Cold Nostalgia

Tuesday, January 27, 2009 @ 2:17 AM

past updates; CNY

Happy chinese niu year all!

chu yi (first day of CNY) have passed now, which means school's starting soon, again.
which means i have to worry about the ginormous amount of work again.
with all the stuff weighing me down inside,
i think imma suffocate and die.
sigh.

well anyway, CNY visiting was... okay.
i wouldnt say it was lifee-changing or exciting or what not.
mornin, was the last to wakeup, went to juanning's hse, then ah gong's hse, then ah ma's, then 4 jek gong's. same routine each CNY.
wore my new brown jeans, yellow tee xiaoyi gave for xmas, everlast shoe, n the dolphin necklace+ring aunt connie gave for xmas & used the bag my eryi gave for xmas.

no pics! D: have to wait for my bro to edit n upload onto his photoblog first, so in the mean time just the tinie few i took.

gee. $.$
love mom & dad for that SOLE 50bucks note

chu xi ye(CNY eve night) at gran's hse:

pretty pretty view

long-ago pics, which ive always wanted to upload but was too lazy:

17 Dec'o8 (wed) :

the stupid stupid long n neverending flight of stairs to the top when we were gg to Sinema@Old School to watch "18 grams of love"

& to the rest of the class who pangseh-ed me,mel,shaun n faris;
we got full particpation marks immdly. SUCKERS! hah!
no offence intended

the film "18 grams of love" was not bad. very entertaining.
rushed over to bugis to meet tyl aftr de film n Q&A session wid the director.
looked arnd for his long-owed birthday present. he cudnt find the jacket that caught his eye previously. D:
went cityhall after n his friend Alex joined us arnd peninsular plaza.
then to far east n tyl finally found wat he wanted. yay.

alex tyl bl
(:

23 Dec'o8 (tues) :
had lunch at cine's LJ n then watched Twilight(finally) wid von, ethel, sis, moosh, lulu, nelson, n jugg.

von gave us xmas gifts! :D
ethel gave us goodie bags! :D

Von's range of gift! i got a mickey. :D

neos we took before the show

oh and i met chad, wanghao, tianjie, llewelyn, huiloon at the neoprint shop. & coincidentally we were all going to watch the same show. hah! :D

10 Jan'o9 (sat):

pastamania wid AIZAI

23 Jan'o9 (fri) :

sean, sha, loges, az and me at T3 basement,
after a fulfilling dinner @ Popeye's!
full pics @ facebook!

ooh, i was watching a little of this movie on channel U n some of the lines the actor/actress said made me ponder.
as it was a chinese show, gonna put it in english and according to what i remember;

"By pursuit of returns, love is short lived;
only by loving without expecting any returns,
can it be an everlasting love."

&

"The greatest distance between us,
is not that you are oblivious to my love for you,
when we stand next to each other;
but is that we continue loving each other,
knowing fate will forever keep us apart."

its been 3 weeks now,
i know we made things clear.
i just don't know why its so hard.
so hard to forget.
so hard to move on.

everytime i thought i could move on,
and forget things happened betw us,
i get pulled back by the thoughts of you,
everyday.
its like your a leech that's sucking the life out of me,
slowly but surely.

it was a big, big, mistake,
that is making everybody tired.
& i know its not just me whos feeling it.
& though i hoped we could go back to how close we used to be,
before that happened,
we both know its gonna be hard.
at least i think so.
and im sorry.
becus i dont even know what i want anymore.
as i reminisce the past, each day,
i realize its killing me inside.

perhaps i really should go away for a while,
shut my heart off.
to forget you.
perhaps i could,
then it wouldnt hurt so much after.
perhaps.
perhaps.

If only it is possible to show you how much you mean to me.
Can we still be BFFs?

Solitude.