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ex - Singapore Polytechnic communications student
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kay frm de last post 2 weeks ago.. i was sayin tt i din go to sch on wed 22feb cuz i stayed at hm 2 do SS learnin logs. i wanted 2 finsh em ALL n den passup on thurs budden strtin frm aftanoon. i played all de way to nite.. UP TIL NOW I HAVEN DO FINSIH MY SS LOG CHAP 2 at all.. im like.. so pissed off wid myself.. ok 4geddit.

omg. i cant RMB wth happend in de last 2 weeks. i wished i wld b more diligent n strt doin my hw. REALLY doin it punctually. n oso i regretted not bloggin.. dere were loads loads loads i wish i cld just burst out right now.. jus here on de blog. but i cant seem 2 rmb dem n oso its 2 public.. i cant. but anyway.. i'll juz blog wat i can rmb now la.. de more prominent things..

anyway in de last 2 weeks.. Mrs Yeo is stil de same.. almoz always frownin n evry lesson she'll lecture us.. on EVRYTHING! she's sucha perfectionist u noe.. i pity her daughter. *sigh* ok.. she scolds 3F abt cleanliness,noise,time taken 2 line up,attitudes 2wards work,attitudes 2wards Chers. besides tt she once said music lessons r 4 music. she dun1 2 waste music lessons on other things like teachin eng.. budden she evry single lesson of music she oso use up sm time 2 lecture/enlighten us abt our cls bein so negative in things.. BAH. ok i admit we r abit off course. but some things r rly v difficult 2 achieved orytes?

I STILL OWE MS TAN MUIMUI TONS OF MATHS ASSIGNMENTS! -dead-

hmm.. 2march thurs. i heard tt Colin likes some1 frm 3E n is frm dance.. lalala~ hu? no idea.

3March (Friday) :Xcountry day! 2day lessons planned 2 end at 9.50am. tt means 1st 4 lessons oni.. den i v shuang(feel gd?) leh~ i dunnid brg ANYTHIN at all.. oni a DnT apron. the end. =D cuz my 1st 3 lessons is DnT(practical) n den de 4th lesson whole sch go hall, briefin on de Xcountry. gah.. Mrs Sim(discipline mistress) strts her usual naggin again.. blablabla.. nag n nag n nag.. den in de end we oni let off at arnd 10.30am.. den went hm.. played maple-James came 2 bootes 2 find me budden i feel v bad i din meet him in maple even when he ran tru maps 2 find me. he even died. n i was wid Pawan goin in Ant Tunnel deep deep to find Taurospear.. den he kill i heal.. den i cldnt heal fast enouf den we died.. den Pawan was dere sayin "so fun so fun" f2. so funny!

budden reason cuz i alrdy abit behind time. mel+zw mar+kc n glo n me planned meetin time+place: 1.30pm[rmbed by mar] at Bishan MRT. budden i was late AGAIN. i duno y u noe.. no matter how hard i try 2 remind myself 2 b early. i cant seem 2 do it.. even if i strt 2 bath early.. by de time i got rdy. im late. n i miss de bus again. den at Yishun MRT met mx jinlong n jackken. took mrt wid dem. dey went off at AngMoKio. den at Bishan called mar. got lost abit n cldnt find Mos Burger[i hav no direction sense in places i seldom go to okay!]. den in de end i was de EARLIEST one 2 reach Mos Burger. i din eat.. cuz no time. ye. k n so we w8 for 156. go Macritchie Reservoir lo. den reach dere.

Mrs Yeo is dere naggin again lo.. call us quikly sit dwn.. PuRr-LeEaSe! de letter stated is 3-6pm. we were stil early n alot pp werent present yet. besides, we 3F cldnt rly sit properly cuz EVRYONE was spreaded across different clses tokin.. n den or course we cant sit properly la cuz de space is bein taken up by students frm different classes.. she's so wadevr lo.. GAH! n den we waited. n waited. n waited. n waited again. 1st for competitors 2 run. guys upp sec den lower. den girls upper den lower? i think so.. den we STILL hav 2 wait for non-competitors lower sec girls den guys 2 run. finally den us upp sec girls den guys..(weird arrangement) while w8in Jason mange 2 inspire me on smth 2 do. he showed n gave me a stick wid many leaves poke inside. den look like stay lidat.. n so i spent de time making- de Satay Stick of Leaves! O.o

