Cold Nostalgia

Tuesday, January 06, 2009 @ 9:14 PM

history repeats? or not.

modern dance exam is done. din go as bad as i thought it would be.

not really gonna blog much during this period of time.
lotsa things happening.
lotsa work and emotions weighing me down recently.

[is this true or is this all a game? cus i really dont have the strength for games
im just a simple girl who asks for simple things.
i dont like complicated games. D':]
-i typed all those green words in the afternoon.
but it doesnt mean anything anymore.
becus i have been so fucking blinded by 'love'
its all a FACADE.
LIES.
i thought you were a nice guy deep inside
i trusted you.
i really did.
i thought i knew you.
i really did thought so.
but now i really really see who you are.
i never thought you would become such a bastard.
i never thought you would do such things.
i thought it only happened in stories.
heartbroken.
disappointed.
disgusted.
but all these, aint becus i fell for you again.
but becus i believed in you.
i had faith in you.
i really did.
but its not my problem is it?
why do i even have to fucking care?
why do i have to care so much so deep about you?
when you already showed me pain when we walked our seperate ways long ago.
have you even ever EVER wondered how it feels to be played?
EVER?
i thought you were my best friend.
i really took you as my soul mate.
becus you were the only one who knew me inside out.
the only person who cud read my mind jus from de little things i do.
but you used all these against me.
and going around for more girls to toy.
im heartbroken.
not becus u broke my heart.
but becus you disappointed me.
im disappointed.
not becus you didnt live up the de good guy i thought u were.
but im disappointed wid myself for having faith in you.

"Baby, been trying to getting this out of my heart forever.
Thought the remedy to a broken heart was you.
But I realized that it was just nothing, and I never should've loved you.
I was so stupid, stupid for trusting you. So stupid, stupid for loving you. Oh I'm so stupid, I'm so foolish. I'm stupid for loving you girl.
Should've known you weren't the one."
JC - Stupid