Cold Nostalgia

Tuesday, June 20, 2006 @ 2:54 AM

oral surgery

rights. as de title says: ORAL SURGERY. 2 words. TWO FREAKING WORDS dat i will undergo in 4 mnths time. bahs! okays. 7june wokeup early to get rdy. cuz de appointment was 8.30am at National Dental Centre(beside Health Promo Board). Dad is in sarawak, so me n mom had to wakup early to take bus+mrt. >< so yea. took 1 hr to get dere. anyway i shall tok abt WHY i hav dis appointment n lata WHY i nid an ORAL SURGERY! =*(

WHY i got dis appointment: had de yearly dental check in sch by de mobile dental thingy. den de female dentist found out dat i had a baby tooth amongst all my adult tooth(im alrdy 15). den took a small xray(slightly bigger den passport size phto dat size). saw dat my adult tooth for dat baby tooth is stuck in my gums, but de prob is, its not directly above de baby tooth. its like. 1-2tooths away. =x FREAKY. so yea, she referred me to NDC 2 do de rest of de stuffs.

WHY i nid an ORAL SURGERY: anyways. yea, when my numbr was flashed, me n mom walked in.. took xray, full mouth xray. big one. den i had to take out my earrings, which i juz pierced on 16may. i duno how 2 pull out =x den in de end de xray man pull out de left stud, my mom pull out my right stud. lol~ afta de xray, tried puttin de studs bak but my ears hurt, n it cudnt go tru. my ear bled=*( i can actuli feel de stud pokin into my meat?fleash?(duno how to spell). anyway, afta xray, took it 2 de leftest cubicle at de end. de male dentist was nice=) v frenly n quite funny. he n oso a braces expert(pregnant lady hu's quite cute=] she calls my mom "mummy"). took turns to xplain to us de situation while lookin at my xray. waa, can actuli c each n evry tooth of mine, n dat stpd adult tooth stuck in my gums 1 tooth away frm de baby tooth.

anyway, de thing is, it is compulsary dat de adult tooth stuck in de gums needs 2 b taken out by oral surgery. dats de oni compulsary thing. but de thing is, sooner or lata, de baby tooth wil drop, n den my smile wun b nice cuz it will leave a hole/gap dere, whr de baby tooth used 2 b. so 2 close up de gap, de full n complete solution- take out de adult tooth stuck in gums, pull out de baby tooth, pull out 1 mor tooth dat is jarked(wrg spelling) out on de top left, n pull out anthr tooth smwhr on top, i forgot whr. reason: braces. cuz if i oni pull out de baby tooth den put braces, my teeth will all slant 1 side to de gap whr baby tooth use 2 b. so in de end solution is at least 3 tooths hav 2 b PULLED out n 1 to b TAKEN out. afta all dese den i hav to wear braces. 2years. hai. n den de dentist+braces specialist said deir tryin 2 save me as many tooths as possible. if 3 tooths on my top jaw pulled out den my top n bottom jaw canot close properly, i wil hav to pull out more tooths frm bottom jaw. =*( bo3 gei2 liao la..(toothless? liao la..) terrible eh? n de 1st BIG BLOW dat rly made my heart fell ALOT was when de braces specialist told us de full cost of evrything. if i go 2 surgery under trianees, is abt $3000+ near $4K. den if specialist den is arnd $4200. if i go under trainee i stil hav to queue in w8in list for TWO YEARS. no way man. trainees.. SMMR 2 years of wait n 2 years of braces? i'd b like 19 by de time evrything is done. some crap. anyway. de 2nd BIG BIG SHOCK dat rly urge my tears even mor is de 3 options 2 choose of how i wana undergo de surgery:

General anestisia(spelling??): i will sleep tru de whole surgery w/o noeing n feelin anything.
local anestisia(TERRIBLE SPELLING i noe): jab my gums to numb it, den surgery carries on wid me wide awake, i can see n feel but no pain.
Semi conscious(canot rmb de proper term): inject smth into my bloodstream tru de top of my hands(opposite of palms) 2 make me like, dreamy? as in half aslp half awake. den dey will jab 2 numb my gums n continue de surgery.

of course when u hear lidat u will choose de 1st choice rite? dat was my 1st tot too. but de dentist den broke it by sayin."but de general blabla thingy has its consequences.. u hav 2 accpt de consequence b4 u can choose dis. its consequence is dat once u go 2 slp, u might never wakeup again"-dat was de exact words he said(other den de blabla part). at 1st i tot- nv wakeup again? lol! den lata on.. yea it rly rly scared me out. I CANOT DIE AT 15! IM STIL YOUNG OKAY? rmb marlene? i said to u i canot die so early, i haven give birth!! xD haven hav my 1st kiss!! my 1st baby!! my 1st etcetc.. ok anyway, yea it rly made my heart drop seriously. den in de end chose de 2nd choice although it sounds VERY scary. mom said 3rd choice de injection wil hurt, so yea. left wid de 2nd one.

afta de dental appointment, went 2 make my IC. yuckyuck my ic photo i took was so tootsie. i look like serious crap. so nerdy. n afta IC, mom took me 2 eat n shop arnd at toa payoh central. got new clothes.=) thanks a million mom. luv u, muacks!

i seriously feel like such a burden. im such a promatic child. my eyes r failing me. my parents r workin like hell n deir money r juz flyin away for my health. my problems. EYES-glasses. BACKBONE-Scoliosis. Overall health-falling sick very often:doct?. now yet anthr thing. TEETH. WAT IS SO WRONG WITH ME? my dad n mom r doin evrything for my health n im still playin away evry single day. my studies r a terrible load a shit. why? im so pissed off by myself. i hav no idea how n wat to do. i feel like dying but im too a scardy cat to do so. im petrified of death, i admit. i feel like running away frm reality. but, can i? no.

problematic, as always. as it is in evrything else in my life.