Cold Nostalgia

Sunday, October 25, 2009 @ 1:30 AM

So fucking pissed

This whole post is full of rants and Fucks. so don't read, or bear with it.

i dont understand why i am not allowed to go stay over at my friends' houses.
i felt bad for showing the lousy side of me infront of the CJs but TBH(to be honest) , the part of not being able to ton is 1 thing, but the main thing that im really BOOMZZSHINGZ about is that i really dont understand how my bro always get to ton and i dont.
i mean, yeah sure , about being protective esp when imma girl.
& yeah sure whatever, im JUST 18 to them. BUT 18 LEH. WALAU. ok fine dont talk about age.
thing is. ive always. ALWAYS been a v good girl, good as in the way that i always listen to them. i have never,
NEVER ran out before. and everytime i go out, i tell them what is it abt etc.. and the few times i was allowed to ton, IM STILL OK. IM STILL CLEAN.

i mean like. point is. yes sure, they will be worried.
BUT LOOK. THEY SHOULD HAVE MORE FAITH n TRUST IN ME WHAT.
its not like i go out or stay out late or dont come home every other day.
its not like my friends are indecent people.
its not like im an indecent / promiscuous girl.
im just asking for a night at my friends' house with a group of friends.
what's so fucking wrong with that la? nb.

& thing is. even if u dont allow me,
AT LEAST FUCKING GIMME A FUCKING REASON WHY LA.
"Why cannot?!?!"
"Cannot means cannot, you come home now."
WHAT THE F U C K ?
its like its like... punching me in my face. and then telling me, "oh, i just wanna punch you."

its like, at least gimme a reason why i am not allowed to go la can?!
i feel so fucked up.
i feel so disatisfied.
its like damn bu4 gan1 xing1 la can.
i cant go for no fucking reason at all. just becus they buay song dun lemme go.
and then when i come home they act like v good to me n stuff just becus they feel bad.
WHAT SHIT. THEN LEMME GO LA. ITS NOT LIKE IMMA COMMIT A CRIME LIKE THAT..

FUCKING PISSED LA.

Labels: Curry Jii, family, pissed, ton, trust, unfair