Durin de run Gloria was rly nice=). (mel mar mx yt all run competitive) i blieve if she din w8 4 me,which she cld hav but chose not to, she cld hav bin de 1st few 2 reach de finishin line. cuz i was de one hu cldnt kp up wid her=x. but ye i rly appreciate tt. in de end i ended wid position of arnd 35? ovr sec3s n sec4s girls. i improved! xD yay.. was rly tired..
Prize Presentation: Blue hse did real badly.. din perform(Sadly got 2 of Blue's v gd runners cldnt run-both got injured legs/ankles..Sophia Lau n Eugene Chia). n den later on me mel zw mar kc took 156 bak 2 bishan. Glo wanted 2 go hm early. Mx wid jinlong. yt wid dennis? not v sure. but we had dinner at Bishan J8 foodcourt. had Ban Mian. i showed abit of attitude i think? cuz i was hungry n tired.. n abit frustrated ovr SMTH! on dis day i was jeolous/sad/disappointed. -NVM- nth happend!

Later on i learned abt smth happenin btwn yt n dennis.. up til now frm wat i heard/know. at de busstop afta de Xcountry. yt n dennis quarrel-ovr hu noes wat, but mar reckons is cuz yt ask dennis go de mx church event thingy den dennis dun1 den dey quarrel? no idea. okay so in de end yt slapped dennis, in front of so many pp at de bus stop. den dennis slap bak.. den yt walk on de side of de road w/o carin.. okay.. tts wat i heard. so dis wat happend n alot pp strt callin dennis bastard etc.. budden i duno la.. i feel sorry. for both of dem. but smhow i think dennis is not ALL at fault.. is both. not tt i biased or watsoevr.. im jus statin de facts.. but rly i hope,aldouh it doesnt directly concern me, tt things wil get better..

6March (Monday) :Campus Superstar day! lol. okay i got tix 2 de Episode 9 of Campus Superstar tru Adriano's official fanclub(yahoo grps!). actuli i wanted 2 ask for 2-3tix lidat de.. 1st cuz i dun1 take so many tix, 2nd cuz i oni tought of la1-ing(pullin) mar 2 pei me.. den mar was sayin.. me mar+kc n mel+zw.. den i nth 2 say lo.. den asked n got 5 tix.. so yea we planned 2 meet at 5 at bishan MRT. eat dinner den if hav time take neos, den take 156 2 mediacorp broadcastin centre dere.. budden i was late AGAIN!!! dis time i rly tried even harder 2 b early den de time i tried for Xcountry.. but i was stil late.. gah. i missed 2 busses! ok. i wore a black polo surfers paradise tee(1st time, bought for intented new year), n jeans.

when i reach bishan i ran up 2 foodcourt 2 look 4 mar+kx mel+zw cuz on de last call, mar told me 2 go foodcourt find dem. n how nice.. i went all de way up n INTO de foodcourt 2 loom 4 dem.. called mar n mar told me dey were in KFC. n i was like.. wtf. say earlier la.. gah. mood is chgin again! lala.. n so i RAN dwn 2 KFC again.. -tired- felt bad when i spoil de mood.. cuz de 4 of em were sittin in de 4 sitter table.. den i go le become me mel mar in 1 table, kc n zw another table. ok.. by de time i reach dere it was abt.. 5.40-5.50pm. n i cant possibly eat. deres no time.

Chonghu-de tix distributor-told us 2 meet PUNCTUALLY at 6.30pm at MCS 2 gt tix. n den i knew we were alrdy late.. n so i was naggin at mar n mel 2 eat faster eat FASTER. i noe its irritatin but i no choice ok? i noe when we reached dere at arnd 6.45-6.50+ afta run-walkin a LONG way frm busstp 2 MCS we were tired n Chonghu was late. budden comeon la. i think if i din do de naggin we wun b dere until 7-7.10 lo.. even if Chonghu was late. which no1 wld noe, hav de courtesy 2 b early la. i noe im bein v pissy n rude by sayin dis la.. but rly wat.. its gd enouf we can get free tix lo.

