Cold Nostalgia

Saturday, May 28, 2005 @ 6:41 AM

haiz...

ok.. i dun reli hav da mood to write evrythin tt i was supposed 2 write[c last post].. i'd juz write wts m0r recent... kz.. 1stly.. OBvIouSly.. loadz had happened.. frenship.. etc.. hmm.. hav u tried audio conversation-ing wif sum1 for 8 straight daes? yea.. tts wt i did.. it tk place frm laz fridae-yesterdae.. wif a sec1 juni0r.. dtwb[sounds funny?] n u n0e wts de result? iz my mum scoldin me for usin de comp 4 so long[she doesnt n0e tt i was in audio, luckily] tt she scolded me juz yesterdae nite... n limited my time on com 2 oni 1 pathetic h0ur.. haiz.. n afta i brushed my teeth.. i went bak 2 my own rm[aircon was on n door closed].. lie on my bed.. n strted cryiN.. i cried 4 abt 11mins.. y?i dun reli n0e y 2.. bt i alredi wanted 2 cry since i gt my report bk baK.. although i improved.. bt considerinG my results of 2004.. iz stil a dung result.. i strived.. bt yt i gt tiz.. im juz so so disappointed of myself.. n den 3 of my grp of frenz cried... mel-she had a fever n yt came 2 sch caz she wanted 2 n0e her results.. bt in de end mdm yeo didnt even let her hav a lk at her results[she hd 2 go 4 teacherparents meeting].. i mean.. even so, juz a lk wun kill rite? she was sick n mdm yeo didnt even care.. she even scolded her.. while de other student did smth wrg she didnt say nethin.. bt while our grp did wrg.. she scolds lyk mad.. she iz so damn bious..
i particulary remembered once.. although i told no1.. i remembered... in fact, i noticed, once we[mingxuan,melissa,marlene,yeeting,me,gloria] went up 2 classes late abit, de other students were stil standin outside de class n mdm yeo juz came.. n den we gt dere juz on time, juz as mdm yeo came.. n yet she scolded us.. bt once, xiaoyi n jiahong came up late, vry vry obviously later den us as we were alredi inside the class n greeted mdm yeo alredi.. den dey came in.. n mdm yeo didnt say nethin!! she oni said: hao[ok].. hui qu zuo[go bak 2 ur seats].. WTH iz tiz man?! obvious biousness izen it? bt i guess no1 realised..
den glo cried.. i duno y.. bt shldve been n act.. den lata on.. yeeting cried caz of dennis.. haiz.. i oso dun0 wt 2 say or do.. i felt real sad 2.. bt i had i HAD 2 hold bak.. n den as i cried caz of tt.. i strt 2 recollect on de sad pasts.. n i felt so sd tt i continue 2 cry..i havent been cryin alone in my rm on my bed 4 so long other den when my hamsters died.. so obviously i was vry vry vry hurtt.. sumhow......

yesterdae.. went 2 marlene's hse as her mum wanted her 2 invite her frenz over 4 her sis[mandi] birthdae party.. so we went ova afta sch.. brought sum chips.. n balloons n we[marl,me,yt n mx-hu came vry late] had our own mini party in marl's rm.. n spent all de time tokin, on de com n takin pics wf marls cam??!! hahaz.. den went hm at abt 7...
think nth much 2 say le bahz..

What i wished.. was never to come true...