Cold Nostalgia

Friday, March 24, 2006 @ 9:24 AM

problem wid me

kays. its bin yet another week afta sec3 camp. stil misses camp days. esp cheehwa. my dear instructor-hahaz.

Monday20march: din go 4 PE cuz my PE shorts was stil hung up 2 b dried. Mr Tan was funny.. so is 3F.. we kept singing de camp songs/cheers de whole day.. n we kept Oiie-in.. n when cher says izit okay? we'll say alrite.. n den r u rdy-we'll say evr rdy.. etc etc.. den durin recess Syakinah n de ex2F peeps did de r u hungry cheer.. den me n mx dey all were all following. xD funny! got a new timetable 2day-dun like de new PE arrangement, on wed n den is 2 periods of comp studies den 2 PE den ACE den recess.. gah so mafan(troublesome). afta PE stil nid go bak cls.. hmm surprisin- Ms Tan Muimui canceled de supplementory 2day! yay-wow!

tues 21march: bah! de timetable given said wid effect frm 22march. in de end i packed accordin 2 old timetable. luckily most subjs were same. excpt de last lesson Chi.. i din brg. i dun bother anyway. Mr Yip is okay, but his lesson's r juz way 2 boring. zZz... afta sch had lunch wid mar, went 2 comp studies juz 2 print de hist proj which i paired wid dor-thanks Mr Samuel Tan!=) rushed 2 Blue hse 100m trial wid Emily-Emily won me =). oh yea 2day im a gd gurl~ i went 2 CO sectionals! bah. so borin, Zhao laoshi was teachin a new piece of song given durin hols sectional. i din bother 2 practise on de spot.

Wed 22march: PE 2day. Mr Tan is an evil man! PE tt time he call us run 2 rnds arnd field-sounds easy? TWIST time. for breadths, we must jog as a cls n mus b behind him. for lengths, we muz RUN faster den him. thing is. he runs dam fast! evil guy. so its like- run jog run jog run jog. so exhaustin. worse den runnin at own pace. 2day is a WAY FREAKY day. really eerks. 2day i went hm, bathed, chged, when i sit infront of de comp, i strted feelin things crawlin all ovr me.. den i noticed lil red ants crawlin on my hands.. real freaky.. its literally 1 ant here den another etc etc.. den it was all ovr my shirt. den i ran bak 2 bath AGAIN. den even when i dried myself wid de towel, even de towel had ants. den yea i chged lo.. amazinly my cupboard no ants. weird.

2day: nth much 2day oso. 5 pps absent 2day-Chad Atiqah WangHao Pawan Veronica. den Mrs Yeo was worried tt de sickness cycle repeats again.. wondr y dis year evry1 strts 2 fall sick. freaky. hmm i duno y i seem 2 like usin de word freaky dis few days. okay i finally finished my D&T wood artifact. afta like duno how many WEEKS. Mr Lim was worried abt us cuz we're v behind. sadded.

afta sch mel had sports heats. she had 2 go yishun stadium. i din want 2 go cuz v sian.. cuz its like.. i dun like goin hm so late. cuz its like u go hm late, u will feel v sian n wun feel like doin anythin. u wun even feel like bathin/playin/doin ANYTHING at all. i noe its v stingy tt i rather go hm n play maple den go n support my v own gd fren. mar n glo went wid mel. but i was rly tired. i want 2 go hm. besides, my mom is alrdy v unhappy wid me since hols til now. i dun wish 2 make her angry. but yea. nvm cuz yes i admit n i noe its not v nice. no. its bad. felt so selfish durin tt moment when we 4-glo mel mar me- toked n dey 3 tellin me 2 go support mel. but i rly cant. im 2 tired.. besides, things tt happend dese few days[dun wish 2 elaborate] made me real sad. gah. im jeolous, disappointed. wadevrR.

okay! Confessions time. dese few days i had not bin in gd terms within de 6 of us. y? my attitude+moods. i noe. im aware of it. i cant control. jus cant. im especially sorry to marlene tan munyun. i keep losin my cool at her. but i juz cant help it- its juz tt i rly dun like it when i tok halfway n den sm1 juz walk away. i mean. imagine u r tokin 2 sm1 n de person juz ignores u n walk away. even if it wasnt ignorance, it doesnt feel nice ok. it juz pisses me off. tts y nowadays im so sick of tellin things 2 mar. i mean, i dun do it on purpose, in fact i want 2 tell her. but i juz dun bother anymore. dun like ignorance. dun like pp turnin their bak on me n walkin away while im tokin. rly cant stan it. but yea i noe its not totally her fault. im aware of my moodswings n crappiness oso. but i do try 2 b comical n funny so tt its not so cold.
jus hope they'd understand.

Im trying, but pressure aint helping...