Chonghu is a guy. its a guy. wa.. i bein bad budden rly all de while evry1 includin me tot he was a girl.. so we we infront of de vendin machine at de taxi stand dere.. searchin 4 a girl in Temasek Sec sweater. den in de end Chonghu called me 2 giv me de tix.. den i found tt he's a guy. -laughter betwn us 5-

de whole thing was v fun la.. aldouh we sat at de top, stil ok la.. aldouh i wanted 2 sit below(we werent early enouf-seats all taken-no numbered sittings). budden it was quite ok cuz dere were big scrns 2 show wat is showin on Chnl U now.. which is wat we're c-ing.. n omg ADRIANO IS SO CUTE!!! his performance of My Anata was so so so relaxed n funny n cute.. haha. i i rly luv his profile clip.. so funny! oh yea when de show ended we went down 2 tok 2 Elaine! found out tt Elaine oso support Adriano-Adriano is Elaine's mom's Godson!! -wa- n tt Elaine goes 2 MCS on evry episode wid Adriano in.. so gd de.. haha im jeolous! xD nola.. jus wowish..

okay.. afta de show i actuli wanted 2 stay 4 de results show.. den frm wat Elaine said.. de result show might end frm de range of 10.50pm-11.pm+.. den kc had 2 go hm cuz he told his mom tt he go hm at 10pm. GAH! tell ur mom end at late late ma! O.o nvm.. ok.. i REALLY wanted 2 stay.. cuz i was rly interested.. n i was hopin i cld somehow take a pic of Adriano at least.. or get his siggy.. budden mel+zw mar +kc all wanted 2 go hm cuz dey say v late.. den tml nid go sch.. gah.. n den my mood chg again lo.. i noe. n i feel tt im such a spoiler.. spoil all de fun we had durin de show. budden i jus hope u guys can understan.. its rly rly de interest ok.. its de 1st time i got dis chance.. n i hope 2 make full use of it lidat.. u noe wat i mean?

n den in de end is din stay-im v reluctant-.. n i nearly cried n lose my cool.. i was tryin v v v hard not 2 spoil it further.. or piss u guys off.. i noe is v tiring cuz tml stil got sch.. den oso i noe u guys parents will scold de.. budden i felt v v zuo3 you4 wei2 nan2(left oso canot,right oso canot) u undrstan ma? like e.g: lets say its ur 1st Anniversay since u sted wid ur bf.. n den on tt day u alrdy planned 2 go out wid him.. plan wat 2 do watch movie watsoevr.. den ur parents noe it as u goin out wid ur normal galfrens.. den last min ur mum/dad dun let u go.. or smth happen.. den its like.. u cant tell ur parents tt its ur anniversary.. an imprtant date. it means alot 2 u.. n so dey cant understan tt u hav 2 go out tt day.. dey cld say tt u can go out evry other day right? y muz tt day? when dey cant understan how u're feelin right then.

its de same. EXACTLY de same. it means alot 2 u.. but opposition doesnt noe how u feel.. u cant do anythin accordin 2 wat u want.. if not things will go wrg.. in de e.g. case u get in trob wid parents.. for my case.. i guess u guys will hate me la.. will find me not considerate of others lidat.. but i rly juz hope u guys will ming2 bai3.. summr at tt time i show attitude oso cuz i was tired, V HUNGRY n i v v disappointed+sad.. so i feel frustrated liao.. den attitude.. budden i dun feel gd lo.. i noe im wrg.. but i jus cant help it.

okay so recently.. this 3 days.. im not on rly on gd terms wid mar n mel as it had bin b4 de Xcountry+CSS show.. cuz i blive it had bin me me n me. im too obsessive n stingy. i noe! im trying v hard 2 not do it again.. but its difficult. v difficult when mar keeps like.. a distance away frm me.. its jus different le.. its so.. TENSION. its like as if like. de days durin 2006 CO camp lidat.. we were cold 2 each other budden we joke oso.. den we cold again.. like we kp dou4 zui3(argue? purposely oppose) lidat.. its rly difficult.. plus we were dicussin abt de distributin of flyers.. n i was naggy again.. kp askin abt de confirmation of days n time. i noe its annoyin rly. but u all kp sayin duno duno den cant confirm. tts y i kp askin! i wan 2 get it confirmed asap.. if not lata last min last min lidat. i hate dose kinda rushes n stuffs.

but fine if tryin 2 get replies asap is so difficult n it will make me sound naggy n annoyin, den i dun care!! i rly tryin 2 control n tell myself 2 b considerate. rly. i noe im rly weak in controllin my emotions. i cry for lil things.. i get angry easily. i show attitude on trifle things. but im tryin. i swear. cuz i rly enjoyed de beginin of 2006. whr all de 6 of us r tryin 2 stay happy 2gethr. i used 2 think tt we can nv stay hapi 2gthr. but 2006, u guys proved me wrg. i havnt given up. im stil strugglin. i noe im not de oni 1 hu is havin probs. im not de one havin de moz worryin prob. but yea im jus rly stressed out. i cant cope. i owe so much work. i feel bad. i owe my parents. i owe my frens. i owe myself.

I need to change... back to top?