down evry now and then. =[
life sucks.
love is such a mean thing.
used to think working at Plaza Sg's gona be a happy thing. hopeful of lots of meet-ups. well too bad. its gone.

7 September 2006~29 November 2007.
Goodbye.
Gona miss those times terribly.

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